I have written before about my problems with PTSD.
My PTSD symptons have been increasing, crying, hypervigligence, dreams, being afraid to go out.
The following is something I have just encountered which is sending me over the edge. Could anyone please let me know what you think and give me some advice
I saw pornographic pictures on my computer and asked my husband if he had downloaded the pictures. He said he never goes to those sites and that hackers could get on your computer and they just popped up. These were pictures not sites so I wasn't sure it was the truth.
I put spy-ware on the computer to see what was happening.
A couple of days later I saw pornographic stories about children that were so shocking. When I confronted him he said that he never read those kind of stories. Then I told him I had installed spy-ware and saw the stories but he still tried to tell me that he had never seen them. I told him that spy-where does not lie.
Finally he admitted that he was reading those kind of stories for years but he didn't write them he just read them. He also said it was no big deal and that it wasn't like he was a child molester. I told him the police wouldn't feel the same way but he said they would be on his side as he has a right to privacy.
He keeps saying I am making too much out of it but there are very explicit stories about children having sex with each other and also there were stories about children have sex with their mother and hurting her. Who knows whatever else he does as I confronted him after reading a couple of the stories. It just made me sick.
I have asked him a couple more times whether he still thinks it is alright and he says of course it is.
He was also been using binoculars to look at the windows in the hi-rise across the street. He said there is a naked woman there and if she didn't want to be seen she would not walk around naked.
Can you help, I don't know what to do? Am I making too much of it? I just feel like crying all the time and it is very hard to look at him.
Any advice would be very much appreciated.
My PTSD symptons have been increasing, crying, hypervigligence, dreams, being afraid to go out.
The following is something I have just encountered which is sending me over the edge. Could anyone please let me know what you think and give me some advice
I saw pornographic pictures on my computer and asked my husband if he had downloaded the pictures. He said he never goes to those sites and that hackers could get on your computer and they just popped up. These were pictures not sites so I wasn't sure it was the truth.
I put spy-ware on the computer to see what was happening.
A couple of days later I saw pornographic stories about children that were so shocking. When I confronted him he said that he never read those kind of stories. Then I told him I had installed spy-ware and saw the stories but he still tried to tell me that he had never seen them. I told him that spy-where does not lie.
Finally he admitted that he was reading those kind of stories for years but he didn't write them he just read them. He also said it was no big deal and that it wasn't like he was a child molester. I told him the police wouldn't feel the same way but he said they would be on his side as he has a right to privacy.
He keeps saying I am making too much out of it but there are very explicit stories about children having sex with each other and also there were stories about children have sex with their mother and hurting her. Who knows whatever else he does as I confronted him after reading a couple of the stories. It just made me sick.
I have asked him a couple more times whether he still thinks it is alright and he says of course it is.
He was also been using binoculars to look at the windows in the hi-rise across the street. He said there is a naked woman there and if she didn't want to be seen she would not walk around naked.
Can you help, I don't know what to do? Am I making too much of it? I just feel like crying all the time and it is very hard to look at him.
Any advice would be very much appreciated.