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woundedmind
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Birthday:
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Occupation:
Permanently disabled

woundedmind

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woundedmind was last seen:
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    1. ladee
      ladee
      Happy Birthday !!
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    2. Florian7051
      Florian7051
      Happy Birthday!
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    3. Saelben
      Saelben
      Happy birthday :hug:
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    4. BlueDream
      BlueDream
      Happy Birthday woundedmind!! I hope it was a good day:)
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    5. Disco Dancing Queen
      Disco Dancing Queen
      Breithl√° sona duit (Happy Birthday) woundedmind!
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    6. Saelben
      Saelben
      1. woundedmind
        woundedmind
        Thanks. I've been gone, a lot of stress in my location, personal harassment by a person I have to live with, an ongoing thing. I hope things with your medication worked out.
        Feb 13, 2016
      2. Saelben
        Saelben
        Oh, harassment is shitty to deal with. Hopefully something changes for the better.
        I still havent seen my T about it, so I will find out in a few days.

        Thanks for asking, stay strong. Hugs!
        Feb 13, 2016
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    Gender:
    Male
    Birthday:
    June 29
    Occupation:
    Permanently disabled
    I am diagnosed with CPTSD. The other pertinent diagnoses are borderline personality disorder, dysthymia, chronic major depression. It can be traced back to childhood where there was a lot of isolation, neglect, physical abuse, verbal abuse, sexual abuse by parent, stepparent, and pediatrician. That's all childhood. I experienced enough symptoms of depression but never saw a specialist as a child, my parents avoided medical treatment for themselves and definitely for me, partly because of lack of coverage and even when there was coverage it wasn't a thing they did until the school demanded it for certain releases.

    I went into the US Army on active duty at 17, where I became a frequent target of sexual harassment which hit harder probably because of my previous experiences and my innate temperament. I experienced longer periods of dissociative amnesia, not knowing what this was - I lost most of 2 years this way.

    On top of this I have ankylosing spondylitis including in peripheral joints and associated symptoms with my eyes, scoliosis, diabetes and cataracts.

    I'd not had a long term course of therapy until recently, where I had a year of Dialectical Behavior Therapy. I'd studied psychology in university but left in my senior year due to symptoms interfering with school.

    I wasn't diagnosed with CPTSD until recently. I hadn't had a diagnosing specialist that even believed that it was a valid diagnosis until this last year. There were other therapists that didn't have the diagnosing authority in their health care team that thought it was one of several diagnoses that were applicable, which never seemed to matter to the MD, which usually was in our Veteran's Administration and only recognized combat or fatal accidents in close proximity as causes of PTSD. They didn't recognize that being mistaken or being identified as homosexual in the military could be cause of fear because they didn't realize what happened to them in the military, they could be gang raped, killed, never mind dishonorably discharged at the very minimum. If my command had believed these statements, the official thing would have happened. If I did something that confirmed these allegations and statements, I could have been killed in a dark alley or when I was vulnerable in some way, whether alone or unconscious. An acquaintance of mine was sodomized after being drugged by the same people making the accusations against me. Suffice it to say I never felt safe. The people involved were all bisexual and when I arrived at that duty station they tried to recruit me for their "posse" but I got a strong homosexual vibe and that was not my thing and they probably knew it and were out to get me because I knew their secret but it was a situation of my word against many, so no point plus I'm a proponent of live and let live when no one is getting hurt.

    These not-so-nice people tried to drive me to suicide. The command did not support me, nor bother to investigate or stop the harassment. No one was supportive; the people who thought they were friends assumed I just had amazingly thick skin, but in actuality it was a front to not show weakness in the face of one's persecutor which causes them to go for the throat or that attracts other predators that wouldn't normally consider you.

    Anyway, I'm not perfect. I'm not cured of anything. I try to deal with symptoms on a day-by-day basis. I find that my medical and physical are highly intertwined and affect each other greatly. I have to treat my body well in order to keep the mental in check and vice versa as there is a very definite exacerbation of physical symptoms when stress is high and eating and sleeping goes out of whack.
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