Hello everyone. I've been away for a little while trying to deal with my awful Fibromyalgia pain but, I'm having a new(er) PTSD problem as well. I was curious if anyone experiences intimacy problems with their significant other?
I've always had some trust issues since my molestation & rapes but, it's getting worse in this marriage. It probably doesn't help that a couple of times, he's selfishly forced me to do things I didn't want to do & now I've been having anxiety attacks every time we get close. We've talked about it & I've explained to him that his actions have set me back in therapy, made me afraid of him, & have increased my PTSD symptoms. Since our talk, he's sincerely apologized & hasn't done anything to scare me BUT, I can't seem to change my reaction to him as I still have panic attacks, nightmares, & startle at his voice.
All my life I've tried to hide my trauma & PTSD symptoms to fit in & keep a job but, I just can't seem to do it anymore & I'm becoming more & more depressed. I also cannot just leave him because unfortunately, I rely on him (I'm medically disabled, unemployed with a 2 y/o, & do not have family or friends who could help). My husband wants to work it out with me but, I don't even know how to begin.
Right now, I'm working on my claim for a VA disability increase for newly added Fibromyalgia, hypertension, PVCs, tachycardia, & diabetic peripheral neuropathy so, in case we don't work out, hopefully I won't have to rely on him. Anyway (sorry this is so long) has anyone had this kind of marital problem or have any advice for me? Or, do you think it's just another traumatic event to kick to the curb & add to my list?
Well, thanx ahead of time (for listening). ~ 9Lives
I've always had some trust issues since my molestation & rapes but, it's getting worse in this marriage. It probably doesn't help that a couple of times, he's selfishly forced me to do things I didn't want to do & now I've been having anxiety attacks every time we get close. We've talked about it & I've explained to him that his actions have set me back in therapy, made me afraid of him, & have increased my PTSD symptoms. Since our talk, he's sincerely apologized & hasn't done anything to scare me BUT, I can't seem to change my reaction to him as I still have panic attacks, nightmares, & startle at his voice.
All my life I've tried to hide my trauma & PTSD symptoms to fit in & keep a job but, I just can't seem to do it anymore & I'm becoming more & more depressed. I also cannot just leave him because unfortunately, I rely on him (I'm medically disabled, unemployed with a 2 y/o, & do not have family or friends who could help). My husband wants to work it out with me but, I don't even know how to begin.
Right now, I'm working on my claim for a VA disability increase for newly added Fibromyalgia, hypertension, PVCs, tachycardia, & diabetic peripheral neuropathy so, in case we don't work out, hopefully I won't have to rely on him. Anyway (sorry this is so long) has anyone had this kind of marital problem or have any advice for me? Or, do you think it's just another traumatic event to kick to the curb & add to my list?
Well, thanx ahead of time (for listening). ~ 9Lives