My PTSD Forum
Please feel free to move this thread and your views on this are very much appreciated
It was my first day at work as you already know about it. It started of with so many self-doubts but as I went along it turned out the workload isn't that stressful and it isn't even challenging. I was told that everyone there is on contracts and their contracts are extended each time the first contract runs out. People are paid based on their education.
However, one hard fact that I found out was...
You would think the biggest trauma in my life would have been my gun wielding, volatile tempered, hateful and uber-abusive father. But no, it was being sent more or less against my will, to a psych day program a few years back. Not under any kind of imminent legal duress or whatever, but basically because a misdiagnosing quack with questionable ethics told me I had to because I was contemplating my own suicidality - and I was afraid to say "no" because I feared said quack would escalate to...
A discussion about Criterion A stressors on another thread got me thinking about a question I've mused over for a while.
I have a few of them. Criterion A stressors, that is. I don't want to say much about them at the moment, but they date to early adulthood. There was also a situation lasting about a year when I was unable to leave my abuser because he would not let me take my daughter with me. My heart is pounding as I write this, feeling I don't have the right to say this or...
I'm trying. I really am. The periods of wanting to die are getting harder and the peroid of being sort of ok are getting shorter.
I don't know what to do.
I've started an email and a text to my therapist a couple of times but I don't know what to say.
"Hey, T, I'm feeling suicidal"?
"I'm thinking it may be time to kill myself but I need a plan"?
Maybe go for a little gallows humor?
I don't know.
Maybe I shouldn't bother. I mean, he knows. He said he knew this morning. So I don't...
I don't know if this will end up in a different section, but I need to try to get a few things out and I'm failing with writing. I feel totally overwhelmed, exhausted, disorganized, and all of the attachment anxiety/issues. I reached out to my therapist. She has an open call/email between sessions policy.
I emailed her yesterday afternoon after I got the first official response to a lawsuit I'm in the early stages of (employment discrimination due to disability). I really needed some...
I will start by saying finding a therapist since I move to my current location has been an uphill battle. I started actively trying to get into therapy in Oct. But the wait list in this area if you don't have private insurance is months. Finding a new therapist will take forever and I don't feel like I have that kind of time.
Plus, I have lived in two other states and the mental health system here is so horrific, it makes the bad mental health places in other states look like a gift from...
A pain psychologist that I met with recently seemed to sum everything up for me in saying, "You're triggered by your body."
We weren't talking trauma details. She knew I was working with a trauma therapist, she knew my list of medical issues and major symptoms (anorexia, chronic pain), and we talked about the pain a little. But just hearing in phrased that way felt like a major "duh" and also reaffirmed the somatic stuff I'm working on. I don't feel like I have a massive list...
I've probably sat here for an hour or two, just trying to figure out how to say what I want to say, and where to say it. I made my account here over a year ago now, and while I tried to be active at first my activity quickly died out. Even so, I've occasionally found myself thinking about this site, even drawn to it for seemingly no apparent reason. While I was thinking about what to say though, I realized what brought me back.
I hate this site. I hate this site because when I first made my...
It's all a lot to think of an introduction.
Man I don't know if I want to make this post serious or funny to lighten the mood.
I guess one of my biggest issues is that I constantly feel like I can't say I have PTSD. Even though I know I have it. I feel like it is selfish of me to say I have it when my life was not threatened. I've been in therapy since last summer specifically for PTSD, so I guess I can no longer deny it either.
Really I'm just looking for someone.. who at least kind...
Hi. I've been searching the internet for the last couple hours to try to figure out exactly what happened to me today. I'm hoping someone experienced can give me some insight.
Anyways I'm a veteran and going to school full time. I've been seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist each week for about a month for what I thought to be generalized/ test anxiety, depression and/or ADHD, all the while getting evaluated for 2 hours a week by a third psychologist. I don't have nightmares, but have...
I posted a post a while ago, mentioning how I felt often like my life just turns into a what then game, having no real point, just going from one objective to the other, wasting energy. For the last few weeks I can't get strength for anything...
I had a goal, to pass to the country competition, and last year, I felt completely like crap for not managing to do it, but there was still some will to go on left, and as I think of myself at this moment, I realize that I turned into one of those...
Not exactly new science, and something that is certainly well documented and factual, though it's nice to see them still plugging away for more specifics.
Women are found to recover better in trauma due to genetic disposition, being more emotional, talking issues through, so forth. Basically, everything that a majority of women are genetically.
An interesting read in...
I've been lurking for a few days and registered this morning so I'll post to introduce myself.
Hi! I don't know if I even belong here, but these forums have helped me make a little sense of some things recently so, maybe I do.
I've been seeing a therapist for extended postpartum depression (my kid is 2.5, it's no longer hormonal) and she thinks that the depression is trauma related (hyperemesis gravidarum, long difficult labor, and then a somewhat terrifying emergency c-section, etc,...
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