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    Losing The Spark?

    Dylan, Your answers to the questions blew me away. I had never even come close to thinking that way, but it rang so true for me. Thanks
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    Love

    Planning ahead is incredibly hard for me. My sweetie has told me she doesn't want to hear me say, "Who knows what might happen," anymore. I've agreed not to say it (I've had a few slips, but not many) but I can't seem to stop myself from looking to future through that lens. From what I've...
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    Losing The Spark?

    I wish I did, I've been hoping for forty years that I would find a passion that would last. During the last couple of years that I've been in treatment I've wondered if it was a symptom of PTSD or just a character weakness. Still don't know, but I guess all I can do is to continue to persue...
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    I Think I've Had A Light Bulb Moment

    Heather, I don't know if anything is ever 100% I think deciding to do something about recovering, even if it's only 65% is a step in the right direction. As much as I hate to admit it, there will always be a lot of work to be done for us special people with PTSD. Sometimes just getting...
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    Anybody Work From Home?

    blwnay, I am so sorry to hear about your hardships. Selling your house and buying a bus to live in sounds like incredibly tough times to me. I've heard lots of stories like yours in the US. I guess the hard times are world wide. I just want to cry about the millions of people who have had...
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    Children - Where Have We Gone Wrong

    There must be a middle ground somewhere that actually works. I grew up being beaten with a belt on my bare ass almost every day. A lot of times it was for nothing more than "I know you did something today to deserve this." It made me so hateful of any kind of authority that I still can't keep...
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    Dear God

    Ah, the bottle. I came home from Vietnam in a bottle of bourbon, and stayed there until 2007. During all those years I had lots of people suggest that I might have PTSD but I denied it. PTSD was for pussies. I was way too strong to have that shit. When I finally decided to get sober, it was...
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    I Think I've Had A Light Bulb Moment

    "Don't beat yourself up when you wake up a week, a month, 2 days from now and feel as bad as you ever have. It's not a lack of action or a loss of momentum. It is a symptom of an illness and being aware of it and taking a more objective look at yourself before you feel like you failed in some...
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    Would you still be enlisted?

    Sorry to be a stick in the mud here. I spent my Army time during the years of the draft, and I hated every minute of it. I spent 18 months in Vietnam, and never got promoted beyond private first class because of my lousy attitude. I saw so many stupid decisions made by officers who cared way...
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    Dear God

    Tell us more, Brad. I know how it can feel, like everything is f*cked up beyond repair and there is no point in even going on. No hope, no reason, no purpose, no dreams, no nothing. It's part of the disorder, and it can be dealt with. Things can get better. Knowing you have a disorder you...
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    Anybody Work From Home?

    Thanks Deer and Transient, Haven't found work yet, but then I haven't really put that much effort in it. One thing that seems interesting is proofreading, or maybe editing. I have some related experience in that area, but it was a long time ago. Somehow I need to get over this...
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    Losing The Spark?

    I thought it was just me that had this problem. I have had three distinct vocational careers and ran out of steam on all three. Countless jobs, many of which seemed like the answer to my dreams when I got them. I seem to get what I think are profound insights that tell me, "This is it for...
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    I Think I've Had A Light Bulb Moment

    Boy, can I relate to this. It's exactly what they all keep telling me. The pros can prescribe meds that may or may not work; lead me to information about theory, recovery practices, etc; help me make connections between past experience and current thoughts and feelings; maybe give me some...
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    Relationship Dating Someone With Ptsd & Tbi

    By the way, make sure the two or three things are easily defined and measured. Things like meeting you when and where he says he will, remembering your birthday and horse's name, asking you at least once a day about how you're doing, and then listening while you tell him. That kind of...
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    Relationship Dating Someone With Ptsd & Tbi

    Hi Aimzify, If he is as diligent in his recovery as it sounds, there is good reason to hope for improvement. If he is getting regular treatment and not making any progress, it may be worthwhile for him to try somebody or something different. Is it worth continuing the relationship? It's a...
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