First time go around. Filled out paperwork.
Yeah I think I know where to find disability lawyers and I heard that appeals are the rule. :(
This evaluator confused the hell out of me.
I don't know who she works for. It's in a chiropractor clinic but she isn't a chiropractor.
I'm scared to order food. What if ride comes early. But it is good idea. I may do this anyways.
Yeah I will hang on and will not end life anytime soon. Just got hit with this and it makes me feel...
My evaluation ran over so my ride evaporated off to other jobs
I can’t get a new ride for two hours
I haven’t eaten
No food places in walking distance
I’m lonely and feel terrible because told evaluator about trauma.
She said that I won’t get help from social security most likely, and I...
Hi,
I just got a call from social security disability that I'm going to be getting an appointment in the mail soon for a doctor evaluation.
Looking on the web, it sounds like the only reasons they send you to a doctor for evaluation is weak medical evidence or contradictory medical evidence...
Yeah... EMDR really needs to be done after the patient has established some kind of good coping mechanism framework. My therapist is working on prepping me for EMDR, and my raw coping skills are actually good. They still aren't good enough for EMDR. He had a list of requirements that I needed to...
Yeah, what Eve said -- fear can serve a purpose. I read a book all about fear and its usefulness once.
Fear makes you aware of a situation. Then you can take steps to dissect it, and see from context what to do about it. Reaching out, as you did, to find out more about this type of situation...
I'm very glad. I hope you stay with us -- starting a trauma diary in one of the trauma forums is a start to reprocessing through writing. You can read other diaries (like mine) to get an idea of what can go into one.
The "members only" trauma diary section is not shown to non-members and thus...
(I realize that all I said is very cold of me, but I have been through it and seen it happen repeatedly through the news, as I tend to study up on this stuff. And it so very often ends badly for the little family. I escaped and am kind of a "best case scenario" outside of "abuser realized they...
Ah. My father was like the neighboring family's father. Getting strangled only once is more than enough to indicate that not only is a relationship abusive, but dangerously so.
I don't know if it will comfort you but generally in these cases the abusive father, if he has homicidal intentions...
By the way -- pick up a good book about PTSD. Learn about your condition, because it is really only through understanding it that you can make bigger steps to getting better.
Hi,
PTSD kind of isn't a condition you can just get over or cause to disappear quickly. You can make gradual progress towards managing symptoms, and some treatments can help with reprocessing memories more quickly, but there is no easy cure.
You need a therapist who has experience with...
Heh, yeah. They are so not my friends. Haha. I need to stop referring to them as such. Old habits ...
And yeah, I am trying to accomplish a career change to art. It is so weird.... Like, coding is creative, but not in the same ways that art is. And even so, the visual arts are different from...
Sorry for the panic in the previous post.
I am doing stuff now and remembering what a bunch of ableist assholes the tech world is in general.
And yeah, all those ableist friends are no longer my friends, so that's good. ^_^
My symptoms were bad years ago and just kept getting worse. Towards the end I was using up so much of my intermittent leave (which was unpaid)... And of course that didn't help.
Nowadays things are just so bad I haven't been able to work consistently for over a year. The nightmares are...
Also my therapist says it is not normal to be on a 7 on the Subjective Units of Discomfort scale almost every hour of the day and I think I should probably take his word for it there
So therapy -- and I have so little energy right now because I'm exhausted; 50 miles to an appointment and 50 miles back is exhausting -- and like my therapist says that I have a lot of coping skills and that I'll probably be ready for EMDR sooner than I think.
And I was like, "wha? How...
Wow. Thank you all so much.
I am writing these points down in my planner so I know where to look for coping the next time I start cycling on this.
Love you all. :)
I need help on a thing.
Why should I spend money on myself when so many people are in need, including a few of my friends?
If I can answer this, I can cut the cycles of self abuse that perpetuate themselves.
Basically two years ago I helped a young man get out of an abusive relationship...
@joeylittle - you're not annoying at all! I live for this stuff these days. :)
Thank you so much for the demonstration of the CBT thought record method. I'm going to add it to my planner as another tool to look at when I feel numb or when I get calmer after doing some of the relaxation methods...