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    Marijuana And Night Terrors

    Hi everyone! Over the past year, my night terrors have finally subsided. This is the first time in a decade that I've been able to have (mostly) restful nights. Some nights I still wake up with a nervous stomach, but I haven't been getting the visual, terrifying dreams that were once very...
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    The Flirt Response

    my abuser taught me these things as well. it's been almost 20 years now and i'm just starting to understand and unravel everything. (mine was a religious fanatic and stepfather, who believed women invented sin by eating the apple, so that's what we do!) going 20 years without challenging his...
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    The Flirt Response

    i'm so glad i read this thread! i've been too ashamed to bring this topic up to my therapist. i've been able to talk about most things now, but this behavior makes me feel so horrible, reprehensible, like she won't understand, that if i say it out loud, it will confirm that i'm bad. i have this...
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    News Euthanasia In Netherlands For 'incurable' Ptsd

    Hi. I wanted to share an article for discussion. The Independent has a piece that came out today called "Sex abuse victim in her 20s allowed by doctors to choose euthanasia due to 'incurable' PTSD" At my worst, I remember feeling an almost "logical" desire to commit suicide. It became an...
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    Emdr: After The Session

    Maybe your anger is a step forward. It sounds like you are recognizing some injustices that happened in a new way. You have a right to feel angry as you grieve the uglier parts of life. Use your anger for positive change, as a way to advocate for yourself. It doesn't have to be toxic if you...
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    How Do You Explain Ptsd To Others?

    I've explained it to friends as being like a computer glitch. The trauma memory files are too large for our processing system. They overwhelm the computer (your brain) and shut it down. The computer is stuck trying to process this file and cannot move on. The system already knows what is means...
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    Budgeting For Ptsd

    Hi everyone. I'm curious about your experiences with managing the monetary costs of treating PTSD. I am making my best effort to invest in myself by going to the doctor when I need to, visiting a therapist every week and taking medication (hopefully just for the time being!) While I see the...
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    Is It Safe To Tell My Therapist About Suicidal Ideation?

    I imagine this has been brought up in other posts ... so redirect me if necessary. I'm afraid to have an honest conversation with my therapist about suicidal ideation. I've told her that I experience this but that I have no intention of killing myself. These feelings generally come in waves...
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    Negative core belief: my suffering is inferior. i am inferior.

    Thank you both so much for responding. :) My heart has been so heavy and it made me feel really nice to hear from a couple of understanding souls. I have been struggling with the idea that I can be well too and that I deserve it!
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    Negative core belief: my suffering is inferior. i am inferior.

    I am the youngest of 6 children, all of whom were severely abused. At least in my mind, the oldest were beaten the most, exposed the most to drugs, sexually violated the most ... But I am the one with PTSD. I am the one who couldn't handle it. Many times while they were being beaten, I had to...
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    Trigger: I Haven't Done Something I Am Bad

    When I am suffering from anxiety and facing a tough task, at times I become so afraid of doing something wrong (being bad) that I freeze in fear. I can't go on because I don't want to risk a mistake. Lately I remember being a little and being threatened with a beating if I didn't clean my room...
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    What Is Recovery Anyway?

    I love when I can absord my mind in a book. It's so nice to immerse yourself in someone else's story and remind yourself that there is so much going on beyond you and your story. In that sense I find PTSD so egotistical, like "Listen to ME! I'm all that matters!" My concentration hasn't been so...
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    What Is Recovery Anyway?

    \ Thank you for posting this @The Albatross. It makes sense, but it didn't occur to me that there are natural stages to pass through. It's strange to observe how I have unconsiously followed this patter this year - from outbursts of anger (maybe something like, "please listen to me! i'm not...
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    What Is Recovery Anyway?

    Hi everyone. This question may seem basic, but I am struggling to grasp what it actually means to "recover" from PTSD. I have read in many articles that recovery from PTSD is possible, but I've been in it for so long, I have to admit that I don't even know what that means or what that would feel...
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    Getting Irritated Reading Threads

    I keep thinking about this comment. I understand where you are coming from, but I suppose in my PTSD mind, this did feel like jab. I'm a new member of the forum and I have mentioned the recent passing of my father in a previous post. This isn't why I have PTSD but it has caused a serious flair...
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    Trading Off Symptoms

    Hi everyone. I started a thread a couple weeks ago about the value of talk therapy (that I felt it wasn't helping and that maybe I could go it alone.) I kept hesitating on how to respond, so I thought I'd start a new thread, about trading one coping mechanism for another. I'd like to hear about...
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    Is Talk Therapy The Answer?

    Hi everyone. I hope you are having a wonderful start to the week! I've quickly gathered that many PTSD sufferers out there are dissatisfied with their therapist. I am one of them, but I am feeling doubts about what to do, or if I should return at all. In March, I started taking Paxil and...
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    I Know I Have Ptsd

    Do your nightmares occur early in the night? My experience with PTSD nightmares is that they occur shortly after I fall asleep. If Prazosin affects REM sleep, perhaps you are having them before you enter REM?
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    Sufferer Beginning To Understand Flashbacks

    Hi everyone. I hope you are all having a great day. I am on here because I am going through a great deal of pain and recently beginning to understand what PTSD is. I have been living with symptoms since I was a teen, but just recently discovered that my symptoms are from PTSD. I am now 26. I...
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