My PTSD Forum
Hello you guys. My name Daniel and I have nightmares every night. I take prazosin but with little impact. I was wondering. Will I ever have my dream life back. I was going thru a psychosis in 05 and was locked in jail with no advocacy to help me. I thought it was the end times and I thought cannibals and zombies where after me. I was in there for two and half months just to ask God please save me. I get out and I go to the hospital but the psychosis was a bad one and lasted five more months....
I have PTSD due to a life or death incident I was involved in as a police officer. I have been in therapy for over a year. Invalidation is major part of my Ptsd. My recent struggle has been with my wife going out with other male friends without me. Her main one, I dont believe she is physically attracted to but I still get very insecure when she goes out drinking with him. Usualky it ends up with them meeting up with other guys too. I do not believe she has ever been untrue to me but...
Hi all, I'm new here, won't go into details about why my brain likes to torture me as it's a long long story. I guess the main reason I'm here is because I've been seeing a lot of info relating to C/PTSD & for the first time I actually believe I'm not alone in feeling this way. I've spent years knowing that something isn't right but never really matching the symptoms for any diagnosis until recently. I'm approaching 40 & have been looking for answers since I was 16. I find GPs, counsellors &...
She has untreated PTSD from her last relationship that ended a year ago. It lasted close to three years and was physically/sexually/emotionally abusive. In 2006 she was engaged and that guy told her he was addicted to meth and then killed himself. She has not been treated for any of this.
We had been going out for about six months. Things were going really well until about a month ago- things changed and she started having severe anxiety and anxiety attacks, insomnia, and intrusive...
When I was growing up I used to visit the local park with my parents on a regular basis. We had our own paddling pool I used to love paddling in as a small boy. This outing from the age of three until primary school being respite from my brothers near daily beatings.
An escape that was mine, an escape from normal abusive childhood life. It was usually my father who took me, I may have been very young at the time but today I remember it vividly, my first visual flashback in a long time,...
About four years ago I was talking to my cousin in general conversation about childhood and mentioned that I oddly knew a lot about sex at a very young age. Then she said that my grandpa was very open about sex and evey topic and left it at that. After that I remembered him exposing my sister and i to porn but didn't remember till later that he
made me promise him to keep
it a secret after my sister and I were fighting over a piece of
paper he gave to her he had
printed. With the porn was...
I've been trying to write this all afternoon. Not sure I can.
I'm so tired of fighting. What really have I got to look forward to? MORE of this?! More wondering what's going to slap me sideways with a trigger? I've been triggered all week. It never really gets better does it?
My therapist guessed it today when I said I hadn't done any of my runs this week.
He kept saying that it gets better and that the only reason I feel like this right now is because I've just had one trigger after...
I'm at a friends house. She is having an international food potluck - everyone brought dishes from other countries. There are about 30 people here. It's a really nice group of people, I don't feel awkward being around them. I got through the dinner, and we are just hanging out chatting. I got a ride witha friend here, and she is driving me back home, but not anytime soon. We will probably leave in another hour or so,
I took 1/4 a tab of Ativan before I came and it's making me overly...
I have this inner critical voice just won't let up, used to be able to block it out. Almost like it is sabotaging all progress have made in therapy.
I am not sure what to do
Also been diagnosed with DDNOS and Complex PTSD, seems like such a struggle all the time
The little girl, barely age six. if that, awoke, but still couldn't move. She tried to scream over and over but nothing escaped her lips. Something very powerful and evil was in the room. Finally, after what seemed to be an eternity the screams left her lips. She cried out for someone to come, but knew it was futile. The grownups kept her in a makeshift garage while they were in bedrooms on the opposite side of the house from the garage door. They got mad when she cried, but she was so...
I have had an awful episode of anxiety today. I started an intensive outpatient treatment program for my depression/anxiety symptoms this past week and know that that plus the fact that my suffering online friend, S, has told me he is not ready to meet me in person is causing some form of emotional trigger.
I am calmer now but this feeling of "losing control" is so hard to deal with and I wonder what is happening to me. I have purchased two books now, one for myself about complex...
What do you think?
Whilst this is purely an example story based on the recent trial for Chris Kyle... do you think PTSD is attributable to violence?
Here is my example for why I do believe PTSD has a correlation to violence.
Before the military I hated fighting. Despised it. If I could talk my way out of it, or get away, I would. Fighting was an absolutely...
Today I was reading something that dealt with some triggering topics for me. When I have to face something that brings up uncomfortable memories, usually a lot of chattering will commence. I'll try to grin and talk over the pain in my head with desperate attempts at humor, irony, an artificially light attitude, defenses, superwoman posturing like, "Nothing can hurt me," callousness, whatever--just anything to move around the pain/shame/embarrassment/regret rather than through it. Today I...
My psych will be in a new office starting this week. I've been seeing her for a little over a year; we have a session in the new space on Thursday. So much anxiety for so many reasons, which bothers me because I think for most people this wouldn't be a big deal. I'm considering emailing her about this stuff but it seems excessive and I feel nitpicky and I don't like emailing or calling in between because I want her to have her time (she has an open email/call policy and frequently...
With help from my therapists, I've been working hard on confronting a bunch of fears. Despite the fact that I have a long way to go on my giant list of trauma and fears, I'm pleased with progress so far.
One surprise, however, is that anxiety remains strong, despite substantially reduced fear. I had assumed that the two were inextricably connected.
I think my body is stuck in a loop. Does anyone else have any insight into the relationship between fear and anxiety?
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