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Relapse In Recovery?

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Moggytoggy

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Concentration is tricky so working my way through these posts - hope I don't recycle a thread!

Have been in therapy with a fab lady, working our way through EMDR. Haven't had a flashback for a couple of weeks, vigilance subsided, havent had to surf any suicidal waves. All of a sudden a quite literal trigger & went off into full on flashback, have been dissociating more since and generally gone completely backwards a step.

Thought I was getting through it!! Feels like I'm back at square one. Head is manic. Is it normal to go up and down? Too optimistic to think it wouldn't relapse throughout this recovery? Or is this backwards step unusual? Will I ever be me again?
 
Setbacks and/or flare-ups of symptoms from time to time are almost to be expected. It happens. Emdr especially can stir things up to hit later on, especially if someone has dissociative symptoms.

It could be the trauma you are processing or the underlying ptsd symptoms are stirred up for any number of reasons.

Recovery does often come with some ups and downs - but getting to a point where symptoms feel out of control is something to avoid.

I would highly recommend telling your therapist about what's happening for you, and she can adjust treatment accordingly, especially because it sounds like you have a great relationship with her.
 
Healing is never linear. Expect it to be and you'll be beating yourself up throughout your entire healing journey. Its much more like a roller coaster. Up and down, up and down....
 
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