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Undiagnosed Alone

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Hello everyone...
Throughout my life I was constantly taken advantage of by men/women around me.
I was sexually abused from 2-9 by my babysitter's brother ages 2, 11 and 12 years older. Then my cousin/uncle tried to get me in bed, but I ran out of their rooms.
I don't any happy memories from childhood, my parent's were always busy with their job. So I didn't feel any warmth at home and went to the babysitter even though I was abused. I'm just a toy for them.
Now I couldn't get help and suffers from ptsd/anxiety. How can I lIve a normal after this?
Sorry I needed someone to vent.
 
You have to live a life of someone who has experienced some pretty horrible childhood trauma. I've had to accept my limitations, and learn to heal and grow slowly.

And no you are not a toy. You are a person who was put through the wringer.

I felt like a toy. A sex toy. It was awful. I get to talk to my new therapist about it on Friday. Yuck.

Thanks for your post. It reminds me I wasn't the only one. And welcome to the forum.
 
Having been a thing for others feels terribly lonely to me.

...don't be alone with that.

You can live a good life.
 
No need to apologize - you can always vent here. You will find support. Many understanding people. I just found this place less than a year ago. Very helpful people.

So sorry for what you have been through...
 
I don't think we, as abused individuals, ever live a 'normal' life. Actually, what defines 'normal' anyway? Normal is relative to the individual. Best we can do is to come to terms with and accept that we have a mental illness, learn coping skills to help manage it, and live life simply one day at a time. Best of luck
 
Good to vent. We are here for you. Sorry you went through that!!!! Why be normal? Normal is boring and sucks. Be different. Those horrible... Experiences caused trauma and now it affects you. You seem like you are taking the right steps by joining the forum to start to finally get the support you need and deserve and hopefully it will lead you to get all the support and treatment you need for your condition. And then... I wouldn't try to be normal; yuck!!! Use the compassion, the strength, the weakness, the insight for what is truly valuable in life to be above normal; be cool and different; be you, spoil yourself, take a single step then another then another to make your dream a reality. Welcome
 
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