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    Ph.D Interview - I Didn't Make The Cut

    I will try to make this as concise and brief as possible. It was an all day process with four group interviews and a one on one (which was the last 30 minutes of the day). I certainly was a “fish out of water” among all the professionals, who had there Licenses and private practices, and/or...
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    Suddenly Not Able To Talk For Four Hours

    I was wondering if an anyone else had ever experienced this? I don't exactly know what this wa,s and wondered if any one else might have some kind explaination for it? I was already struggling from my therapy session earlier, but when I found the kids would be staying home an additional day I...
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    Trying To Work Through Pain I Have Caused My Family

    I had a very painful session the other day, because I came in touch with the reality of what I had put my husband and kids through when my mental and emotional health was not stable. I'm trying to work through the gulit and shame for all the pain I have caused my family. I wonder if I will...
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    Ever Think Or Feel Others Can See Right Through Your Clothes

    I wanted to know if anyone else has ever had any of the experiences below. I have no control over when or where they come. They are very hard experiences to tolerate, and I was curious if others had them, because it is a very isolating, creepy feeling and experience. Unfortunately that are...
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    DID All things did - dissociative identity disorder : experiencing feelings only when in other identity

    I was wanting know what other DID"ers experiences have when expressing feelings. I am frustrated that when I function in my, so called, "base" identity I feel absoultly nothing. I walk around feeling like a dead person just existing in a body. My T has noticed that I only get in touch with...
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    Well, I'm In For The PH.D. Interview

    Well, I wanted to let you know............ I was invitated in for an interview! It is on February 20th. I could use any positive vibes you can send my way. It is a little bit intimidating, however, when I found out it is an ALL DAY interview. Talk about stretching! I didn't think that...
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    Overcoming Dissociation By Facing Fears

    I have this "wall of fear" that I experience when I get sexually aroused by my husband and I end up "disappearing" and my husband ends up making love to what seems like a "lifeless" body, or I regress into the little child that was abused which puts my husband into the role of my past abuser...
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    The Challenge To Go For My PH.D.

    Yah, I was definitely reaching for the stars on this one. I was thinking that I might like to go for my PH.D in Counseling Education and Supervision, so I took the plunge and decided to apply. This was a huge undertaking just to complete the application process. I didn’t realize this was...
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    Wounded By My In Laws - Not Sure How To Work Through This

    Last night when my husband and were in couple therapy and were addressing past relationships and/or situations where we had been hurt and how it effected our current relationship, I became aware of a wound that had not been dealt with yet. My husband's family confronted me with some very...
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    Petrified Of Getting Old - Can Anyone Relate?

    I am so petrified of growing old. Pardon my descriptions if it offends somene, but I am scared of what happens to your body when you age. I am scared oif watching my body change and get all - aww I won't say but you know what I mean. Trying to face this fear is probably worse for me than...
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    Reconnect And Say Hi

    I wanted to reconnect with all of you after being away for a few months. So much has happened since my families quick and abrupt move from one place to another. It has been very rough and hard, especially for my two children. Due to feeling exhausted, challeged and struggling with the...
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    Have You Had Ringing In Ears Since Being On or Coming Off of Psychiatric Medication?

    I am struggling with whether to go through with seeing my Doctor to start anti-depressant-anti anxiety medication. I am worried that it will interfere with my ability to be in touch with my emotions. I would like to know what others think about this and/or your personal experience has been in...
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    Raising Kids When You Or Your Partner Has PTSD

    I've been wanting to start this thread for a couple of months now, but it gets complicating for me to figure out how to start it and to share my own challenges with my kids. I am a married Mom of two children, a boy and a girl, 10 and 9 yrs old. I wondered if others might be looking for a...
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    What Would I Have To Give Up In Order To Be Whole?

    What I would have to give up in order to be whole?:think: This is one of the questions my therapist asked me to begin thinking about. Feel free to right your answers and thoughts, or contribute helpful information for another. I hope what I put down makes some sense. It was not a question I...
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    Anti-depressant Anti-anxiety Medication that Doesn't Cause Weight Gain

    I'm thinking I may need to try going on some kind of Anti-depressant Anit-anxiety medication to help with my facilatiing moods between the two. Does any one know of any of these medications that would not cause weight gain? One therapist said Wellbutrin. What do others of you say who have...
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    My Attempt To Reconnect

    I want to try to reconnect with others on this forum again. I just haven't had the energy and ability to over come my lack of motivation to post very often. I want to, but I can't seem to muster up the energy to write a post. Maybe that's a "cop out", I don't know is it? I seem at loss for...
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    Feeling Trapped by My Haunting & Tormenting Fears - Have Others Overcome?

    Does anyone else struggle with intense fears that keep coming up several times a day and now experience freedom from them? I am hesitant, and embarrassed to admit this, but I have these crazy fearful thoughts and pictures that come to my mind several times, over and over through out my day...
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    Facing My Giants, What's The Point?

    I'm only going to mention the current giants that come and hinder me currently to live my life fully. They seem like so much bigger than me. Here I've listed a few I'm currently facing - fear, intense panic, sex with my husband, becoming a mom, a wife, locating a new therapist, growing older...
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    Changes, My Move, And Feeling Very Weird and Scared

    I am very confused over what I am feeling and desiring. I feel very unsafe and want to run and hide. I want to stay in hiding and never come out. I feel overwhelmed and stressed. My family and I will be moving to a new state that will be 8 hours from where we have lived for past 5 years. It...
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    Lonely, Lost and Detached

    I feel bad that I haven't been able to really touch base with everyone in almost a week. I have been so much busier than normal. Kids and me have been sick - me is still trying to get better. The challenge of helping kids that wait till the last minute to get homwrk done. You know, when kids get...
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    Shame, Blame, and Pain

    I thought others might have responses to these areas that they might like to share and perhaps get some support and insight from others here. Shame, Blame, and resulting Pain I know these areas are biggies for me. I can't seem to resolve the issue of blame in the sexual abuse that I...
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    I Need Someone to Talk To Me

    i am trying to decide what i need to do. where can i go where and what do i do? i'm super triggered right now. extreme panic and fading away. i've been having a hard time the last 2-3 days with major panic stirring inside me. today it has escalated big time. i don't know what i need right...
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    What's Wrong With Me"

    I'm have been sinking fast the last couple of days. I don't want to be a 'pest" or burden to anyone. However, I feel so lost. People assume things about me that are not accurate. People think I'm doing okay. I guess I have become and expert at the role I took on growing up. Lookiing fine on...
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    I'm Scared and Trying to Understand, ?

    I am very freaked out right now. My hubby told me this morning that I did something that I honestly do not remember doing. I still have much to understand with this PTSD stuff I'm experiencing. These weird episodes have increased since I've began to remember the sexual I experienced as a...
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    Triggered And Sucked Into My Trauma Mode When Kids Get Angy With Me - Anyone Relate?

    Quick thoughts; I am so frustrated with myself, with my 10 year old son, with being a "parent", I'd rather just be the Mom that doesn't have to learn how to discipline her children. The Mom that holds her children close and doesn't have to do things that upset her children and cause her...
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