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Jen93
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May 22, 1993 (Age: 20)
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Jen93

VIP Member, Female, 20, from Canada

What the @%^$ did I get myself into? Mar 12, 2014

Jen93 was last seen:
Apr 24, 2014 at 6:04 PM
    1. Jen93
      Jen93
      I'm in BIG trouble tonight. At least I overcame my avoidance. Now I wait in fear for bedtime in seven hours.
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    2. ericaboo
      ericaboo
      (((Hugs)))) Have a good day Jen :)
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      2. Jen93
        Jen93
        Thanks. Ah so much stuff going on. Do you ever get like that weird feeling where you feel invigorated- like you have to write more, but you know you'll push yourself too hard if you do? It's a disaster state. >.<
        May 8, 2012
      3. ericaboo
        ericaboo
        Lately that's been happening all the time. I don't know why i'm so chatty today - it's nice for a change. Late for work though...
        Hang in there girl!
        May 8, 2012
      4. Jen93
        Jen93
        Have fun at work! :D
        May 8, 2012
    3. Jen93
      Jen93
      Oh avoidance how I hate you. -.-
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    4. Nadia
      Nadia
      (((Hugs))) Jen! We miss you. Hope you are okay. <3
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      2. Jen93
        Jen93
        Yeah I'm okay. Just tired. And my grandmother has this weird view that I should only spend like ten minutes on the computer a day. Ive done so much walking I'm surprised that my legs haven't broken. :D
        May 7, 2012
      3. Nadia
        Nadia
        Aww. Walking is good. Hope you start feeling better. (((hugs)))
        May 7, 2012
    5. Srain
      Srain
      ((((((((((((((Jen))))))))))))))))))
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      2. Jen93
        Jen93
        ((((((Rain))))) How're you doing?
        May 8, 2012
      3. Srain
        Srain
        Much better thank you? I'm hoping you are you?
        May 8, 2012
    6. BigBear
      BigBear
      Jen,

      You can't steal them (hugs)! That would be like stealing sunshine. It's free for everyone. Take as much as you want! There's an unlimited supply.

      Besides, giving hugs energizes the person giving them. Therefore by taking them, you improve our day!

      20 Giant Big Bear Hugs 4 you ((((((((((((((((((((Jen))))))))))))))))))))

      Bear
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      2. Jen93
        Jen93
        Thanks. How are you? <3 I've read your trauma diary, I've got a lot of respect for supporters. <3 ((BigBear))
        May 1, 2012
      3. Jen93
        Jen93
        meant your diary- not trauma diary. :/ Oh you know what I meant.
        May 1, 2012
    7. Srain
      Srain
      ((((((((((((((Jen))))))))))))))))
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      2. Jen93
        Jen93
        Hello. :) Nice to talk to you. Thanks for the hug.. means a lot. <3
        May 1, 2012
    8. ^^FlyingSolo^^
      ^^FlyingSolo^^
      ((((((Jen)))))) I hope you feel better soon! I enjoy your company on the forum, you're a very sweet person to know.
      I sent you some hugs in the "hugs" thread. Take care of you :))
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      2. Jen93
        Jen93
        Thank you. <3 That means a lot to me. ((((FS)))) Hey can I call you Sol? It's easier... and I think it's better than calling you FS or FlyingSolo or Fly, ;)
        May 1, 2012
      3. ^^FlyingSolo^^
        ^^FlyingSolo^^
        Yes of course, call me Solo, I'm sorta going by that now lol
        Thanks :))
        May 9, 2012
    9. Jen93
      Jen93
      I'll never understand adults which is why I plan to never be one. I'll always watch Disney movies and play Barbies I'll be young forever.
      1. rainy_daze and Nadia like this.
      2. rainy_daze
        rainy_daze
        Ditto, minus the Barbies. I'm a porcelain doll fan myself - and they just sit pretty, immaculate, unspoiled. I love them. I still think older Disney is the best btw. What's your fave? I love Beauty and The Beast, I think it has the best message.
        Apr 30, 2012
      3. Jen93
        Jen93
        I love the Hunchback of Notre Dame. So gorgeous. I sang "God Help the Outcasts" for my Musical Theatre solo in grade 12. It just sort of was meant for me.
        May 2, 2012
    10. ^^FlyingSolo^^
      ^^FlyingSolo^^
      Hi Jen, I like your new avatar too! Sorry about your nightmares,hope it gets better! :)

