My PTSD Forum
I so very badly want to participate and be supportive to the people on this site. This site has been an incredible source of comfort to me and I want to give back to those that are also hurting. Seeing people go through the same things and providing encouragement to one another. You've given ME support and encouragement. I just cannot seem to type on others threads to offer it back.
I know that's terrible and selfish. I have tried, I have sat down and prepared a message only to delete and...
I want to preface this post by saying that I try really hard to give others respect and try very hard not to interrupt when someone else is speaking.
That said, why does it seem like everyone in my life doesn't reciprocate by NOT interrupting ME whenever I try to contribute to the conversation?
I really feel that this dynamic has led to my fragmented thinking and way of relating with others, as it has, upon reflection, always been this way.
A typical interaction with others is them...
Hi. I realized this morning that PTSD and anxiety don't have to rule my life any more.
I hate the onset of spring. We go from dark (safe) and cold weather (safe), quiet and civility to NOISE and PEOPLE AND STRANGERS WHO GET IN OUR SPACE! AND NOISY CARS WITH STEREOS AND ...
you get the idea.
But this morning, I told myself, I'm not going to give in to anxiety any more. No PTSD.
Am I silly?
Okay I'll start with the beginning. I met a man online January 2014, but the end of the month we were completely falling for eachother and made our relationship official. Only thing is we still hadn't met, or gone on a date. He has PTSD, and I knew this. His sons mother died during childbirth, and he held her while she passed. Then his best friend died in a wreck, and he held him while he passed as well. Now he tells me he sees blood all the time when he thinks about those things. We dated...
I've known for a month now he wants a divorce. He told me in a joint session with my therapist and then my therapist was left to clean up the mess. Instead of therapy, joint therapy or separating first he jumped to divorce.
I was angry, shocked and also helpless. I wasn't given a choice. He was "100% sure" that is what he wanted. And only in my diary or with a few people here did I say anything. All those emotions and loneliness for a month now.
I'm really very scared. And I'm free.
Hi everyone, I'm 41 years old guy coming to 42 this year.
This is going to be a long, long post I think.
Ok here I go.
At the young age of 27, which was 15 years ago, I was considered to be pretty good at what I was doing.
I'm one of the few people who managed to get a start-up going, doing some web development which was pretty popular at that time. It was going well at first, then something started to happen to me.
I couldn't know, I couldn't tell what was going on at that time. But...
Like Henry Fleming, I often feel that I am a coward. I was raised under a regimen of fear, and it made me feel weak, fearful, and ultimately like I can't stand on my own.
But that isn't my objective reality. I somehow manage to survive and even learn a bit more about myself and about how to survive as time goes on.
I suspect that is true for all of us.
I like the ending of tne novel:
The sultry nightmare was in the past. He had been an animal blistered and sweating in the heat and pain...
I don't post around here much but feeling the need to write out some feelings today.
I am just absolutely irritated - woke up on the wrong side of the bed I guess. Forgive my stream of conscious thought style of writing...
I'm irritated that I feel like I constantly try to help my husband get out the door with our daughter and I don't get the same help. Yeah, he is primarily the one who drives her to where she needs to be for childcare on any given day, but it bugs me that I get up and get...
I'm sure some saw my little episode the other night
I was flooded by suicidal thoughts and wanting to harm myself. I eventually did.
My T has been telling me I'm doing well and I've come along way... bam! Set back. I feel like a failure and I'm a bit depressed more than before. I have not had these feelings in a very long time. My only guess is I triggered. I need to get out of this toxic house.
I find I am often either eating too little or too much.
Like when I would have been in a crisis last year I barely ate at all, and would go weak and dizzy with the hunger. I had to really remember to eat. I didn't want to eat. I sometimes went through a day with maybe only breakfast and a burrito or something similar. I could only eat junk food.
Now I have improved, a lot. But I find what's happening now is my appetite is back but I am eating too much. or at least, I still crave junk food....
I've had two recent reminders that something about me marks me as an ideal victim.
In my childhood and teens I was abused/assaulted/ groomed/ by four different, wholly unconnected people. Two were total strangers to me before the relevant day. Yet each knew I would be the one to use.
Yesterday I saw in the papers that one former colleague is being tried for stalking and sending threatening to another, after she rejected his advances. Initially it was just an interesting bit of gossip,...
My name is Randa and I am 19 years old. This past December I was diagnosed with PTSD and I feel like I am drowning.
How do you even start to talk about this? I just don't know how, or why it happened. I thought once I got out of the situation that it would all be better. I thought I would acknowledge what happened and then go on my merry way. That's not happening.
It started with fear. I felt like something bad was going to happen to me, that I needed to get the heck out of...
Have you ever just sat down and just thought, how the hell did I end up at this point in my life, and being like this ?
I have been struggling the last while and I just sat down today and thought how the hell did I get to here, I'm 47 and I have no idea where to go from here. I go along life like someone has pushed the auto pilot button, doing and saying the right things at the right time. Inside I don't really feel much at all. I don't even know who I am anymore.
I know a lot of people...
Let's talk about our favourity hymns and the Bible.
Matthew 7:25 has always ment much to me:
Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts on them, may be compared to a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and yet it did not fall, for it had been founded on the rock.
It basically tells us that we must not be afraid because Christ is our solid rock and as long as we have trust in his...
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