PepperAnne
Confident
Hi, I was diagnosed 1.5 years ago as having C-PTSD and recently as having DIDs (Dissociative Identity Disorder). I woke up one day in my mid thirdies and my life changed. I took a shower, got a little water in my ear and realized I had an inner ear infection, because of a shooting pain.. the pain was very familar and with it, came a flashback to being a small child and being thrown into a swimming pool. The flashback was so real that I could actual feel the sun on my face and smell the warm summer air of freshly cut grass. It was December on the east coast and cold, but for those 10 or 15 minutes I was lost in a flashback in my bathroom. I actually has missing time, as I dissociated. It was the shower water running cold that pulled me out of the flashback.
Since then, it has been a constent flood of memories of being physically and emotional abused as well has having some of my basic need neglected.
I also have adult traumas that I am dealing with such as car accidents, the loss of loved ones and being present at the world trade center on Sept 11, 2001.
I have always tried to bury the past and not look back, but after returning to the financial district for a job in 2010, and litterally watching the new Freedom Tower being built from my office window, I could no longer run from my past, that was the key to opening the door and now everyday is a struggle. I have become a burdon on my Husband and my children, who were unaware of my issues because I had them buried and locked away tightly.
I hope to find support and strength here to help me move through my day to day challenges.
Thanks for listening.
PepperAnne
Since then, it has been a constent flood of memories of being physically and emotional abused as well has having some of my basic need neglected.
I also have adult traumas that I am dealing with such as car accidents, the loss of loved ones and being present at the world trade center on Sept 11, 2001.
I have always tried to bury the past and not look back, but after returning to the financial district for a job in 2010, and litterally watching the new Freedom Tower being built from my office window, I could no longer run from my past, that was the key to opening the door and now everyday is a struggle. I have become a burdon on my Husband and my children, who were unaware of my issues because I had them buried and locked away tightly.
I hope to find support and strength here to help me move through my day to day challenges.
Thanks for listening.
PepperAnne