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@shimmerz, your story sounds very familiar to me. However, in the now over 15 years of dealing with PTSD I never found a doctor that takes it serious/seems to understand what is going on/has any idea how to deal with it, and usually they look at me very strange and non-understanding/non-believing when I tell them about me "falling over". I have the exact same experiences. I hear everything around me, but are completely limp and just can't move. At some point I then start at least being able to speak again, and generally then tell people not to worry and that I am OK, and that there is no reason to call an ambulance...., but my voice then sound like I am completely drunk. The interesting thing is that I also survived by "playing dead", "fainting", "going completely limb". I am actually kind of upset about the incompetence of doctors. In the past it didn't happen that often, less than once a year on average and only in extremely stressful situations. However, in the past couple years I had increasingly trouble with verbally exploding when I am "cornered", people refuse to stop doing things that badly bothers or scares me, or don't let me get out of stressful situations. Then, magically people started to accumulate around me that evolved the interesting habit of consciously or unconsciously (who knows) exploiting my tendency to verbally explode as a divergence. At some point the whole thing started to hurt me badly because every time they did something that would get them in trouble, they did something that pushed my buttons, I ended up verbally misbehaving and certainly was then the bad guy, while their mishaps got completely forgotten over my misbehaving (how convenient....). With time I only needed to see or hear the voices of these people to have panic attacks that drove me insane and I felt like verbally exploding any minute. To handle the whole situation, my doctor and therapist then advised me to somehow learn to keep myself from verbally exploding (their argument: I only get hurt because I explode.....). Well, good news is that I actually now manage to not explode any more. However, as a trade off I now drop onto the floor way more frequently and the stress level threshold that makes me drop is way down.... great...... The other day I just dropped onto the ground in front of a police man I was talking to on the street. I did this in the middle of a sentence at the moment when his body language switched to Military violence police style for some unknown reason. Actually kind of funny is that while talking to him afterwards, it turned out that he was military police in Iraque and has himself PTSD issues and sometimes simply switches to military police violence mode just like that for no good reason. Well, good body language reading on my side I would say......but I can't keep dropping like that at the slightest first sight of violence in the air.... the question is how do I stop this....?