Moonshadow
Confident
No, I'm not suicidal. No, I don't want to hurt myself. But sometimes I see me hurting myself with a knife, or slamming my head on the pavement. I'm afraid to take pain relievers, as I see myself swallowing the whole bottle.
I don't want to do any of these things. I want to live and feel good.
I feel numb and lost and cold and hopeless. I'm dizzy and nauseous. I can't sleep or think. I just stare at nothing, lost in my own darkness.
I'm afraid to share these thoughts with anyone around me, as I don't want them to see how deep my pain is. I'm also terrified of being hospitalized.
And I was doing so well for awhile there.
I don't want to do any of these things. I want to live and feel good.
I feel numb and lost and cold and hopeless. I'm dizzy and nauseous. I can't sleep or think. I just stare at nothing, lost in my own darkness.
I'm afraid to share these thoughts with anyone around me, as I don't want them to see how deep my pain is. I'm also terrified of being hospitalized.
And I was doing so well for awhile there.