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    Losing The Spark?

    Dylan, Your answers to the questions blew me away. I had never even come close to thinking that way, but it rang so true for me. Thanks
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    Love

    Planning ahead is incredibly hard for me. My sweetie has told me she doesn't want to hear me say, "Who knows what might happen," anymore. I've agreed not to say it (I've had a few slips, but not many) but I can't seem to stop myself from looking to future through that lens. From what I've...
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    Losing The Spark?

    I wish I did, I've been hoping for forty years that I would find a passion that would last. During the last couple of years that I've been in treatment I've wondered if it was a symptom of PTSD or just a character weakness. Still don't know, but I guess all I can do is to continue to persue...
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    I Think I've Had A Light Bulb Moment

    Heather, I don't know if anything is ever 100% I think deciding to do something about recovering, even if it's only 65% is a step in the right direction. As much as I hate to admit it, there will always be a lot of work to be done for us special people with PTSD. Sometimes just getting...
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    Anybody Work From Home?

    blwnay, I am so sorry to hear about your hardships. Selling your house and buying a bus to live in sounds like incredibly tough times to me. I've heard lots of stories like yours in the US. I guess the hard times are world wide. I just want to cry about the millions of people who have had...
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    Children - Where Have We Gone Wrong

    There must be a middle ground somewhere that actually works. I grew up being beaten with a belt on my bare ass almost every day. A lot of times it was for nothing more than "I know you did something today to deserve this." It made me so hateful of any kind of authority that I still can't keep...
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    Dear God

    Ah, the bottle. I came home from Vietnam in a bottle of bourbon, and stayed there until 2007. During all those years I had lots of people suggest that I might have PTSD but I denied it. PTSD was for pussies. I was way too strong to have that shit. When I finally decided to get sober, it was...
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    I Think I've Had A Light Bulb Moment

    "Don't beat yourself up when you wake up a week, a month, 2 days from now and feel as bad as you ever have. It's not a lack of action or a loss of momentum. It is a symptom of an illness and being aware of it and taking a more objective look at yourself before you feel like you failed in some...
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    Would you still be enlisted?

    Sorry to be a stick in the mud here. I spent my Army time during the years of the draft, and I hated every minute of it. I spent 18 months in Vietnam, and never got promoted beyond private first class because of my lousy attitude. I saw so many stupid decisions made by officers who cared way...
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    Dear God

    Tell us more, Brad. I know how it can feel, like everything is f*cked up beyond repair and there is no point in even going on. No hope, no reason, no purpose, no dreams, no nothing. It's part of the disorder, and it can be dealt with. Things can get better. Knowing you have a disorder you...
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    Anybody Work From Home?

    Thanks Deer and Transient, Haven't found work yet, but then I haven't really put that much effort in it. One thing that seems interesting is proofreading, or maybe editing. I have some related experience in that area, but it was a long time ago. Somehow I need to get over this...
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    Losing The Spark?

    I thought it was just me that had this problem. I have had three distinct vocational careers and ran out of steam on all three. Countless jobs, many of which seemed like the answer to my dreams when I got them. I seem to get what I think are profound insights that tell me, "This is it for...
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    I Think I've Had A Light Bulb Moment

    Boy, can I relate to this. It's exactly what they all keep telling me. The pros can prescribe meds that may or may not work; lead me to information about theory, recovery practices, etc; help me make connections between past experience and current thoughts and feelings; maybe give me some...
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    Relationship Dating Someone With Ptsd & Tbi

    By the way, make sure the two or three things are easily defined and measured. Things like meeting you when and where he says he will, remembering your birthday and horse's name, asking you at least once a day about how you're doing, and then listening while you tell him. That kind of...
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    Relationship Dating Someone With Ptsd & Tbi

    Hi Aimzify, If he is as diligent in his recovery as it sounds, there is good reason to hope for improvement. If he is getting regular treatment and not making any progress, it may be worthwhile for him to try somebody or something different. Is it worth continuing the relationship? It's a...
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    What Do You Do When Every Part Of You Hurts?

    The hot tub at the YMCA has saved my life more than once. I don't know what it is, but sitting in that hot water until I'm sweating so much I can't stand it anymore can completely change my day. After that a cuppa coffee at one of the coffee joints where I often see people I know, and I'm back...
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    Portland, Oregon, Usa

    Hi All, Our fearless leader, pdxwriter has taken the initiative through private messages to try to put something together. If you haven't heard anything from him, and wish you had, be sure to let him know. Thank you, pdx!
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    Portland, Oregon, Usa

    Thanks for the advice, Blossom.
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    Springfield. Oregon

    Hi Stacey, There is a thread on this forum for Portland, although so far it's just a few people saying where they live. Nothing concrete yet, but you might want to check it out.
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    Portland, Oregon, Usa

    So what's next? Anyone want to suggest a time and place to meet? Or is everybody like me and think, "Nobody wants to get to know me, and if they do, they should know better."
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    Major Flooding Disaster Hits Queensland Australia

    I have a friend who volunteers as a trauma therapist for the American Red Cross. Most of the work he has done in the past few years has been with flood victims. Incredibly traumatizing stuff. My heart and best wishes are with all of the people who have been devastated by these floods.
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    Do People Fake PTSD?

    Hey cj, You have some pretty strong feelings about this topic. I think a lot of people do, one way or the other, and it's perfectly understandable. I spent thirty-seven years making a complete shambles of my life and the lives of countless others denying that I was weak enough to have PTSD...
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    How's The Cricket Going In Sydney

    Ashes? Guess you had to be there.
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    Venting - Over Relationships

    Makes a lot of sense. And as I sit here reading some of these posts I'm struck by my selfishness. It's all about how she needs to change to make me happy with nothing about how I can be more accepting of her needs and care. Sometimes I tell myself I have no damned business being in another...
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    Divorce For The Right Reasons?

    Boy, these are some tough questions. I was divorced three times before I learned I had PTSD. I'm in yet another relationship now, and she and I both know I have PTSD, which makes a big difference. Every day I ask myself countless times whether I should even be with someone. It's hard enough...
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