goingonhope
MyPTSD Pro
...is this normal or am I losing touch with reality?
I mean I've known all about my intrusive, conscious, unspoken, memories that have haunted me on it's own impulse all throughout the yrs.
I've never found much lasting success, with what I could do about any of this and how to make it all go away....How to stop re-living those memories,...and how to stop everything from within my mind, emotions and spirit, from continually making me horribly sick.
In the present, I did not expect to ever retrieve clear, vivid memories of things that I only knew happened from my memory, but seldom, did I ever look at any further. Another words, I was always too overwhelmed accepting what chose for itself to haunt me. Does this make any sense?
And, now just today I've retrieved these two memories that absolutely sicken me. One which I've always minimized and never saw clearly, before today, for what it was. And, the other I had completely forgotton about ever happening.
I'm feeling shaky, nervous and frightened....anxieties increasing !
Perhaps, it is what it is, and I can accept this, now in the present, but I never expected this ....and just hope I'm not losing touch with reality.
Hope
I mean I've known all about my intrusive, conscious, unspoken, memories that have haunted me on it's own impulse all throughout the yrs.
I've never found much lasting success, with what I could do about any of this and how to make it all go away....How to stop re-living those memories,...and how to stop everything from within my mind, emotions and spirit, from continually making me horribly sick.
In the present, I did not expect to ever retrieve clear, vivid memories of things that I only knew happened from my memory, but seldom, did I ever look at any further. Another words, I was always too overwhelmed accepting what chose for itself to haunt me. Does this make any sense?
And, now just today I've retrieved these two memories that absolutely sicken me. One which I've always minimized and never saw clearly, before today, for what it was. And, the other I had completely forgotton about ever happening.
I'm feeling shaky, nervous and frightened....anxieties increasing !
Perhaps, it is what it is, and I can accept this, now in the present, but I never expected this ....and just hope I'm not losing touch with reality.
Hope