My PTSD Forum
I'm a 20-year-old girl struggling with PTSD as a result of multiple prolonged traumas, starting off when I was too young to even remember and continuing in different forms until very recently.
I'm in CBT/PE and find it very helpful. I was just a kid the first time I asked for help (both for the abuse at home, the bullying at school and my own mental health), but even though I kept reaching out for help over and over for more than eight years no one took me seriously and most...
I live in a relatively rural part of the UK. Living here has helped a lot with my Ptsd, I used to love coming home from a busy day at work and the minute I got home, all the stress left me as I was surrounded by nature and my loving partner. We both love this life, as well as each other, we fit each other perfectly...no fights or argument, a deep respect for each other....a life many would want. In Nov I was made redundant...I had previously found myself unemployed while with my partner...I...
Nightmares are my most prevalent trigger and the one I can't avoid!
I was on a plane that nearly crashed years ago, the latest in a series of traumatic episodes throughout my existence, and I have suffered from nightmares continuously since. They differ from night to night, but all have a common theme: being in an untenable situation that I have no power or control over: falling off a cliff, landing up on death row, being pursued by dangerous street gangs -- just to name a few. Sometimes, I...
In the last year I have come on leaps and bounds. I don't get flashbacks, I don't self harm for the last few months, I got through suicidal thoughts, I've improved how I relate to people. I socialise. I am less numb.
Now, last week my T asked me to reflect on how far I have come in the last year. I don't know why, I got really upset. I can't cry (haven't in a long time) but I came close. I went completely mute for 15-20 mins.
We are both confused. He says normally when he asks that...
I have been in therapy for 3 years. My T diagnosed me with cPTSD and everything finally made sense. She really saved my life with her commitment to me. I recently had a session where uncomfortable things came up, I am not sure whether they are true or not, just appeared in my mind. I don't like to attribute potentially false meanings to random memories, nor was I encouraged to, so I chose to leave this where it is and haven't returned to therapy for several months. Since then I have been...
It occurred to me today that each and every time I had issues somewhere that I could not sort out (which seemed to be everywhere), I had to run away to give myself relief. This has turned into a vicious cycle or having less tolerance (cause this ain't my first rodeo anymore), and then booting it.
I don't really seem to think through the 'booting it to where?' issue and whether that would be good for me in the long run. I was, during the time of my PTSD presenting itself, a freeze/fawner...
Hi everybody...I'm in a bit of a bad place right now...just looking for some connection I guess. Something to remind me who I am now because I'm not being able to do this on my own very well. Have tried all my strategies to get grounded...can't do it. Hot drinks, holding ice, eating, breathing, mindful movement, relaxation meditation, hot shower...yikes. This has been going on since yesterday afternoon and I can't seem to get a handle on it.
I am traveling for work. Flew here yesterday...
So my husband (sufferer) and I's life has been turned upside down for a while now. Still living with my mother-in-law, but we're slowly on the track to get back on our own two feet and I'm trying to do the best I can getting us there as he's kind of been in major freeze mode. We decided not to move because my husband just couldn't handle the stress and the though of moving from our little support network seemed like not a good idea at all.
My husband told me last night that he hasn't been...
I am in a dilemma about taking SSRI's.
My doc prescribed Paxil to me after having a chat with her about the horrible PMS I've been having. The PMS is pretty extreme, it causes violent rage, anxiety and the urge to harm myself.
The thing is that I am learning to deal with the rage and the anxiety in a constructive way -calming myself rather than hurting myself for it -but obviously it wasn't going very well yet because when the hormones take over I lose all self control.
I am worried...
To dad: i hate you you. I hope you are rotting in hell. you ruined my life!!! How could you? I hope you suffer every time i shed a tear.
I cant even have normal intimacy with my husband. Its like im being raped or tortured by you!! My nightmares come alive. i start crying. Wtf. All i see is you. Disgusting you!!!!!!!!!
What hurts the most is how bad i hurt my husband.
And now its just me up and all alone
Its dark. I just sit here and drink my beer and try to keep moving...
After 1 year and 4 month struggle, going through so many emotional and physical ups and downs, taking 7-10 pills a day, going to the interview with full body rash (head to toe, mouth ulcers, tongue ulcers), I am finally happy to announce that I've Got A JOB!
I am very happy for making it to this employment world after so much trouble. However, at the same time I am a bit anxious about couple of questions that are running in my head:
a) will I come up to their expectations?
b) It's a 6...
How to let go of the past?
Okay how do I let go of everyone that I felt has crossed me and did me wrong? The people that told me, I have your back and when in reality they did not. How do I let go of my mother not being a parent and not guarding me from a world that is so effing messed up? How can I let go of my father not teaching me how to be a man? How can I let go of how I use to help my sister when she had kids and when I had mine she could not be there? How can I let go of everyone...
I can flirt/approach (barely) girls I find mildly attractive but not really all the way. Ever since I was 13 (i'm 20 now) i've been settling for girls at "the bottom of the barrel" if you will...
The girls i'm really attracted to I always get WAY to nervous and petrified to talk to.
Part of the reason is because i'm only 5'2" and the girls I like are really social party girls who usually go out with guys who are 5'9-6'0" so I feel like i'm really unattractive to them. I only rarely see...
Sam and I were in a relationship for 7 years on and off, but the last 4 years were solid. I was engaged to him for 3 years.
There were some parts of the relationship that were absolutely amazing. I really put myself out there for him. Like constantly surprising him and showing him how much I cared. He was my childhood sweetheart. I know I'm only 21, but it's really hard coming out of such an intense relationship.
In the last couple of years he got really controlling. It got to the point...
Summary: I recently left my husband who was emotionally and financially abusing me. It was terrifying, but with the help of CARDV, I have been able to leave and pick up the pieces of my life.
But he couldn't just let me leave. He's now petitioning to gain full custody of my daughter, who was born before we were married. He's trying to claim I'm an unfit mother and will no doubt cite my PTSD as a reason. But I've been in treatment and my doctor said my daughter is at no risk. I've actually...
Page 1 of 2