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    For men only

    Well I'm a survivor of a sexual assault when I was ten by a teen neighbor, friend of the family, and my only friend at the time. He was 14 and so much bigger, stronger than me. This memory came back to me about a year ago in full force and I'm 34 now. I knew I was ten when it happened because...
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    Sexual Assault My trauma is keeping me up. self-blame

    Hi there. Just an fyi. If you are still feeling bad and need someone to talk to there is a website called rainn.org where you can chat live with someone.
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    Sexual Assault My trauma is keeping me up. self-blame

    Thanks for sharing your story. As others have said you sharing about your trauma is an excellent step in the right direction and even if only on an internet forum for the time being. The thing I personally do when the thoughts get overwhelming is to distract myself. If I'm laying in bed I get up...
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    Undiagnosed Hello all.

    Nice to have you here. Please share as you are willing and explore the many subgroups. Welcome! :)
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    Do you have a comfort food/song/hobby/etc..?

    I love those imitation crab seafood sticks with butter and salt after a good 5 minute nuke. I'm sure I'm just eating the stuff they skim off the top after some sort of a boil at a cannery but hey I love em. I'm a huge Rammstein fan as well as a few Finnish folk groups. Hobbies are playing the...
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    Ear Worms, What Songs Stuck In Your Head Right Now?

    Little boy blue in the man in the moon...I'm gonna be like you, dad, I'm gonna be like you.
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    Sufferer New to these forums, struggling with negative self talk / self judgements

    Welcome. Glad to see you here. I think you'll find this forum is full of wonderful people who are survivors. Please vent and share your struggles when you need to. I don't find a caring mother to be stupid at all and as far as normal goes I don't think such a standard exists. Again, welcome! :)
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    Fawning and groveling, i have a hard time over-apologizing

    Say there were 20 people standing in line and I brushed up against 9 of them well I'd apologize 18 times but none really gave a darn. The only thing I can tell you is to redirect your thought process so you can feel that you are not committing any crimes. I think people like us over think such...
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    Father always makes it worse

    I think we all have different definitions of what constitutes abuse so I cannot give you a definitive answer. However, it seems clear your relationship with your father has negatively affected you. Can you put some distance between yourselves even if you live under the same roof? Is there a...
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    Sexual Assault Sexual assault questioning

    Hi there. Glad to see you here. I know from my own assault that you may have to mull it over and over for a while and don't worry about convincing yourself or anyone else as the point is that you know something inappropriate happened and you felt violated but I think now you are on the right...
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    Why do you choose to stay alive?

    I wasn't gonna reply to this thread cuz I feel icky today but the thing that keeps me going at this moment is the drive to create. Native American Flute, poetry, woodburning, whittling, concertina...non of this will work without me. I try. That's all I can do.
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    Dissociation since childhood and life of severe social/emotional isolation. is there hope?

    @Abyss95 Your life is similar to mine. In school I was bullied to the point where I just gave up hope and zoned out on autopilot. I hardly talked to anyone and the people who I thought were my friends kicked me to the curb. As far as home life goes my parents were alcoholics and there was...
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    Other Ptsd and psychosis?

    I'm not dxed (as of yet) with PTSD but I've been struggling with schizophrenia for over a decade. I have similar symptoms like yours such as moving slow, not talking, and all that fun stuff. I'm also on Zyprexa which is a good med. I've had four psych inpatient stays to boot and the only thing I...
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    I genuinely don't believe i'm good enough for anything

    Hi there. I read some of your first posts which were around this time in 2016. Is this time of the year difficult for you? I think the first thing you need to do is to identify your stressors and you can do this on your own but a trained therapist to give you input would be a major plus. Are you...
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    Were most if us seriously abused as kids,?

    My alcoholic parents were never physically abusive but I went hungry countless times when they didn't pay for school lunches and there was little emotional bonding. I'm 34 yet I'm afraid of teenage boys compliments of a sexual trauma by a 14 year old when I was ten. So we come from many walks of...
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