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I've been alone in this apartment for a while now (my roommate is presently staying elsewhere). Right now I need to get some things done. Good things are going for me starting tomorrow, and I need to prepare by paying bills, organizing my drawers and book shelf, as well as my closet, and cleaning the bathroom. This is the first time in the two years that I've lived here (my first truly safe space and my own space!), that my room has started to look like a normal room should (I had junk piling up on the floor and etc). My boyfriend really helped me to finally get it going in the right direction... even though I wanted to fall through the floor with shame.
I start to feel a massive weight of despair and loneliness bearing down on me, and is with me even if I walk to another room... Thoughts of a bright future do nothing to get me out of it.
What helps is going outside for a bit. But I can't rely on this every single time, can I?
Can anyone relate? Please?
I start to feel a massive weight of despair and loneliness bearing down on me, and is with me even if I walk to another room... Thoughts of a bright future do nothing to get me out of it.
What helps is going outside for a bit. But I can't rely on this every single time, can I?
Can anyone relate? Please?