I know that I have not been posting much here at this site for the most part just being here and reading all the information has been so helpful. But lately I have been having a very tough time functioning and dealing with normal day to day activities. I don't know I feel moody and I am having a very tough time keeping my emotions under control I snap at people easily and don't seem to have the patience to even hear people out. I am angry for no reason that I can think of my thoughts seem so jumbled that it has taken a long time to sort them out enough to write this. I just feel like I am in pain both physicaly and emotionally, For the first time in a long while I find myself having suicidal feelings.. They are just that as I have no intent on acting on them. I feel like I am underwater things are blurry, and sounds are muffeled. Is this a normal reaction I don't know I have never felt this before I am confused and a tad scared as for the longest time I have been able to be numb to most of this or at least keep up the good image.