My PTSD Forum
Yes! this is exactly what I am dealing with daily basis. When I was jobless, I felt I was good for nothing because no one hired me for more than a year. When I was at school, I was thinking that I will never make it to Uni. When I made it to uni, I thought I will never make it to honors, when I made it to Honors, I thought I will Never make to masters, now that I have masters I feel that I am running after futile success when I am internally not happy.
I don't think that I can ever stop...
Hi, so I'm new to everything. I'm new to PTSD (recently diagnosed), I'm new to online support of any kind and I'm going through a lot of new changes in my life.
I recently got out of a 2 year abusive relationship and I'm still not the best at talking about it-even when I need to. I've lost most of my support system and I'm trying to go back to school and work to put myself through college. Honestly, things have been gradually getting extremely overwhelming. Lately, I've been feeling...
I've been having nightmares on a fairly consistent basis for the past 3 to 4 years.
I cold turkeyed off of Effexor three weeks ago and my nightmares went crazy. I read up and saw that nightmares can be one of the many withdrawl symptoms. But they don't seem to be getting better.
These nightmares are a kind I have never experienced before. It's really hard to explain but as an example: the other night I fell asleep at 2 AM. Woke up at 2:15 AM and my night was over… couldn't fall asleep...
Hello everyone... I'm new to the site. I am the spouse of a recent Marine Corps retiree who is suffering from PTSD (amongst other things). Quite frankly, to be honest.... I am at my wits end and am looking for not only more insight into this cancer that has invaded our marriage/lives but some support.
I joined back in September as a sufferer (my father got me to join) but havn't really been on due to other commitments.
Just thought that I'd left everyone know that after nearly 4 years of repeated nightmares every night, this has now suddenly stopped so I am having nightmare free sleeps and I am now able to view my old trigger with nothing more than a slight increase in heart rate.
It isn't forever =]
I've been self-conscious about keeping one because if I do keep one, it would be a sign that I would still need a journal to recover, that I'm reliant on it for help. Do people without PTSD keep journals/diaries, and is it considered normal? I'm not worried about it being discovered, but I am ambivalent about keeping one because it would be a sign that I still have PTSD.
A few months ago I was witness to a deadly car accident.
There was a single driver involved, no passengers and I was witness to the body after the accident and as they were taking it away in a black bag.
I didn't know the person, never met them in my life and couldn't tell you much about them other than they had caramel skin.
Although I didn't know this person, or anything remotely about them, I still feel a very deep sense of loss. I worry about the family of this individual who was...
In December 2014 I was sitting in my boyfriends brand new car we had just purchased earlier that day. I was inside the car located inside a parking garage (third level) in downtown of my city, because he was supposed to be running in to take care of something for work for about half and hour and then we had plans to grab dinner afterwards. After about an hour I learned that it was taking much longer than planned, so I grabbed my phone and began watching Hulu to distract myself. About another...
I think I have finally made a breakthrough with my fear of trusting anyone. I have been having a rough go for the past several months. But a dream I had enlightened me just a little and it feels ok now.
My dream was about my new T and I blindfolded her to take her to "the house of horrors" where I grew up. We went in the house and I showed her the things that happened to me. The house showed all the gorry details of my past, which is weird because holes have been repaired, rooms have changed...
Tomorrow marks my lovely littlest baby girls Birthday, she will be six years old. The one child I realize I should not have a particular soft spot for but you see she had a slightly different birth to that of her siblings. She used to go to nursery telling all her friends "M" "T" and "K" were all born by nurses, I was born by Daddy! and she was right, you see all of my other children had a midwife led labor, Not my little "Hannah"
NOPE, she decided at 1100 pm that she wanted IN to the...
I think I saw my mom/abuser but it left me feeling like I was seeing an old person who merely resembles her.
Because I haven't had contact in 4 years, and because I'm having flashback of her abuse, it seems surreal. It's like seeing a ghost or imposter trying to look like her.
What is this feeling? It's a mixture of sadness, fear, disgust, pity, and I don't know what? It's like when a friend made fake throw up (sick) out of everything in the refrigerator and dumped it on me, and...
My therapist told me im working too hard in therapy and I'm not sure how I feel about it. It's actually the second time she has brought it up and she made an effort to mention it again. She told me I am always working really hard on getting better and analyzing my thoughts and experiences which is good but that I may increase my stress level by doing this. She said it's really important that I accept the times I feel peaceful and not analyze it or read psychology or anything like that. I...
It seems I've gotten real stuck again the past few weeks. I wake up from nightmares with paralyzing trauma, then after several hours, I shut down, completely dissociation. I honestly don't know which is worse. They are both very painful and leave me feeling helpless.
i cant stop i know its wrong to think this way and i should be positive but i honestly feel so lost and alone.
i have such an amazing group of friends but i feel so worthless and detached and its eating me inside. even when im around them.
its a headache and my body feels heavy i want to live normally. but i just cant stop thinking negatively. help please.
like i'll be around my friends and be all happy and then all of a sudden i'll just randomly shut down and bring down everybody's mood....
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