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Childhood Are You Ok With Your Name?

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I like my first name and my last name for the most part. I have often thought of changing my last name because I like the sound of other last names better, but it isn't a priority.
 
Mostly, it's just a bunch of letters I write on forms. People don't call me by my first name very often, but when they do, it's sometimes weird - oh yeah, they mean me. Fine.

If I come up with a better one, I'll change it.
 
They say write about what you know but i haven't had a life.

Actually it's been changed to "Write who you are." They don't necessarily mean an autobiography or for fiction an autobiographical novel. Yet those experiences we've had from our abuse are part of who we are. Loads of stories there with small tidbits in each one. At least that's how I look at it. I could spin off into a story on one aspect of the abuse.
 
Just wondering if there are any survivors that cant stand to hear their name..
I changed mine which...
I go by charlie. Not even close to my birth name. I'm a gender queer too so when I came out at 18, that aided me in deciding "fk it I'm gonna just use an alias" and just the alias alone has improved my mental health a lot.

But I tell people it's a sacred name. "A name that the devil can't touch". Because sometimes I wake up to voices yelling out my name. And people yelling my birth name really gets under my skin because of how violent my childhood was.

But in my dreams, I don't hear "the devils" yelling charlie. Now if I can get a handle of feeling someone's presence in my room or running their fingers through my hair that would be great.
 
I hate when people call me by my real name because yes, it does bring up bad memories. I call myself something completely different inside my own head. I want too change it legally too. I don't even like other people who have my name because it brings up memories
 
I don't like being called by my name and I don't know why, I don't think it is any way directly related to my trauma. To me it feels too personal, I prefer to keep a bit more of a distance from myself. It can feel jarring when people refer to me directly by name, T has done it a couple of times and it has felt very uncomfortable. Even written down it can feel odd that those letters are me, I can feel very disconnected from it.
 
I changed my name last month. The old one made me sick. A little weight is lifted now. Lots of support from husbands family and some of mine. I had to go through a whole discussion and homework with t. Can't wait to do it legally i hate writing legal name when I have to. Your not alone on his one. Childhood trauma played a huge part.
 
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