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    Medical Marijuana And PTSD

    Well I haven't been on the forums at all in a long time, thought I'd check in and saw the old marijuana thread. The above quote explains my experience almost exactly. Even some "difficult" highs I had were cleansing, freeing. I'll just say I'm on year 3 and still medicating with cannabis...
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    Scared And Confused, And Praying It's Not True

    I just want to say thank you to everyone in this thread for their contributions. I do not have complete alters that I know of, but I have some fairly nasty introjects that were once and occasionally still are like a tangible presence in the room. I also get confused about whether they are me...
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    Medical Marijuana And PTSD

    Wow, this discussion exploded since the last time I chimed in. I have been an official medical user in my state for 2 years now, and I now smoke pretty much daily (with the odd day off here and there for emotional calibration). My therapist also knows and is in favor of me having something to...
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    Reduced Emotional Range. Is That Normal?

    It's been normal for me. I think reduced emotional range is part of the denial system, the first layer of defense for a lot of us. I was numb for a long time.
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    Intrusive Thoughts That Cause Physical Reactions

    Wow so glad I found this thread. I too get these ticks, twitches, and occasionally my eyes will close almost involuntarily or roll back in my head. I hate it, I know people see it because it happens a lot. I manage to control the cringing except when I am alone, then I let it fly. This...
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    Put 2 Traumatic Memories To Rest

    That's awesome gizmo. Emdr is great.
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    Christian Religion Causes Me Anxiety And Fear.

    This is an interesting thread. A bit OT, but I was ritually abused and spiritually abused myself, but by two people practicing Santeria and witchcraft. While I have been mistreated by the Christian church in regards to sharing my trauma, I agree with other posts sharing that this is true of many...
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    Lost My Therapist And Good Friend

    An update on this: the sadness is coming now. Each week I used to have therapy on Friday, and that's when I'd see him. This last week I got very upset because we were going to a friend's birthday party and all I wanted to do was see my T. I became very overwhelmed and irritable to the point...
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    Functional Medicine

    This is awesome. Taking charge of what we will and will not put in our bodies is so empowering. For me it has really helped with my confidence which has in turn helped in near miraculous ways with my fear of leaving the house or interacting with others... actually the list is endless.
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    News Changing Ptsd To Ptsi?

    Chronologically Delayed Disaster Affliction Syndrome. You heard it here first. On a more serious note I agree with Anthony that the current terminology is more than adequate to describe both the consequence nature of the condition as well as the more mysterious inherited aspects. Renaming it...
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    20 Little Friends In My Pocket

    I'm rooting for all of you. I remember how hard it was to quit, especially because I started at 10 years old and quit when 24 so my whole identity and emotional grounding was wrapped up in being a smoker. All I can tell you is that it is possible, it hurts, but it's soooooo rewarding when you...
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    I Believe I Am Part Evil

    Wow gizmo, your post made me well up with tears. Thanks for that, even if I am not the one for whom it was intended.
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    I Believe I Am Part Evil

    My therapist told me once that especially during childhood trauma it is common to internalize the evil being done to one. It's like the only way to process it is to think "I am enveloped in this evil, therefore I must be evil as well." I have this complication to the extreme because I was...
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    20 Little Friends In My Pocket

    I can so relate with the OP here Azure. They really were my 20 little friends. Thank God I said goodbye to them, what is it? 14 years ago now!! Holy moly it's been a while. I can relate to Sharky too, can't make it through a whole cig anymore now. Once a year or so I get stupid drunk & wanna...
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    Rant On Anxiety

    I can so relate to this, but for me the anxiety is late morning/afternoon. I wake up so groggy and beat up feeling lately that I can't even be anxious, I'm too tired. What has been working for anxiety for me is remembering how its possible to feel calm. I use medical marijuana as my anxiety...
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