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    Cutting the emotional ties to narcissists

    I used to have an abusive ex with intermittent explosive disorder, anti social personality disorder and petit mal seizures. Look those disorders up he sought help at first but discontinued taking his meds so his rage came back and it was over nothing. I almost killed myself because I didn't know...
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    Is this integrating young dissociated feelings?

    Well I have full blown DID. But after talking to my T and doing work with her I sometimes like you said feel like a kid again not in that since but really small and actually talk in a kid voice and act really immature. My husband thinks I am just being cute but I don't know I think it's just...
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    Muscle Spasms During Flashbacks

    My Cervical Dystonia gets horrible during a flashback. I try to block it out with one of my alters. But my T wants to work with me not to integrate but to have others in charge so I know what's going on. Any kind of thing about my trauma that triggers me and I have to call it quits for hanging...
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    DID Did - i hate today (the body's birthday)

    It's hard to celebrate our real birthday but Loni celebrates August 8 the day we got rid of our abusive ex that was trying to kill us.
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    Anyone else having 9/11 flashbacks from the news today?

    Yup I switched as Sara not Sarah and Aris came out too.
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    DID Did - i hate today (the body's birthday)

    We like our birthday because it's the day all of us were born. The main one is asleep. My husband doesn't know but he doesn't think to highly of DID. He thinks I will or one of us will stab him in his sleep. I told him not the case. Most DIDs peeps are pacifists and abhorr violence.
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    Is It Normal To Want To Know Where Your Abusive Ex Is All The Time?

    There is still also the fact that he knows my website. And I am afraid that he lurks on it frequently. I could get another domain name but I am not. They say stalkers will try to search you out through social media even after you have erased traces.
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    Is It Normal To Want To Know Where Your Abusive Ex Is All The Time?

    You know that is a good idea. I do put my account on private but I don't think that stops him from looking. Because friends of friends can still have him look. So I am am going to do that.
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    Is It Normal To Want To Know Where Your Abusive Ex Is All The Time?

    My ex traumatized me with various abusive circumstances such as battery, assault and rape. And he knew I had trauma issues already. He was diagnosed with intermittent explosive disorder which I guess means he can't control his impulses to explode and it was just a matter of time before he...
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    Info On The Old Hag Or Sleep Paralysis Experience

    I have had the Old hag experience. But I was able to defend myself and call it off and scream from my third eye. It seemed to go away after that and I was able to move again.
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    Taking Off Clothes While Dissociated

    Yes when I dissociate I have taken off my clothes. This happens sometimes depending who is out and what how and when the trigger is. I think it is because when you are dissociated everything feels like a big wad of cotton and you just want to get rid of it so off comes your clothes as well...
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    Flashbacks And People Noticing I Am Having Them.

    Wow I am astounded at how many people space out or zone out. There are so many ptsd suffers.
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    Flashbacks And People Noticing I Am Having Them.

    Ok so I go to a lot of AA meetings and the first thing they notice is that my eyes glaze over and somewhere in the middle I am truly in my past and I try to get out of it but it seems futile. They have to lightly tap me on the shoulder or say my name a lot of times before I answer. Even that is...
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    What Is Dissociation Like For You?

    I had a weird dissociation episode at a christmas party and i have no idea why it appeared just that I knew that I was separate from my mind and my body. I know my body was going through the motions but I was unconscious of what was happening. It felt as though I was just a passenger. And then...
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    DID When you have been diagnosed with did? what do you and how do you deal with it?

    It does make sense. And has been taught, but there is just one or two that just like to tug bad like a dog that tugs really hard on a leash and you can't let that leash go or out they pop out. I am sure in due time they will certainly not tug as much and learn that someone is taking care of...
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    DID When you have been diagnosed with did? what do you and how do you deal with it?

    It's pretty hard when my little 5 years old and 2 and 3 year olds come out because it's like there is nothing you can do. The other person or persons that you are in the room with can't do anything. But I think the sucking your thumb thing I can relate.
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    Dom Violence Still Love Abusive Ex. Is This Even Normal? Hate Myself For This.

    I don't think it's actually love that is the emotion that you carry, but true compassion that needs to be smashed. This guy has harmed you. He will harm you again and possibly do more since I've been through the same thing, was in a 4 year relationship loved the guy had a real compassion for...
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    DID When you have been diagnosed with did? what do you and how do you deal with it?

    I have been diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder and Dissociative Disorder. It's tough when you have others in your head and one of the switches and you become an entirely different person. This is part of Complex PTSD. I would like different peoples opinions and stories on how they...
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    Abused Serverly In A Relationship That Went Bad Almost Killed...triggers...

    Thank you guys, I have a therapist and I will continue to go to meetings. God bless.
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    Dissociative Disorders - Can You Relate?

    Suffering from a dissociative disorder is hard, because everything is always changing and you don't know who you are when you do switch or depersonalizing. I know back in 2004 I can't recall who I was, where I was, if I had a brother and sister. People have to tell me I did have family back...
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    Abused Serverly In A Relationship That Went Bad Almost Killed...triggers...

    So just over a year ago, I was in a four year relationship that was abusive. I was trying to be compassionate and take care of a guy who was an epileptic, how had intermittent explosive disorder and antisocial personality disorder on top of that. I was trying to be caring, but he would lash out...
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    Growing Up

    A big part of me not remembering my trauma, but that I know I have been traumatized is things will trigger me that I have no memory of and I relate that on a big part of dissociation and head trauma. I have had 4 or 5 big traumatic head injuries that have caused me to lose my memories. The...
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    Sufferer Out Of The Belly Of The Misogynist Beast

    Welcome to the forum. I have to say that I can relate to the the ritual and sexual abuse. And I thought that your discussion about the stomach acid and muscles was very enlightening, because I live in constant pain and I try not to re-trigger myself, but living with DID it is really really...
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    Am I Any Less Of A Person For Not Working?

    Hey I am on SSDI for my mental illnesses of DID, PTSD and MDD. I was on the ticket to work program and worked with my employment agency until I had a relapse, but sometimes I feel guilty because I am not working and everyone else is. All I do is concentrate on my art and just try to work on my...
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    Dissociating Into A Child-like State?

    It feels totally normal for people whom experience severe dissociation and trauma in their childhood like myself to have a child come out and want to experience being a child. Well in my case I have DID, so it is my child alter, or other I like to call it. I have about 10 or more of them that...
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