Unfortunately I plunged into another "episode" from this experience. This woman was a more of trigger than a stessor and all my reserves didn't seem to help me pull out of the tailspin I went into.
I'm okay now but not without the strong support of my team. My Son and friends checking in on...
I fking hate my inability to reign it, not letting go things that truly need to let go. I hate taking other people's crap out on me and wanting desperately wanting to bring RAGE let loose to make me feel ,,,,not caring even a teeny tiny bit whether that would make me feel better in the long...
I feel for where you are and would also caution you that the PTSD relationship is nothing like anyother. To be a supporter requires more patience, finding your own support, additional support, education, and above all the ability to roll with moods.
I am not saying you need be a punching bad...
I am up in the middle of the night but not too worried seeing as I have been sleeping well at night yet still falling asleeping during the day. My moods have been all over the place (thank YOU pdoc!!) but should be easy off soon. I'm saddest about not being in the mental place I wanted to be in...
Fortunately my support team reminds me that confrontation (such as what my rage suggests :cautious:) wouldn't make any difference and to continue to rest, move away from this situation, and continue to believe in myself.
Her words, her reaction goes to the very core of many of my "mommy...
Rumors, she did say out out during exchange (without looking at me nor asking me directly - or my husband whom she seems to believe is the beacon of truth in the relationship!) that she didn't know if I was "selling these medications, sharing them, or what" to which I responded a resounding...
My husband ended up going down to the pharmacy with my bottles and they still insisted that my pdoc had said not to fill them for another week when she had called, so he returned with "picked and paid" print-out that shows later dates that the actual "filled" dates and no meds. He called her...
It turns out that I had not run out of my sleep meds early but that my psyche appt was several days later than my meds allowed for. I hadn't double check my refill dates to see if this could be the reason until my husband went to drop off my scripts only to find out that they refused to fill...
All of your responses mean a lot to me!
Alex, you have many points and I have already looked into finding a new pdoc. Getting my records is more than a good idea, thank you, I will do that as soon as I have found one that I am reasonably comfortable with.
I appreciate the validation...
I went to my psyche doc yesterday, with my husband, to discuss an update on how I am doing sleep-wise. It's been 4 months (the longest time between appointments we had since I've been seeing her in about 2 years) and I somehow had run low on sleep meds and wanted to let her know that without...
(((((((((AngelaMaria))))))))))))I am happy for you in reconnecting with your son! :)
I feel too tired but grateful to have gotten some uninterrupted hours of sleep last night.
I feel a bit anxious about my appointment with my psyche doc today but that's how I always feel.
I happy to have my...
It's my "go to" medication when I can't sleep or am having a rough time with Night Terrors, it works for me. Sufficient decrease in mood instability.
The issues I have are:
1. Getting the dose right, the smaller the dose the better it seems to work for me.
2. That totally WIPED OUT feeling...