Shinigami_Shimai
Confident
I'm Kathryn K Williams and have been suffering from PTSD for longer then I can remember. Been on disablity due to this madness since I was 18 and I'm now 32. I thought I was getting better recently. I got married to my soulmate two years ago and she is very understanding and even suffers from PTSD as well so we are there for each other.
There are so many causes for my issues that it would take forever to list them all, things like sexual assult from several family members, emotional and physcial abuse from my mother and my near death at the hands of bullies, which left my first girlfriend dead. Every time I think about my past it causes me to want to scream. I usually can handle it, my suicidal tendencies have deminished since Kim moved in with me. She can tell when I'm having a break down and holds me instead of running away, while most others just dropped off the face of the earth. I've been sleeping better and not having night terrors anymore, just simple nightmares.
I spent a lot of time trying to prove that I was not worthless by graduating from art school and becoming a gallery artist and comic book artist/writer, however that was not enough and after 5 years I turned to writing novels. My first dealt with my high school years after being released from a mental hosptial, the second is a several novel long saga dealing with kids trying to cope with the madness of their lives. I've finished 5 novels and people seem to love them, enough to get offeres from agents, but I'm scared because it would mean printing the stories about my family life that my parents expressively told me never to tell anyone about, then there is the move my wife and I are perparing for and the fact that I run two forums and am being asked to run part of a convention, which means hosting many lectures. All of this is making me rather unstable and I don't know where to turn anymore.
Anyways, sorry to ramble, *waves*
jaa ne
Kat
There are so many causes for my issues that it would take forever to list them all, things like sexual assult from several family members, emotional and physcial abuse from my mother and my near death at the hands of bullies, which left my first girlfriend dead. Every time I think about my past it causes me to want to scream. I usually can handle it, my suicidal tendencies have deminished since Kim moved in with me. She can tell when I'm having a break down and holds me instead of running away, while most others just dropped off the face of the earth. I've been sleeping better and not having night terrors anymore, just simple nightmares.
I spent a lot of time trying to prove that I was not worthless by graduating from art school and becoming a gallery artist and comic book artist/writer, however that was not enough and after 5 years I turned to writing novels. My first dealt with my high school years after being released from a mental hosptial, the second is a several novel long saga dealing with kids trying to cope with the madness of their lives. I've finished 5 novels and people seem to love them, enough to get offeres from agents, but I'm scared because it would mean printing the stories about my family life that my parents expressively told me never to tell anyone about, then there is the move my wife and I are perparing for and the fact that I run two forums and am being asked to run part of a convention, which means hosting many lectures. All of this is making me rather unstable and I don't know where to turn anymore.
Anyways, sorry to ramble, *waves*
jaa ne
Kat