Ok so I have this thing where it is very, very difficult for me to fall asleep and can take some time. Everything in my environment has to be just so before I can fall asleep and if even the slightest thing is off I will not be able to. To make matters worse, if any of these specific requirements my body apparently needs to sleep become unmet WHILE I SLEEP I will very often be IMMEDIATELY awoken with a terrifying nightmare.
Examples: Change in lighting, change in temperature, any of my limbs coming out from under the covers, facing a certain direction in bed, doors being opened, etc etc etc.
Last night I don't believe I woke up with a nightmare I believe I just woke up randomly. However upon realizing it was dark in the room my brain shot into high alert mode and I was unable to sleep. I was tossing and turning but everything felt wrong and lying certain ways or facing directions not towards the wall made me feel so tense and as though I was about to be attacked that I just could not fall back asleep. Furthermore I will interpret things around the room as being way scarier and more threatening than they actually are (does anyone else get that?) like seeing the sweater hanging on my door as a figure standing there or other things. I have to work hard to not go into a full blown paranoid and panicked state and try to prevent that by immediately becoming forcefully cheerful.
Anyways I ended up giving up on sleep and couldn't fall back asleep for 2 hours. It sucked. I woke up the next morning feeling dead. I've been sleep deprived several days now and it is NOT good for my psychotic symptoms or really anything, even if I lose only an hour or two of sleep. Today I was absolutely tripping out, I was not in my body, everything looked really strange, I felt like I was dreaming the whole day, I was talking to demons, just very weird things happening to me. I was walking around in 30 degree weather with no jacket in a tshirt and wasn't bothered in the slightest, physical sensations are so dull to me it's though I feel them through a costume.
I am in desperate need of sleep tips guys. How do I make my body not so tense when I sleep. I'm also going to bring this up to my therapist next session. I can't even relax while I am dead asleep. Unbelievable.
Examples: Change in lighting, change in temperature, any of my limbs coming out from under the covers, facing a certain direction in bed, doors being opened, etc etc etc.
Last night I don't believe I woke up with a nightmare I believe I just woke up randomly. However upon realizing it was dark in the room my brain shot into high alert mode and I was unable to sleep. I was tossing and turning but everything felt wrong and lying certain ways or facing directions not towards the wall made me feel so tense and as though I was about to be attacked that I just could not fall back asleep. Furthermore I will interpret things around the room as being way scarier and more threatening than they actually are (does anyone else get that?) like seeing the sweater hanging on my door as a figure standing there or other things. I have to work hard to not go into a full blown paranoid and panicked state and try to prevent that by immediately becoming forcefully cheerful.
Anyways I ended up giving up on sleep and couldn't fall back asleep for 2 hours. It sucked. I woke up the next morning feeling dead. I've been sleep deprived several days now and it is NOT good for my psychotic symptoms or really anything, even if I lose only an hour or two of sleep. Today I was absolutely tripping out, I was not in my body, everything looked really strange, I felt like I was dreaming the whole day, I was talking to demons, just very weird things happening to me. I was walking around in 30 degree weather with no jacket in a tshirt and wasn't bothered in the slightest, physical sensations are so dull to me it's though I feel them through a costume.
I am in desperate need of sleep tips guys. How do I make my body not so tense when I sleep. I'm also going to bring this up to my therapist next session. I can't even relax while I am dead asleep. Unbelievable.