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The news about The Pulse in Orlando is quite upsetting since I go to Orlando every week.

He was thinking about various targets, some of which I regularly visit.

Tough that I'm hitting the 2 week hell of Xanax withdrawal at the same time this happened. I'm trying to use coping to get through this.
 
That six degrees of separation thing has my count at five people - none I know directly but still. Four dead, one wounded, one not shot. A week ago during Gay Days and I would have known directly over a dozen people in the club. I'm having weird flashbacks to the lesbian bar that was bombed in 97. I wasn't there but was supposed to be there that night. And I hung out in the area where the bomb was planted. We heard the explosion from our home while we were fighting about not going out.

Anyway. I hear ya. It's scary. I have no drugs either. Sleep and chelated magnesium and rescue remedy.
 
Thanks, I'm sorry for those who are directly affected, and really all of us are indirectly affected, feeling less safe or flashbacks to previous and similar.

I'm trying life without benzos due to it being so stressful getting them that they cancel themselves out now.

Here in Florida, you have to see a Dr. every three months to get a renewal on the Rx. I find it cumbersome in the extreme to go to a Dr. every three months for something I take for years. They take BP and that's it. Waste of $ and time. I have to nag my Dr. about 4 times during the visit for a paper copy of the Rx since her phone system won't work and has resulted in severe withdrawal weekends waiting for Monday to try again.

Basically, it sucks big time and makes me not want to be dependent on this crappy system here. I guess I was happy with my old system (6 months) and Dr. did it over the internet, no hassle. Cheap, easy.

Not so in FL where I feel like a criminal for asking for them. Get treated pretty bad at the pharmacy, where they like to cut you off just to shrug about how I might have seizures over the weekend.

Sorry. I'm not in the best mood at the moment. Pretty frustrated with life. Things are not going that well for me despite tons of effort in all areas of my life.
 
I'm so sorry you're going through this in addition to the larger awfulness. I think that in a pinch you can take some benedryl if panic gets bad or if you feel a seizure coming, well, better to take it before a seizure comes on, of course. I got heart palpitations during withdrawal from Ativan and my psych called in a Rx for propranolol. It stopped them within half an hour. Good luck.

Are you at all up for attending any of the vigils going on tonight? They can be quite healing.
 
@Muse, I understand and am praying for your withdrawel symptoms to lessen and that you will not get any seizures. My heart goes out to you and I totally understand your being fed up with that system and the way people have treated you badly and so negligently. I do not know how long it takes to detox from Xanax but cold turkey is so dangerous for you. I realize that you are between a rock and a hard place in this situation right now so please do extra self care on you especially now.:hug::hug::hug:
 
Thanks, I did do a medically supervised taper and just decided to cold turkey the last leg of it rather than paying for another Dr. visit for just 15 more pills to take every other day. I felt that might draw out the withdrawal which physically hasn't been bad at all. It all feels mental to me. Just depressed and tense. :(
 
With the terrorist killings, the alligator attack on a toddler at Disney, and a teen at my school shooting herself, I feel there is a lot of bad juju going on in my area. But somehow, I see that I'm safe and everything is okay. No need to panic at this point. I have to take care of myself.
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My husband says I'd doing well with all this and no meds. Pretty good.

Daily : Green tea and grapefruit juice seems to be helping.
 
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