My PTSD Forum
This thread is a take off on my "Love is Dangerous" thread in which @FridayJones posted a reply stating that there are a number of different types of love and they aren't linear as many of us are lead to believe.
I found an article which discusses the 6 types of love according to the Ancient Greeks. I'll post the link and briefly mention each type.
6 Types of...
I have complex ptsd after a lifetime of abuse from birth with no 'before'.
I want to try somatic experiencing but cant find a therapist north of London!!
Does anyone know of a therapist in the North?
How does anyone fund therapy - if complex ptsd leaves you unable to work and earn how do you then pay for therapy?
best wishes x
I am really weepy emotionaly cracking and have been falling down for a while now. I have tried to combat the depretion from sucking me down but I am losing this fight horribly.
I went to dinner on Monday night with an aquaintance who mentioned a mutal aquaintance that has cancer and continued with empathy, sypathy and loads of concern. I freaking cracked. I went off at her and I said something I most likely should not have. To anyone that has faught cancer please don't take this...
I assumed I was "crazy" aka mentally ill for a while a couple years ago when the s hit the fan. I was told I was, after all, and treated for it - which did nothing for me, it certainly didn't improve my mood or attitude or outlook or resolve my deep despair and anguish over the situation.
And I deeply, deeply feared and resented "mental illness" as a diagnosis, as a label, as a concept, as an entity in my life I had to deal with. "Before" things were much simpler, i had no real awareness...
So I've been seeing my therapist for a really long time and I like her and trust her and everything, but I'm really really nervous to go see her this week. Last night I had a dream that she raped me. I don't know how to handle it. I'm not upset with her at all and I don't really feel like I trust her any less, but the idea of sitting in her office and her looking at me makes me feel like I'm going to throw up. I also don't know if I should bring it up with her. I'm just a mess right now. Any...
Ah, another chatroom induced poll.
Do you have a burning need to understand what you don't get? Do you put lots of research into understanding the mundane, the bizarre, and the not-necessarily-need-to-know things that come up in your life?
I start a new job in two hours and I have to leave for my college in 45 minutes, but I can barely get myself out of bed as I feel the incoming onslaught of a panic attack. I woke up under the overwhelming realization of the situation between my father and I. The part that tries to forget and continues in denial is temporarily broken and despite everything, my stupid heart still misses him. I still feel the sting and anger from my almost sister abandoning me and for some reason i still hate...
Please feel free to move this thread and your views on this are very much appreciated
It was my first day at work as you already know about it. It started of with so many self-doubts but as I went along it turned out the workload isn't that stressful and it isn't even challenging. I was told that everyone there is on contracts and their contracts are extended each time the first contract runs out. People are paid based on their education.
However, one hard fact that I found out was...
You would think the biggest trauma in my life would have been my gun wielding, volatile tempered, hateful and uber-abusive father. But no, it was being sent more or less against my will, to a psych day program a few years back. Not under any kind of imminent legal duress or whatever, but basically because a misdiagnosing quack with questionable ethics told me I had to because I was contemplating my own suicidality - and I was afraid to say "no" because I feared said quack would escalate to...
A discussion about Criterion A stressors on another thread got me thinking about a question I've mused over for a while.
I have a few of them. Criterion A stressors, that is. I don't want to say much about them at the moment, but they date to early adulthood. There was also a situation lasting about a year when I was unable to leave my abuser because he would not let me take my daughter with me. My heart is pounding as I write this, feeling I don't have the right to say this or...
I'm trying. I really am. The periods of wanting to die are getting harder and the peroid of being sort of ok are getting shorter.
I don't know what to do.
I've started an email and a text to my therapist a couple of times but I don't know what to say.
"Hey, T, I'm feeling suicidal"?
"I'm thinking it may be time to kill myself but I need a plan"?
Maybe go for a little gallows humor?
I don't know.
Maybe I shouldn't bother. I mean, he knows. He said he knew this morning. So I don't...
I don't know if this will end up in a different section, but I need to try to get a few things out and I'm failing with writing. I feel totally overwhelmed, exhausted, disorganized, and all of the attachment anxiety/issues. I reached out to my therapist. She has an open call/email between sessions policy.
I emailed her yesterday afternoon after I got the first official response to a lawsuit I'm in the early stages of (employment discrimination due to disability). I really needed some...
I will start by saying finding a therapist since I move to my current location has been an uphill battle. I started actively trying to get into therapy in Oct. But the wait list in this area if you don't have private insurance is months. Finding a new therapist will take forever and I don't feel like I have that kind of time.
Plus, I have lived in two other states and the mental health system here is so horrific, it makes the bad mental health places in other states look like a gift from...
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