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    I Have Worked In My Job For A Year

    My PTSD came a year after my dad went into a life threatening rage after I spent a morning working with my supervisor on a cattle stud. My Supervisor and I were talking about 'success' stuff. My step-dad car's drove past the paddocks I was working in. After cattle-work, I came home in the...
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    News Possible New Target For Ptsd Sufferers

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    What Bright Eyed Bushy Tailed Things Have You Done?

    Inspire me. I thought it would be nice to share for those might have been fun, bright eyed and bushy tailed, but lost it through living through childhood trauma. I lost my bright eyed bushy tailedness when I was 4 years old.
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    News Fear Memories Being Erased

    Dead Link Removed Hope this is true. I wouldn't mind losing my fear response.
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    Inability To Do Multi-tasking

    I have noticed that I have a big problem with multi-tasking. For example, if I try to do work I am fine, but if I have conversations with people while working, I start to come unglued. It feels like I get overloaded mentally. I wait until my break and then I can talk to people and I am fine. I...
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    Integrated Some Hefty Personalites From My Trauma

    I have integrated the main personalities in my trauma in the last 3 years. Anti- gentle kindergarten teacher personality Anti-stable working gentleman pop/fun going to Sea World personality Anti- Mrs W at the farm who raised me to be a lady personality. Anti-RW crush at school...
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    Telling Guilt

    I have a bit of telling guilt at the moment. I had to tell people 13 years ago about my dad sexually abusing me from 6-9 years old. My grandfather and mum and the community found out when I revealed what happened I have this idea that a lady or a gentleman doesn't tell as they would hurt...
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    Memories-latest Show Of Fruits Basket On Abciview

    The latest show of fruits basked is pretty good. It's really insightful and a different view on the topic forgetting/keeping memories. You can watch it online. This particular episode could be applied to PTSD memories. Although it's about people making others forget memories rather than PTSD...
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    News Interesting Discovery Related To Ptsd

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    Officially A 3 Month Plus Long Term Worker

    It took 13 years of therapy, but yesterday I finally reached 3 months (working every week) in my job. My husband and I are opening a bottle of wine tomorrow! Working long term was my goal when I started therapy 10 years ago. I got my first long term job 2 days after the attack that gave me...
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    Memories After Trauma Rather Than Before Causing Much Of Ptsd.

    I have come across a curious thing in recovering from PTSD that the worst PTSD symptoms I had were actually not the result of the trauma I went through. The worst symptoms were the result of a positive non traumatic memory 2 weeks after my trauma becoming damaged. I forgot this memory for 13...
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    Younger Siblings Emotionally Or Physically Abusing You.

    I am remembering my younger siblings emotionally abusing me, physically abusing me when I was 17-19 years old. Mostly this abusive was through copying their abusive parents. My siblings emotionally blackmailed through ignoring, they copied my dad's experience deprivation thing that I experienced...
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    Do You Talk About Your Trauma Too Much?

    When I grew up, I couldnt' say anything for fear of my life. It all got suppressed. Then I started say to someone this happened to me when I was 21 which was really hard thing I have done. Then I told another person. After telling two people then it feels like I couldn't stop talking about it...
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    Times You Deal With Wholeness Of Feelings.

    Like marriage, rights of passage, ceremonies, births, leaving home or very emotional days. Do they play a role in development of some people's PTSD?
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    Not Knowing Who Is Toxic And Who Is Not Problem Resulting From Ptsd?

    Does anyone else have trouble telling who is toxic and not? I seem to have started having great trouble with telling toxic and non toxic people apart. For some people it may mean that they trust too many, but for me it means I hate everyone equally pretty much. I guess I don't discriminate. This...
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    Scapegoating Of Escalating Domestic Violence Patterns In A Family ?

    Has anyone else been blamed by their dad for their dad hitting/attacking their mum? When I went to university and started working whe I was 19, My dad's domestic violence escalated a lot towards my brothers and sister and mother. I stayed at uni but returned to my family on holidays. It was on...
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    Dual View Of The Trauma, Brain Can't Decide Which

    Does anyone else know anything about having an unconscious dual view of their trauma? I realised recently I had a view that was beneath my conscious that my mother behaved the same as my attacker in my attack.(1st view). I got that view because my memory laid down wrong after my trauma due to...
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    Letting go of the illusion of control

    Has anyone else have an illusion they can control bad things that happen in the world, when they can't. I have trouble accepting that I just can't control everything bad that other people do. When I was raised in my family I was constantly blamed for the abuse and domestic violence by both...
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    Paragraphs Versus Sentence Breaks.

    I've noticed on the forum that moderators often correct people on their grammar by asking for paragraphs. However when they explain a paragraph, they actually explain what a sentence break/paragraph break is, not what a paragraph is. Sometimes moderators explain that a paragraph is bunch of...
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    Survivor Missions

    Has anyone got a survivor mission? It is like a lifelong pursuit to put pain. Mine is being healthy and positiveness. When I feel pain, I put this energy into something like being healthy/ active and postiveness. My psychologist has a rockery and she adds plants to it when she feels pain.
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    Traumas That Caused You To Do Things Your Morale's Don't Agree With?

    I think this happens in war but also in trauma at home. I had a strong morale to not emotionally blackmail people when I was 19. When my stepfather attacked me, the first thing he said was I had to be like my mum and then, that I had to do what he said, Then he threatened my life in a rage...
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    The damage done when people isolate you

    I was wondering if anyone else is dealing with the damage of a parent isolating you. When I was a child, I noticed my dad would go into a violent rage in my family towards my mum and me often came as soon as I started to develop lots of friends. When the violence happened my mum would get angry...
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    Good News To Brighten Your Day

    https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/media/jason-mcelwain-autistic-basketball-player.555/ Not sure where to post. It is a video about an autistic boy who is in a basketball team.
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