My PTSD Forum
Sometimes, everything just seems too loud. The rustle of the plastic bag the cat is playing with, the swish of my husbands jeans pant legs as the brush past each other as he walks.
And I get this sensation that I don't have words for. but the best way to explain it, is that my body makes me feel squeamish. Because my skin is there I feel squeamish. No logic to it at all.
I can't type at that point because the sensation from the tips of my fingers on the keyboard is overwhelming. It...
Thank you all for your wonderful posts and threads about these issues. I am not a stranger to PTSD but until recently I had never known any combat veterans. I met this guy on a dating website. He seemed genuinely interested in me and we got along pretty well. We talked for hours and he seemed to like me a lot - he kept telling me how rad he thought I was and that he wanted a serious girlfriend. We had been talking daily for hours via skype and finally I arranged to meet him / hang...
One of the most striking things about my life post PTSD is how isolated I've become due to the simple fact that I can't bring myself to fake it with people anymore. I can no longer come up with fake stories about who I am, where I grew up, how I grew up, who my parents are, what they did for a living, why I dropped out of college, the list is endless. When I first got out of my parents' house, I shot out like a cannon spewing lies, lies, lies like a natural to every face I met. I could go...
so I got a concussion from the car accident I was in in March.
I've been so irritated. So anxious. So frustrated. So depressed. So discouraged.
I don't even know if it's just from the concussion or from the actual accident.
Has anyone had a concussion and felt this pyschological symptoms?
One of the things I noticed, is that I find myself extremely disconnected from reality.
I know I am, because I'll freak out, or react in a negative manner at times, unnecessarily.
For example, someone will do or say something and to me it feels like they're trying to start a fight or they're being aggressive, so I'll be extremely defensive and sometimes call them out on what seems to me, to be an attack. They'll look at me with a very confusing look on their face, like ''What is wrong with...
So, well, my major issue is anxiety and motivation. I just feel like nothing I do is going to make a difference so why try? So, well, I try everything I can think of cognately; however, am wondering if I should try Lexapro again. Unlike Zoloft which I recently tried (nightmare), I didn't have side effects, but I remember feeling like anxiety was in a box in my tummy. I just wonder if SSRIs are meant to treat a really anxiety-based issue. I did try Buspar years ago without success, but...
I struggle with PTSD. I couldn't tell you when it happened or when I technically was officially able to be labeled along with numerous PTSD sufferers, but it's there. I know that now. Sometimes I forget it's there and I function like any other happy, youthful almost 26 yr old female, but then I have my bad days.
You don't wake up knowing when a flashback will happen. It's not the equivalent of waking up and being like "God this day is going to blow so hard" I have days I wake up walking on...
Okay, so I know I haven't posted on here in a while, but there's been a lot going on.
Okay, so about a month ago I had to go to the ER from the group home I live in because I needed stitches. When I got to the ER, they doctor said I should go back inpatient instead of returning to resi, so they kept me in the ER for a freaking week (!!) while they figured out what to do with me. Then they said that the resi didn't want me back because I was too 'critical' - but my parents could take me...
Have any of you used sound or vibrational therapy as a healing tool along with your regular therapy? I've figured out that sound and sound vibrations are the easiest way to help me out of periods of shutdown (feeling like I'm immobilized or dying...nevermind that on some level I know I'm not...it feels impossible).
Sound seems to be something I can access from almost any state. And it has a direct influence on my jittery or chaotic nervous system, especially if sound is going right into my...
So Im almost done with therapy for my ptsd due to MST and war in the army. Im so stressed out on now going through the process of claiming ptsd and MST in the army..I know its a never ending battle with them and years of proving this or that...anyone have a easier way to the process i have to go through?
I like dogs. If ever I see one being walked, I ask if I can say hello to the dog and pet it.
I would like to have a dog one day. I wouldn't want to go into the thick of things and own a dog right away. I don't know really what it entails to have a dog. I was wondering if those who own dogs/ have owned dogs would be willing to have a conversation with me on that subject.
Interesting article: Dogs hijack the human bonding pathway
Research paper behind it: Oxytocin-gaze positive loop and the coevolution of human-dog bonds
Human-like modes of communication, including mutual gaze, in dogs may have been acquired during domestication with humans. We show that gazing behavior from dogs, but not wolves, increased urinary...
So both my T and Psychiatrist want me to start "stretching" myself, not "pushing", to be more active and involved especially now that I've been on my meds for a while now and have developed various tools and awareness. This is such a new concept for me I'm having problems with it. I'm so used to pushing myself and that's what got me in this mess to begin with. They say the more I stretch and am successful at it, the more self-confidence I can build. Has anyone else been asked to do something...
I'm finally going for my first "real" therapy session, but it's only happening about 3 weeks from now because they're full. It sucks it's going to be in 3 weeks time because I'm freaking out over it. I keep bouncing between cancelling and leaving it.
I don't know who my counsellor is but I only know that it's a male therapist. Other than that, I don't know anything else and it's killing me.
Has anyone ever felt nervous starting therapy because:
1) Afraid that your therapist won't...
My trauma comes from an abusive past boyfriend and my father. I'm a little frightened to write this online, I'm feeling quite anxious writing this.
When I was a child I was beaten severely by my father. It lasted all my life. I was also beaten severely by a past boyfriend. I passed out from being beaten at least three times. I was in hospital a few times. I've also been sexually abused and verbally abused. I think I remember being held at knife point at one stage. The biggest thing that...
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