No. This isn't a pleasant topic but we ignore the negative at our own peril.
What are some things that PTSD confirmed about your less-pleasant opinions of people and life; or, conversely, did PTSD show you new ugly truths in the behaviour of others, or just how damn unfair the universe can be?
One ugly realization for me was how my co-workers resented me for being good at my job. Not even a brag. I simply paid my dues, watched and learned, and worked my ass off. I always tried to school newbies and lead by example. I loved to teach and pass down wisdom. I'm at that age where I feel like I've done enough to be considered Wise. Ok maybe that's a bit of a brag.
Now I know my coworkers hated me for it. Every memory now has the colouring of a lie. I have a theory that they also hated me because I showed I was weak. That wasn't allowed in our field.
This was a vicious moment of realization that knocked me on my ass for months. My team betrayed me and its such a raw f*cking nerve. Ugh.
What are some things that PTSD confirmed about your less-pleasant opinions of people and life; or, conversely, did PTSD show you new ugly truths in the behaviour of others, or just how damn unfair the universe can be?
One ugly realization for me was how my co-workers resented me for being good at my job. Not even a brag. I simply paid my dues, watched and learned, and worked my ass off. I always tried to school newbies and lead by example. I loved to teach and pass down wisdom. I'm at that age where I feel like I've done enough to be considered Wise. Ok maybe that's a bit of a brag.
Now I know my coworkers hated me for it. Every memory now has the colouring of a lie. I have a theory that they also hated me because I showed I was weak. That wasn't allowed in our field.
This was a vicious moment of realization that knocked me on my ass for months. My team betrayed me and its such a raw f*cking nerve. Ugh.