Welcome to the forum!
My mother was extraordinarily abusive to me when I was child and really through my young adult years as well. I have struggled with the chest pain thing in the recent past only to have been told it was stressed related - but really scary nonetheless.
I have done alot of...
Glad you are here!
Both my husband and I have PTSD. However, recently, he has been far removed. He tells me loves me and wants to be with me, but there is this great cavern of disconnect- lonliness that's really hard to abide with. Sounds like you are struggling, but find support here, you are...
First of all, congrats to you for stepping forward, taking one step beyond your pain to talk about it and the sharing the horrors that were done to you. You have and seek out support of those who are in a stable position to be helpful, neutral and to help you focused on your healing.
I hear the...
I feel weird even writing this. I have been gone for a few months from the forum. I am doing really well... and that's part of the reason why I have been gone. Don't get me wrong, there have been times that I felt really shaky, but just didn't want to talk about it.
I will be on the forum more...
You have already started the process. You are here. You finding this place is part of you advocating that you want better for your life and your sense of self and how you feel being a part of this world. You have suffered so so much. But you are not alone. While none of us can say, yeah, I...
I have hurt myself for the last time. A part of me is sad to see it go, a greater part of shaking with the newness of this freedom. I had tried for so long to be good. Only to realize that there is no good to achieve.
I sat on my front step with a No. 27 cigarette in my hand, blowing out...
Well, what is your support system like? I am glad that you will be seeking counseling. Perhaps there can be joint sessions where you and your wife can have some support in working through this stuff.
How did it go today?
Thinking of you. Hang in there.
well, you have started on the journey of healing. I don't mean to sound corny... but you are admitting not only to yourself but to all of us that you want (perhaps even deserve? Smile!) such wonderful and important things for yourself.
BUT, at the same time, be careful. We easily can torture...
A part of me didn't want to read this post bc of how close to how this is. My mom has MAJOR selective memory... and it's so painful to know that my major deep hurts are invisible to her. But what I have realized is that I cannot and will not look to my mother to validate what I felt...
I fall in the many incidents throughout my lifetime. I don't like to think about it, but it's the truth. It was what it was... spanning from 3 to mid twenties. I am now 29.
I am really happy for you mouse. And its okay to be nervous... but you are going to move forward to go back to work. Mad props, man. Great attitude as well. I look forward to hearing about your process/progress! :)
I used to take it for sleep. It helped with sleep, but made me feel zombie ish, that a part of me just wasn't there. At first, I didn't mind bc I was a) getting sleep and b) less anxious. I did experience strange side effects. I stopped bc I tried to overdose on it. I have ultimately stopped...
Good for you for practicing self-care, esp in the face of such stress! I agree with everyone else, take the best care of yourself you can. As hard as it has been for you to even think about, you are able to post about it and that's good stuff. Take good care...
How amazingly damaging that he would force you to do things; esp of a sexual nature! It makes total sense that you don't feel like you can trust him or let him get close to you in variety of aspects...esp since his actions were not isolated incidents, but happened on several times! You have...
Don't get hung up on being "weird." This will only cause you to feel worse about what you are struggling with. It's so hard to give ourselves a break about the junk inside. I used to cut too but stopped bc I realized that no matter how much I cut or how deeply, the pain was still there... the...