My PTSD Forum
Last Wednesday I watched "part" of the movie Whiplash. It's the new one with JK Simmons and Miles Teller. It won a few Oscars, is highly rated, and etc. All I can say is this - I HATE THIS MOVIE! It triggered so much in me that I fantasize about taking a copy of the movie, bashing it with a baseball bat, then burning it to nothing. My past has emotional, sexual, physical abuse from exes, financial abuse (if there's such a thing) and 4 MVA's in a span of 10mo (Actually 5 but the first was...
(Note: I’m the Scapegoat / Lost Child and Asperger-autistic)
Sven and I had a long history together as high school chums and although both of us were finished with it some years prior, we continued to correspond and sometimes go fishing. If there was any social group in that little mining town that had it in them to not judge me so harshly and reject me so vigorously, it was Sven, his family, and his entourage. It was as if I fitted flawlessly within their Scandinavian culture. He and his...
Causing all the nightmares, IDK why it is so hard for doctors to believe what I went thru was trauma.......I mean it was only one session and he said that the late Dr. had so many jumbled up diagnoses he wanted to knock some of them off.......So I have BP I I have GAD and I have Insomnia......These are all I have according to him. They gave me ambien which gives me such a hangover and headache.........So all in all I will have to hammer it into their heads that I have PTSD. They won't go any...
My brain is mumbly and humbly today. It has been since my family trip to Cali. Part of it is just the migraines I'm sure, but the there part is nibbling away at me like a sharp toothed mouse with something scrumptious to eat. My brother (half- but whole in my view) was only there for some of the abuses and has maintained that he recalls very little of our lives. In the van on the way to San Diego though he came clean and shared a lot of his memories. We both marveled that it was incredible...
So..This isn't exactly about therapy but it's not exactly about therapy.
I had my psychiatrist appointment today. I don't mind admitting that I was a nervous wreck. I knew she was going to take a complete history and the thought of delving to everything again felt daunting. At one point while I was in the waiting room I almost bailed.
The Dr was nice enough. We sat down and I smiled and said, "so what do you want to know?"
She began asking me about my childhood and started furiously...
I've been popping in, so figured I may as well introduce myself.
I'm Tim, I've been suffering with PTSD since 2012 although I was not diagnosed until over a year afterwards when I finally couldn't take it anymore and thought I was losing my mind, and a relative told me that I had symptoms of PTSD.
Since then, my symptoms haven't improved. But my ability to cope with them has. I spent so much time and energy trying to fight and deny what I was going through, I finally reached a point...
In my traumatic situation I was knocked unconscious and awoke to a beautiful sunny day, after a moment I oriented and realized I was in a complete nightmare. I'll spare details as to not trigger anyone.
But now, when I wake up to a beautiful day I often feel "out of it", sort of groggy, I have difficulty concentrating, generally lacking motivation to do anything, depression hits.
I think about waking up on that beautiful day and getting ready to go to the beach, how relaxed we were right up...
Ever since I was around 12-13, I have suffered from panic attacks/anxiety and depression. I was physically and emotionally abused by my father throughout my childhood and as the abuse escalated, the panic attacks began. Anxiety has colored my life ever since and while I learned to function with it in some ways, I also know that there have been many ways this has held me back throughout my life (school, jobs, relationships, etc). I've tried talk therapy, anti depressants over the years but it...
Far too long I didn't really understand what was going on with me, and it just made me feel more and more alone. I isolated myself more and more. I knew I most likely had PTSD. Yet never realized how "bad" it could get until past year.
This place makes me realize I'm not alone. I just want to "Thank Everyone" for sharing and support.
I won't bore you with details of my life story, but it seems today has been filled with reminders of what I lost out on as a child. I find I grieve over what could have been and feel like an alien on a foreign planet. I feel I am left completely incapable of understanding the concept of "normal", trying to fake it is a struggle. Nonetheless I get a view of it and desperately long for what others take for granted. Simple things are so hard for me, nobody can understand. these reminders...
Hello all and TY for allowing me to join.
I am in my mid-50's and dealing now with the things we neither had knowledge for nor the clarity in those long past times. It is only now after several years of counseling that I have begun to see the enormous unfairness brought on to me in my upbringing.
It is also just now I have begun to see how my upbringing has influenced my adulthood trends. I never could get, let alone hold jobs however hard and honestly I tried to be a model -albeit...
I have had ptsd for a year now and after experiencing many difficulties in trying to get treatment/support, I have set up a website and hope to start a support group in London when a couple of people are interested. Please visit my website to contact me or for more information. .trauma and ptsd uk is the name. Hopefully will hear from a few people interested. Many thanks! Hannah
Tonight, (Tuesday night) I happened upon a group posting that caught my attention! I messaged the person and the responded. After maybe an hour and 15 mins later I had a dog! Sadly, I mistakenly once again I might add gave her her freedom!
Right now, the dog is loose! I called our shelter (after hrs) and left detailed (as detailed as I could be about the situation.) Hopefully, I will know something later today.
I will update this post later...
My Vet got me good... and I walked right into it!
He just sat me down, and with a straight face "came out" to me. I totally believed him, and was very supportive. Bought it hook, line, and sinker... despite dating and being intimate with this man for nearly three years *derp*. I thought we were going to be on Jerry Springer for sure.
He's really quite proud of himself and has been laughing all night. Oh ho ho... he better relish it now, for paybacks shall be mine.
Did any of you...
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