Sooooo....you just have to take the time (lots of time) to allow that person to prove they are trustworthy and for you to learn to trust them.
But how do you know when you're just being stupid and naive?
I've heard anxiety described as your warning system not switching off. I feel like I can't trust my instincts and my emotions anymore. One part of me says, you can trust people, not everyone is like what you've experienced. The other part of me is saying, "Are you nuts???" and the conflict...
I should add....not too long ago, after you all suggested that ALL trauma builds on itself, I realized that something else was indeed probably contributing to the ptsd.
Ok, this is hard. phhhhfffffeeeeewwww. This may be triggering for others, so be warned.
When I was 15 I was working at a...
You know it's almost like exposure therapy, the more we're around eachother, the less triggered I am and actually I've noticed a calming effect now.
Isn't that weird? A nice weird though. :)
Yes, Bec. 15 years of control, emotional abuse, verbal abuse, which was rapidly progressing toward physical abuse.
I lived in an emotional void. I was totally shut down to protect myself, and since getting out, things have been thawing out. It kind of comes in waves and floods.
Ok, Anthony...did you add the drama to my post title??? ROFL!!!
It took about a week for the panic to stop...not as much heart pounding, not feeling like I'm going to hyperventilate as much. Although, I still find myself breathing fast. He takes my breath away I guess! :redface:
The emotions...
Ohhhhhhh...WOW. Strong emotions? Even good ones? Man!
How about new relationships or potential ones? Even just a little CRUSH! Sheesh...it's so overwhelming! My heart races and I breathe so fast I feel like I CAN'T breathe...and we're only friends!
I HATE this. I can't even enjoy a little...
He is a sick person. We're in the middle of court stuff now. He checks out for periods of time, then messes with me. His attorney was literally verbally abusive during my deposition...afterward I couldn't find my way home. The next day I blew up at work, went out to my car and just sat there for...
Oops can't go back and edit.
This is hard. I think maybe it's a dirt road because the condition of it can change? It can be stable one minute and slippery the next depending on the weather. The forest is obviously dark and thick I would think due to fear. The light is dark as well and the sun...
Now you have had a break, go back to every question and look at your response. Try and find what you feel that your mind presented the image it did. Explain colours you chose, textures, water, cup, solids, liquids, space, objects, people, anything and everything that you wrote from your...
This is an imaginery journey down a road. Take in the sights, sounds and colours, just like a video camera recording all that lies surrounding you. Survey the scene, noticing whatis far off in the distance, the background surrounds, the weather, the season and a total image of what you view...
Ok, let me get this straight... Years of abuse culminating in threatening situations is the trauma, situations similar to that are triggers (?)--that's how ptsd works as I understand it. (Although sometimes even if I get excited about something good, I get a little triggered...it's the...
I'm the mom, and most of the verbal/escalating toward physical abuse was directed at d11. I always had to intervene or at least run interference (I would have much rather left but had no money or a place to go at the time). I get all those heart things at different times. Right around the time I...
I am new, so no history yet, sorry. 14 yrs of emotional abuse, which morphed into verbal abuse, and was quickly approaching physical abuse. We never knew what was going to happen. I find noises really bother me sometimes, I think maybe because I would frequently be in another room and hear a...
Soooo.....when the smoke alarm is beeping because it needs a battery and it's starting to trigger me (like now). Or when I can't relax because I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop...that all relates back to the fact that we lived like this 24-7? Knowing that doesn't fix it. How do you 'face...
About 4 months after we 'got out' parts of myself I had shut down for years and years began thawing out. About 6 months after I had an experience like you described...I talked to a male friend about what had happened to us, he had been through something similar, and he gave me a hug--just a...
Ok, this is probably going to be slightly incoherent...How can I make it stop when I am triggered? I was reading one of Anthony's posts about how there's a sort of cycle to it? It seems sort of cumulative to me also, the more triggers I experience the worse I get and for a longer period of time...
Thanks for your replies, more than I expected as I've heard this is a relatively new therapy. What kind of brain damage are we talking about here exactly?
I'm not aware of any other trauma for d11...I don't know, something just sticks in my craw with her. Like there is something there she's...