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Can Individual Parts Have Flashbacks?

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Is it possible for just one part of you to be having a flashback? Usually, when I have a flashback, it is very emotional. There is a lot of fear and anger (mine tend to be mostly nonvisual), and I will shake or thrash about or curl up in a ball. But sometimes my body will react, while my mind feels relatively calm. It's like a part of me is responding to a trigger, but the conscious part of me doesn't even feel it. At these times, I almost feel like I'm just making it up (which seems to be a possibility, since I don't have any actual memories). Has anyone else experienced this?
 
Just one part meaning DID, or just one part meaning emotional/ visual/ auditory/ taste/ touch/ etc.?

If the second, then yes. I'll taste blood, or smell cordite, or etc. on a fairly regular basis. Most of my flashbacks are whole hog, nightmares while awake, entirely reliving them. But a helluva lot of them are just pieces.

One of the more frustrating things with my flashbacks, is when they're in pieces. Whole ones, I usually had my emotions shut off, so they don't engage now either, because they weren't in gear back then. Reliving something with modern emotions overlaid on old memories? Puke. Seriously not fun.
 
I have flashbacks of flashbacks. I has flashbacks as a child and dissociated them because as a child I couldn't handle the flashbacks.

Sometimes new stuff comes up, some new combination of flashbacks, memories, dissociation and emotional flooding. Weird stuff. The human mind is complicated. My poor brain has tied itself into a pretzel trying to keep me safe.
 
This happens to me all the time. I start having a flashback, but then I end up dissociated, floating next to myself, smirking at the person/part of me that is freaking out, feeling nothing at all.

I wish I had an answer; these moments make me feel totally insane.
 
Just one part meaning DID, or just one part meaning emotional/ visual/ auditory/ taste/ touch/ etc.?...
I guess more like DID, although I'm not (not full blown anyway). I do experience parts, and I do dissociate some, but I stay generally aware. This was my body acting like a scared child, to the point that my husband was worried, while my mind just didn't feel anything.
 
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