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What age did you consider yourself to be a child?

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You know @Junebug I just never grew up and my little girl within is still screaming at the top of her lungs for positive healthy attention she never received from perps. And I'm trying to answer her and be present for her...she (child within) nearly died from extreme abuse/torture/isolation. And I don't know how to have fun and make her happy most of the time. She is not separate from me - however at times I feel like this little girl self in me nearly died from the extreme at times neglect, volatile extreme sexual/verbal/physical/emotional abuse, and abandonment by perps. That is why @Junebug (and I am so sorry that I cannot give you an age, date, etc.) trying to tell you in this thread at what age did I consider myself to be a child - is oh so hard for me due to the fact that I stayed dissociated for most of my childhood, also some of my adolescence, and adulthood (in and out of dissociation) trying to mentally, physically, etc. get away from the perps. Sorry...
 
Sorry about that. It does cut it off when it goes to the other window where you can check the box to ask for watch email thread.
My t says I'm not responsible for things I did as a child when asked to do them by adults if I was not in charge of when I slept or ate or did things. I've wanted to ask him what a child is but haven't yet so am happy to see what people say here. I think it's five and under.
 
Probably as it's a whole new area of exploration for us to do. Oddly enough the day the question of age came up I went to church service and the text was of Jesus as a child of twelve separating from his parents to do his own thing. That idea was kinda helpful too in that the text referred to a few elements of growing. Stature meaning your physical growth, and wisdom something to me goes on throughout life.
 
Well for me as an adult now when I work with the t he encourages me to do stuff in the safety of the room we are in that probably should have taken place as a child. That feels backwards but it's helpful. For example I didn't know something and he told me about it but then he didn't want me to take his word for it he encouraged that I check it out too. It was some decal on his wall that I wasn't too sure about so he suggested I touch it. It caused a pretty big amount of reluctance. I would of preferred to take his word but the experience was to explore it for myself. I said something about the decal being with the wall which I take it he wouldn't have said it that way so even with that he said see you even have your own way of describing where it is for you.
 
When I was 11 I started menstruating and then I definitely didn't feel like a child anymore. Although, I'm not sure I ever really felt like a child, I was sexually abused from very young age to about 9. A friend of mine still played with dolls aged 16 so I guess it can depend on the individual's brain...

Looking at it now as an adult, I'd probably say up to 10 is child....
 
I think that is why it is difficult to play now. I can do that in session if I want but when offered things no clue what to do with them. Sometimes he intuitively says well you could try this, because I don't think you got the chance when you were a kid. The other big thing he encourages is to ask questions, another missing component of lost child hood.
 
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