My PTSD Forum
Like Henry Fleming, I often feel that I am a coward. I was raised under a regimen of fear, and it made me feel weak, fearful, and ultimately like I can't stand on my own.
But that isn't my objective reality. I somehow manage to survive and even learn a bit more about myself and about how to survive as time goes on.
I suspect that is true for all of us.
I like the ending of tne novel:
The sultry nightmare was in the past. He had been an animal blistered and sweating in the heat and pain...
I don't post around here much but feeling the need to write out some feelings today.
I am just absolutely irritated - woke up on the wrong side of the bed I guess. Forgive my stream of conscious thought style of writing...
I'm irritated that I feel like I constantly try to help my husband get out the door with our daughter and I don't get the same help. Yeah, he is primarily the one who drives her to where she needs to be for childcare on any given day, but it bugs me that I get up and get...
I'm sure some saw my little episode the other night
I was flooded by suicidal thoughts and wanting to harm myself. I eventually did.
My T has been telling me I'm doing well and I've come along way... bam! Set back. I feel like a failure and I'm a bit depressed more than before. I have not had these feelings in a very long time. My only guess is I triggered. I need to get out of this toxic house.
I find I am often either eating too little or too much.
Like when I would have been in a crisis last year I barely ate at all, and would go weak and dizzy with the hunger. I had to really remember to eat. I didn't want to eat. I sometimes went through a day with maybe only breakfast and a burrito or something similar. I could only eat junk food.
Now I have improved, a lot. But I find what's happening now is my appetite is back but I am eating too much. or at least, I still crave junk food....
I've had two recent reminders that something about me marks me as an ideal victim.
In my childhood and teens I was abused/assaulted/ groomed/ by four different, wholly unconnected people. Two were total strangers to me before the relevant day. Yet each knew I would be the one to use.
Yesterday I saw in the papers that one former colleague is being tried for stalking and sending threatening to another, after she rejected his advances. Initially it was just an interesting bit of gossip,...
My name is Randa and I am 19 years old. This past December I was diagnosed with PTSD and I feel like I am drowning.
How do you even start to talk about this? I just don't know how, or why it happened. I thought once I got out of the situation that it would all be better. I thought I would acknowledge what happened and then go on my merry way. That's not happening.
It started with fear. I felt like something bad was going to happen to me, that I needed to get the heck out of...
Have you ever just sat down and just thought, how the hell did I end up at this point in my life, and being like this ?
I have been struggling the last while and I just sat down today and thought how the hell did I get to here, I'm 47 and I have no idea where to go from here. I go along life like someone has pushed the auto pilot button, doing and saying the right things at the right time. Inside I don't really feel much at all. I don't even know who I am anymore.
I know a lot of people...
Let's talk about our favourity hymns and the Bible.
Matthew 7:25 has always ment much to me:
Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts on them, may be compared to a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and yet it did not fall, for it had been founded on the rock.
It basically tells us that we must not be afraid because Christ is our solid rock and as long as we have trust in his...
She appears to be suicidal. She sent the note 17 hours ago through FB. I have texted, called, and emailed. No response. I'm about to call the police. I don't know where they can find her. I'm about to go hop on a bus and try to find her in the middle of the night... So maybe that is crazy and maybe not safe.
I have lost too many people I love to suicide. I can not lose her. No. No. No.
im new to this forum . My therapist suggested that I might have ptsd. Im 53 years old and I was raised by what I think to be a paranoid schitzpophrenic mother and a father that had complications due to diabetes. I coped when I was younger by having a few close friends who I treated as my family. They were my salvation and I loved them dearly. I have had trichtotillomania since I was 12 and Im wondering if anyone else on this forum has it. There seems to be a relationship between having...
I had a session with my T today and at the very end of the session she said she was going to be unavailable to all her clients till mid April. She said she could give me the name of another T I could see if I needed. I asked her why she never gives any notice of when she is going to be away. She said what difference would it make.
I consider myself to be lucky in the fact that I can cope while she is away but there are others (and I have been this way myself in the past) who would struggle...
To start off with, I will state that I also have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) and that is important to remember in my tale.
I went to therapy today, not feeling too great emotionally or physically. It's hard to tell sometimes whether the physical ailments are all related to trauma and emotions, but that's another issue to sort out.
I've made a lot of progress in the last several months. Progress that made me feel stable and strong for a couple of blessed months. And then I...
New here. I'm in a relationship with a combat vet who has been diagnosed with ptsd and tbi. We are not a new relationship, and have been in each other's lives for over 3 years. I know the ugly side and have seen the ugly side of combat ptsd. Recently, we had a huge argument/misunderstanding. I lost it and pushed too much, something I don't do, but the situation and him being mean to me really got to me. After it, we talked and he said he needed space. I agreed. He said not to...
HI, Im Tony, male, 30's, supporter of girlfriend of 3 years with ptsd. She has had very abusive relationships ending up with one guy in prison.
I supported her through the trial, and I dont feel I've ever got over the stress from that alone. Had some medical issues too with hospitals etc, added stress. Loss of employment for both of us at one stage, lost contact with friends.
Shes had some therapy, not in it at the moment, whe wont take medication.
Things should be 'ok' money is not so...
So, the brief history (and I've posted on here about these issues before) is that I was in an abusive relationship and was raped. It's been three and a half years and I've not had a relationship in that time. Though I did muck around a little with an old friend when drunk once.
Now, i've met a guy and I am falling. And he's nice and funny and everything I could want at this point in time. On our third date I hugged him goodbye (these dates have all lasted 5-7 hours because we just can't...
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