James McGregor
Confident
Hi all - posted this in another thread, but think this is probably the correct place for it.
If youll allow me ill give a bit of history before asking my question, please stick with it :)
I am a 39 year old male from Scotland. As a child i was always a nervous sort of kid, always a bit frightened with the world. For many years that wasnt really a problem, as a kid i didnt really realise that how i was was a problem.
Shortly after my 16th birthday i was in a car accident, as i was walking home from work late one night, a car pulled up behind me and popped me on the bonnet. They drove with me on the car for a short time then i flew off and landed in the road. As i was lying on my back, momentum kept the car moving forward and i could see it heading to run over my head and body. Reaction kicked in and still on my back, i scrambled backwards to try and get out of the way, but my leg got trapped under the wheel. When the driver saw where i was, they wheelspun the car and i ended up with a badly damaged leg. For the next year i was in recovery, and over time i healed physically very well.
I cant say i thought a lot about the accident in the following years, but since i have always suffered badly with Anxiety and Depression, going in and out of therapy as a way to cope with life. Now i cant stand crowds, i dont have any kind of social life, i have OCD issues - everything has to be a certain way, and any attempt to change my routine leads to massive panic and distress. I also have terrible health anxiety, i feel im in fear of my life a lot.
For the last couple of years things have been a lot worse, i had a prolapsed disc in 2014, probably related to the accident all those years ago, and i had a breakdown. I think about the aftercare of the accident a lot, and quite fondly, its like i miss that time and want to be back there. The event itself does flash in my mind, but a lot of it is a blur.
Just wondered if the accident could have all started this rollercoaster of problems, without even being aware of it in many ways? Can anyone relate or offer advice? Many thanks
If youll allow me ill give a bit of history before asking my question, please stick with it :)
I am a 39 year old male from Scotland. As a child i was always a nervous sort of kid, always a bit frightened with the world. For many years that wasnt really a problem, as a kid i didnt really realise that how i was was a problem.
Shortly after my 16th birthday i was in a car accident, as i was walking home from work late one night, a car pulled up behind me and popped me on the bonnet. They drove with me on the car for a short time then i flew off and landed in the road. As i was lying on my back, momentum kept the car moving forward and i could see it heading to run over my head and body. Reaction kicked in and still on my back, i scrambled backwards to try and get out of the way, but my leg got trapped under the wheel. When the driver saw where i was, they wheelspun the car and i ended up with a badly damaged leg. For the next year i was in recovery, and over time i healed physically very well.
I cant say i thought a lot about the accident in the following years, but since i have always suffered badly with Anxiety and Depression, going in and out of therapy as a way to cope with life. Now i cant stand crowds, i dont have any kind of social life, i have OCD issues - everything has to be a certain way, and any attempt to change my routine leads to massive panic and distress. I also have terrible health anxiety, i feel im in fear of my life a lot.
For the last couple of years things have been a lot worse, i had a prolapsed disc in 2014, probably related to the accident all those years ago, and i had a breakdown. I think about the aftercare of the accident a lot, and quite fondly, its like i miss that time and want to be back there. The event itself does flash in my mind, but a lot of it is a blur.
Just wondered if the accident could have all started this rollercoaster of problems, without even being aware of it in many ways? Can anyone relate or offer advice? Many thanks