SweatpantsHairTied
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I've made up my mind that it's something that I have to do for my physical and mental well being. However, I'm nervous to officially take the plunge. I think mostly because others will judge and condemn me for it. I moved across the country, requested to communicate mostly through email, and then completely stopped speaking to one relative for close to a year. None of that was enough, it has to be zero contact.
The only family that I have left are my abusers. I shouldn't have kept in contact with them all these years for that reason alone. It feels like I'm brainwashed. In their mind I'm just there to serve as a verbal punching bag or toy for them to abuse. Less than a person. In my mind they "don't mean to", they're "acting better" now, they'd "be sad" if I wasn't around, and I'd be a bad person.
I don't visit the town I grew up in, am not close to any extended family, it should really be a clean break. But I've been talking about it for a while and the guilt has had me frozen. I would love to hear other people's experiences of severing ties with a toxic dysfunctional family. I need some encouragement!
The only family that I have left are my abusers. I shouldn't have kept in contact with them all these years for that reason alone. It feels like I'm brainwashed. In their mind I'm just there to serve as a verbal punching bag or toy for them to abuse. Less than a person. In my mind they "don't mean to", they're "acting better" now, they'd "be sad" if I wasn't around, and I'd be a bad person.
I don't visit the town I grew up in, am not close to any extended family, it should really be a clean break. But I've been talking about it for a while and the guilt has had me frozen. I would love to hear other people's experiences of severing ties with a toxic dysfunctional family. I need some encouragement!