My PTSD Forum
Please help guys. I am so triggered right now. So scared and im just so upset because i was doing so good the last few days.
I just started wellbutrin like 4 days ago and ive never taken any meds before. I happened to start taking the welbutrin at a point when I wasn't triggered, as in I wasn't having daily intrusive thoughts and memories, suicidle thoughts, flashbacks, crying spells, insomnia, nightmares and all that stuff, major depression, anxiety, and all that stuff.
I am depressed,...
This is my first post, so please be kind.
A little background on my story. I have borderline personality disorder. I've undergone extensive therapy over the past two years and have just recently stopped because I've learned all the coping skills and am managing my life better.
I recently got involved with an ex marine with combat PTSD. I told him from the very beginning that my BPD will probably cause conflict with his PTSD. He of course wooed me and we fell in love with each other...
I have been disabled with PTSD for approximately 17 years. I am now 54 years old and still, I want to further my education, the twist is that I want to work towards a career in Counseling Psychology.
This is what I am interested in and where my heart lies. I want to use my time, money, energy, and life experience to help others heal. I have been in therapy since becoming disabled and I am doing really well.
While I still do have some issues to work on, I am always going to be a...
Hello I am new here. I am a journalism student looking for victims of PTSD. If any of you are willing to answer a few questions on your struggles for an article assignment I am working on please let me know. I live with someone who suffers terribley from PTSD from a workplace accident so I know how difficult it can be and my article will help people understand that PTSD doesn't only derive from war veterans. Privacy will of course be taken seriously. Only my professor will see this and if...
Ok so, I haven't seen my T in a month because she has been out for surgery. I have been seeing one of her friends and it was a nice change up. We didn't do any trauma work aside from me telling her about any issues I had throughout the week. We mostly worked on learning boundaries with my mom and watching for signs of codependency.
I see my T again on Tuesday. In a way I am glad because this month has been INCREDIBLY difficult. My PTSD has flared back up and I have had several melt downs...
You guys, I'm scared! The last time I went to parties out in the city with a significant other, they ended... poorly.
Once, he threw up all over my car. Other times he tried to undress me and touch me in front of our friends. And then there were the times when he flirted with other people in front of me!
I'm trying my best to remind myself that I'm with someone different who actually loves and respects me now. But I'm bracing myself to get hurt. It's not that I don't trust him, I really...
I've gone back and forth over whether to write this a million times. I'm extremely paranoid about everything I do, especially on the internet, because I often find myself humiliated. I'm very easily ashamed, of myself and my past, but that's ultimately why I figure I should go ahead and do this--I don't want to live in shame and fear anymore.
Most people start at the beginning, but I'm going to work backward.
I only very recently realized that I was sexually abused as an infant. My...
I am very hurt by this.
I am a CSA survivor as well as an adult SA survivor. I have problems with hyper sexuality and disturbing fantasies, at the same time, I am very sexually repressed and find it difficult to act on any sexual desire. I have had very few partners and tend to gravitate towards low sex drive males.
One nights stands or reckless sexual behavior is not an option for me. Yet, at the same time I masturbate quite often and it is usually due to sick and disturbing fantasies....
The “Super Outbreak of April 3-4, 1974” occurred across portions of the Midwest, Lower Mississippi Valley, and Southeast.
In what was the worst tornado outbreak of the 20th century, there were 148 tornadoes over the course of just 18 hours, over half of which were classified as significant at F-2 strength or higher.
I was 13 years old when this happened and I thought it was the end of the world! I guess it's safe to say that it was traumatizing for me and tornadoes are now a stressor....
This weekend I have the first of three weekend group therapy sessions that span over the next three months. It starts Friday night, goes all day Saturday (early morning, until late evening), and all day Sunday (early morning start, early evening finish). It's a special thing my T invited me to, to help with my healing progress. Normally it costs a lot to go, but my T and the other therapist waived the fee for me and offered it to me. I have a few goals already set out for my self ranging...
I need to amp up my non-medication ways of promoting sleep (I've been increasing my sleep meds without telling my doctor because I keep thinking I'll cut back but I'm not seeing a good pattern).
I walk daily and do some other strength stuff (not a lot) but am wondering if it would make a noticeable difference to increase my exercise and get up earlier to do it before work. Currently I exercise in the evening, though not too late. It would take a pretty serious commitment on my part since I...
I have had a therapst that I have seen for the last 14 years. She has been more of a comfort T one I can go vent to. The most helpful she was to me was after my knee replacement only 2.5 years ago. Anyway she has been through a lot with me. As you can imagin there is a lot of history. Several years ago I wanted to stop going to see her but was never able to completly sever the cord. I have been seeing her about 1 a month or every other month for the last year.
I know she has been there for...
Today in counseling I could see the innocence of victims but cannot apply it to myself. I was saying it was a choice (incest long term) and the counselor was trying to get me to understand that the compassion towards the victims I know, who are teens, should apply to myself and that it's compassion and help I never had. Anyone else experience this?
I do not like the new meds I am on.. I was doing just fine with what I was getting threw primary care and now my psychiatrist came up with this new stuff and Im all down and cant think as good...
I'm so over whelmed with paperwork and trying to keep myself together and now Im eating like a pig and Had my period from March 1st till March 23rd ,,,, Im irritated....
Okay, had a really scary day today. I was walking to work (which I do all the time) and stopped to do an errand. Sales person was quippy at me and it made me upset - a usual trigger, but one that I can usually deal with pretty easily with self-talk. In anycase. Left the store and kept walking, but I felt so dissociated and like a younger version of myself. Kept almost wandering into traffic. Stopped to use the restroom somewhere and curled up in one of the stalls and could hardly pull myself...
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