      ((Huggggs))
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    11. Jen93
      Jen93
      Stupid recurring nightmare. Maybe now it won't be so scary since I've interpreted it using a website- what would we do without internet?
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    12. Jen93
      Jen93
      Finished one "scene" of my trauma. Phew! Only took me four months. :<
    13. Nadia
      Nadia
      Look at the chat!
      1. Jen93
        Jen93
        I did
        Apr 24, 2012
    14. Jen93
      Jen93
      I must not re read my trauma diary an hour before my exam. I must not re read my trauma diary an hour before my exam. >.<
    15. Gloria
      Gloria
      Jen, I'm so glad that you found this forum at a young age. I thank God that you might be able to avoid suffering and we are so glad that you here!
      Hugs,
      Gloria
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      2. Jen93
        Jen93
        Yeah. It's really helpful, as is the whole trauma diary idea. Very difficult to write in, but helpful. Thank you Gloria! :D
        Apr 21, 2012
    16. Jen93
      Jen93
      I wish I could take everybody's pain and sorrow and replace it with rainbows and puppies and lollipops and smiles instead. But I can't. D:
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    17. Jen93
      Jen93
      Note to self: Stop reading- and what's worse-REPLYING to triggering threads- you'll dissociate or flashback and feel like you're 11 or 12.
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    18. Jen93
      Jen93
      I can't calm down. I need to calm down. Golden rule: don't post while triggered. I will sleep instead. D: I suck.
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    19. Jen93
      Jen93
      I think I'm numb :/ Don't know. Hate down moods and flashbacks/body memories/intrusive thoughts. It has to get worse before it gets better.
    20. ericaboo
      ericaboo
      Terrible thoughts to have about yourself - you can make the choice to look at it in a different way. I understand what it's like to say/feel such things, but you don't have to do that. You deserve better girl.
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    21. Jen93
      Jen93
      I am an unlovable monster. I should be suffering far more for being as bad as I am. I am a horrible child. And undeserving. )':
      1. AngelaMarie
        AngelaMarie
        None of what you just said is true. Get a grip, girlfriend. You are worth a lot!! never worthless.
        Apr 19, 2012
      2. AngelaMarie
        AngelaMarie
        You are 2 years younger than my daughter and I wouldn't let her put herself down like that either. (((hug)))
        Apr 19, 2012
    22. rainy_daze
      rainy_daze
      Congrats on sitting the exam!!!! Proud of you and happy for you. University is hard work when you're ill. Concentrate on that achievement next time you feel bad if you can (I've started doing this, it seems to help sometimes). Listen to me preaching, I really just meant Well Done. :-).
      1. Jen93
        Jen93
        Lol. XD. Yeah... I was panicking after I'd written in my diary. I was like "oh my gosh I really am a fraud! Oh that's a lot of stuff.., it's so insignificant... Wait-it all happened? Ow."
        Apr 18, 2012
      2. rainy_daze
        rainy_daze
        ((((Jen93)))) hopefully the Ow moments will get lesser and lesser. You're brave having a trauma diary. I just write poetry, very badly, but find that helps even though painful to read back. At least when you write it can be downloaded from your brain.
        Apr 18, 2012
    23. Jen93
      Jen93
      Whoa... I wrote more. Geez. I uncovered all that? :P Man my life is complex.
    24. Jen93
    25. AngelaMarie
      AngelaMarie
      (((Hug))) Very proud of how much you are trying!!!
      1. Jen93
        Jen93
        Yay! I'm going to beat this thing once I find a good therapist. I feel hope now. So much hope. :D <3
        Apr 17, 2012
      2. AngelaMarie
        AngelaMarie
        Sending you love and strength!!! You go girl!! :)
        Apr 17, 2012
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  • About

    Gender:
    Female
    Birthday:
    May 22, 1993 (Age: 20)
    Location:
    Canada
    Occupation:
    Student
    Second year university student. PTSD caused by
    • emotional abuse
    • physical abuse
    • bullying
    • being a scapegoat.
    And that's all I can really say right now. :O_o:
    I can be funny, outgoing, happy, and say the most random things. I can also freak out.
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