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I know depressed people say no one cares for them but their perception is distorted. But what if everyone really seems Not to care? What if you've run things by people in your life and they see your point?
I was fine for so long. Then, 2 years ago, my ex started a custody case that lasted over a year. My nightmares got so bad. I lost a job. I had a diagnosed mental break with terrible dissacociation.
Through all of this, no one came. I live within minutes of my whole family but I was still alone. I wrote it off as everyone having their own life issues to deal with. However, I have finally pulled things back together. I have a job going and I got married.
I thought people would be happy for me and I'd have people back in my life. Instead I have 2 not talking to me because they don't like my choice to marry. The rest don't want to hear about even minor bad days be abuse they are tired of "picking up the pieces." I don't lay my stuff on people like that. I just like having people come see me and hangout. I like to know I'm enjoyable to be around.
I learned recently that my dad has dinners with my brother and sister but they don't invite me.
I know I could just cut them all off but it's some friends too. I wish I could figure out what I do so wrong and how to more enjoyable to be around. Until recently I thought I was a pretty good person. Now I know I'm not someone they want around.
I liked the ability to deny how alone I am. I don't have the strength to work on these relationships and I can't handle how terrible the rejection has made me feel.
I don't think I can recover this time. I don't even really want to.
I was fine for so long. Then, 2 years ago, my ex started a custody case that lasted over a year. My nightmares got so bad. I lost a job. I had a diagnosed mental break with terrible dissacociation.
Through all of this, no one came. I live within minutes of my whole family but I was still alone. I wrote it off as everyone having their own life issues to deal with. However, I have finally pulled things back together. I have a job going and I got married.
I thought people would be happy for me and I'd have people back in my life. Instead I have 2 not talking to me because they don't like my choice to marry. The rest don't want to hear about even minor bad days be abuse they are tired of "picking up the pieces." I don't lay my stuff on people like that. I just like having people come see me and hangout. I like to know I'm enjoyable to be around.
I learned recently that my dad has dinners with my brother and sister but they don't invite me.
I know I could just cut them all off but it's some friends too. I wish I could figure out what I do so wrong and how to more enjoyable to be around. Until recently I thought I was a pretty good person. Now I know I'm not someone they want around.
I liked the ability to deny how alone I am. I don't have the strength to work on these relationships and I can't handle how terrible the rejection has made me feel.
I don't think I can recover this time. I don't even really want to.