My PTSD Forum
I'm moving on from a break up with my ex who isolated for a month and didn't contact me at all. He reemerged a week after I sent him an email breaking up with him - long distance relationship. I've struggled with letting go and still do, but I don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me and doesn't respect my boundaries.
I came across this article and I thought it was interesting reading. I find some comfort in the points it brings up, the biases we have that prevent us...
I was notified the other day that, after three months or so of not working, I'll be working this weekend to cover some coworkers. Its like the anxiety almost went into hibernation because of how good I was at avoiding stressors. BOOM. I feel it coursing through my veins, all over again. Suddenly what is muscle memory (I'm a cashier) seems impossible... As if it is again my first day. Quiet, nervous me. Trying to fit in and tell them what I like, what I do in my spare time...
That's not to...
I saw an old friend (who I dated) at a park yesterday. Not sure if she saw me wave. I'm not sure why I waved. Knee jerk reaction I guess.
The friend is from the job I left one day when my glass got too full and I fell apart. I never had a chance to go back and explain to any of my friends aka family. I'm so embarrassed that I let myself and everybody else down.
Intellectually I understand but it still feels like I abandoned them. It feels like I owe them an explanation or an apology.
It seems like every time he goes through a bad time, he feels the need to start pointing out how flawed I am and playing armchair psychiatrist. I have been diagnosed by him with so many disorders, I'm beginning to get paranoid .
This has to be some kind of coping mechanism, right?
In a study of more than 8,000 veterans in Hawaii and the Pacific Islands, those with posttraumatic stress disorder had a nearly 50 percent greater risk of developing heart failure. The study adds to a growing body of evidence linking PTSD and heart disease. The research to date--including these latest findings--doesn't show a clear cause-and-effect relationship. But most experts believe PTSD, like other forms of chronic stress or anxiety, can damage the heart over time.
Had my yearly evaluation yesterday. It went very well, happy to say. During the evaluation I mentioned that I've been trying really hard to get my times down, and that my medication and therapy was helping with that.
My boss is a very nice guy with many years of experience so this didn't seem to phase him. His response was "I'm proud of you. Not everyone is strong enough to get help when they need it."
That was that. It was probably just me, but I started feeling paranoid afterwards. Did...
My diagnosis came after I realised that this traumatic event caused me several weeks of disassociation at the time of the event and nightmares and disruptive memories since. Describing what happened and my reaction to it lead my psych to my diagnosis and the help I have received since.
I am hoping maybe by writing it out here, more help may come my way from my fellow members. I am having a tough time lately and remembering this event has caused some pretty severe nightmares lately.
My mother-in-law passed away today. It's been a long battle with cancer and particularly bad in the last few months. We had an up and down relationship. However, she did childcare for my first born from 2 months to 18 months and their relationship was special. It was precious and she had nothing but love for him. Last fall and earlier this winter, I would help make my mother-in-law more comfortable and sing to her. It seemed to help. I haven't seen her since the very beginning of...
Please help guys. I am so triggered right now. So scared and im just so upset because i was doing so good the last few days.
I just started wellbutrin like 4 days ago and ive never taken any meds before. I happened to start taking the welbutrin at a point when I wasn't triggered, as in I wasn't having daily intrusive thoughts and memories, suicidle thoughts, flashbacks, crying spells, insomnia, nightmares and all that stuff, major depression, anxiety, and all that stuff.
I am depressed,...
This is my first post, so please be kind.
A little background on my story. I have borderline personality disorder. I've undergone extensive therapy over the past two years and have just recently stopped because I've learned all the coping skills and am managing my life better.
I recently got involved with an ex marine with combat PTSD. I told him from the very beginning that my BPD will probably cause conflict with his PTSD. He of course wooed me and we fell in love with each other...
I have been disabled with PTSD for approximately 17 years. I am now 54 years old and still, I want to further my education, the twist is that I want to work towards a career in Counseling Psychology.
This is what I am interested in and where my heart lies. I want to use my time, money, energy, and life experience to help others heal. I have been in therapy since becoming disabled and I am doing really well.
While I still do have some issues to work on, I am always going to be a...
Hello I am new here. I am a journalism student looking for victims of PTSD. If any of you are willing to answer a few questions on your struggles for an article assignment I am working on please let me know. I live with someone who suffers terribley from PTSD from a workplace accident so I know how difficult it can be and my article will help people understand that PTSD doesn't only derive from war veterans. Privacy will of course be taken seriously. Only my professor will see this and if...
Ok so, I haven't seen my T in a month because she has been out for surgery. I have been seeing one of her friends and it was a nice change up. We didn't do any trauma work aside from me telling her about any issues I had throughout the week. We mostly worked on learning boundaries with my mom and watching for signs of codependency.
I see my T again on Tuesday. In a way I am glad because this month has been INCREDIBLY difficult. My PTSD has flared back up and I have had several melt downs...
You guys, I'm scared! The last time I went to parties out in the city with a significant other, they ended... poorly.
Once, he threw up all over my car. Other times he tried to undress me and touch me in front of our friends. And then there were the times when he flirted with other people in front of me!
I'm trying my best to remind myself that I'm with someone different who actually loves and respects me now. But I'm bracing myself to get hurt. It's not that I don't trust him, I really...
I've gone back and forth over whether to write this a million times. I'm extremely paranoid about everything I do, especially on the internet, because I often find myself humiliated. I'm very easily ashamed, of myself and my past, but that's ultimately why I figure I should go ahead and do this--I don't want to live in shame and fear anymore.
Most people start at the beginning, but I'm going to work backward.
I only very recently realized that I was sexually abused as an infant. My...
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