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    Time To Let Go

    Let Go. Two small words with so much meaning. They were said gently to me, at the right time, about the right thing, by T. 1st Reaction- cry. 2nd Reaction- I have permission to Let Go. I didn't think that mattered until now, but it does. So cleaver old me thought i would apply this Let Go to...
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    Still Scared 'he' Will Find Me

    Hi, I did emdr about 8yrs ago which helped alot but not fully as time there was limited and I had blocks. I'm also just finishing in Mar a stint of long term psychodynamic therapy, not soley for ptsd. Otakujome, you reminded me of when I was at school. At 15 a boy held a knife to another's one...
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    Still Scared 'he' Will Find Me

    10 yrs on, and I'm still terrified I will see the man who held me and a colleague at knife point. The fear of him hurting others, abducting a girl inside of the cubicle I was protecting and not knowing when or if he would stab me while he was pinning me against the door trying to get to the...
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    In A Dark Space.

    Thanks - am feeling brighter today, got things inpersepctive today so doing much better, thanks for the supportive messages.
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    In A Dark Space.

    Am depressed and have had thoughts today about killing myself - have had a drink and have cut this evening after spending the day at therapy.(I go three days a week 10-4) Funny even though I've got the thoughts i'm comforted by them as its like a positive alternative to struggling with the shit...
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    Self-Medicating To Get Some Sleep

    Thank You for all your suggestions, I've decided to go and speak to my Gp on Thursday (earliest time i can see her) and tell her what i've been up to and ask her for an alternative to be prescribed as it sounds like there's more out there I could try. I'm going to try reading a book tonight to...
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    Self-Medicating To Get Some Sleep

    Does or has anyone else self-medicated to get to sleep?. My weekend has been really bad, it's the 5th year anniversary of the incident that lead to my PTSD and I haven't been coping very well - got a bit suicidal and urges to self harm so to stop myself I took four times the amount of...
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    Struggling With Self-Harm And Suicidal Ideation

    Thanks for talking so openly about self harm and suicidal ideas. I've spent the weekend trying not to kill myself or self harm - succeeded in the first but failed at the self harm bit. For me self harm is about showing outward feelings, thoughts, my inner pain in an outward way that's...
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    Introducing Mr & Mrs Parsons

    The dress looks amazing. Congrats to you both, All the best, J
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    What's Your Preference? On The TP Roll, That Is!

    I am now "over the top" but i grew up with it "underneath". I just prefer it over the top and will change it at my parents house despite them always putting it the other way round. They change it back, so it's constanly changing when i visit them. I leave other people houses as i find it...
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    Hypersensitive To Touch

    Touch is a big problem for me. So is the fear of being touched. The actual touch isn't that bad but i flinch and move away if someone comes near and avoid it as much as possible to the extent that i don't use public transport incase someone brushed up against me and trigggers a flashback. Its...
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    Will I Ever Feel Safe?

    Avoiding the tv may work short time but by not watching are u still worried about it anyway? maybe u cud try a different programe for 2 minutes and see whether u react or not then build up the time as you get less worried about being triggered perhaps. Sounds like you've got lots to cope with...
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    Do You Ever Feel That Your Feelings Are Invalid?

    I was dianosed with ptsd 4 and a half years ago and when I went to the first of my group therapy sessions last week I felt like I'd made a bigger deal out of my incident than what happened, despite it being very real and significant. I think it's to do with feeling guilty for having ptsd and...
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    Hello - Returning After Not Using Forum For While

    thanks for welcome back, feeling better already!
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    What is Something Good You Did Today?

    today i was involved in painting a mural on a blank wall in a secure garden (walled, fenced with astroturf and a dull paved area) of a mental health intensive care ward. A friend won a competition 3 years ago to do the mural but has only just got independent funding for project so today we...
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    Scared By PTSD Treatment But Having Hope

    hi Other, take comfort that your not alone here and that other people can relate to what your going through even though we all have our own individual unique experiences. ptsd is a good leveling stick and many of the symptoms you described are normal here, good to see u joined in here, all...
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    Hello - Returning After Not Using Forum For While

    hello, returning to forum after not logging in for over a year, got out of habit of visiting site while having therapy then forgot the address for months and just thought i'd give it another try and re-found site again - relieved, always felt accepted here! Just wanted to break the ice again and...
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    How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

    thank you wildfire, my t probably has told me- something about having an end date can be beneficial to work towards but i haven't retained why. i need to ask again. a few weeks ago we had a discussion about whether i could open up and let emotions come out so had up to six sessions to try and...
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    How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

    hard to say what i'm feeling today as been avoiding. Feel low. have been set an end date for therapy, not really sure why, i know i should ask but afraid of what the answer might be. it's bothering me today though. how can i best make good use of time left? don't feel like going to next...
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    What is Something Good You Did Today?

    i bought two books online today- 'the ptsd workbook' and 'i can get over it'. i'm making a pledge now to read them and work on what i need to.
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    How To Express Emotion? Our Inner Selves

    i'm having a problem with therapy sessions - i'm finding it hard to recognise any feelings relating to trauma during therapy. i've been told that if i can't do this maybe it's my brain saying i'm not ready to handle them, basically either start feeling or stop sessions because they're not...
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    Does Anyone Have Helpful Hints On Dealing With Disassociation?

    i've been discussing the same with my therapist recently, or rather he was doing the talking as i'd already filtered off elsewhere! when i listened back to the tape (we've just started taping the sessions as my memory is awful and i dissassoiated during the sessions) he suggested trying to...
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    Therapy Sucks Sometimes, Not Sure What To Do

    I was having the same problem before xmas. In the end i printed off my diary and gave it to my therapist with the understanding that only he would see it. It was a big step as i hadn't told anyone what happened since an initial police report and then writing in a diary here. For me it has...
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    EMDR Lashback - When EMDR Goes Wrong

    EMDR is the same as any therapy - the person having therapy needs to meet the criteria for it, and you need a properly qualified person to facilitate it, not just someone who has 'an interest' in the subject but someone qualified in the technique. My experience of EMDR is different. i've now...
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    When To Start Work Again?

    Thanks. you'll laugh at this- In January i started doing voluntary work as a study support assistant two evenings a week (9 hours total) working with kids that are under-acheiving at school. It involves helping/supporting them to enjoy learning again, build their confidence and give them...
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