Can’t tell you how happy my inner child is for what happened yesterday with the Universe stepping in and making a decision that has been needed to be made for quite some time.
Let the healing begin!
Went to see my new T that I had been seeing on a weekly basis.
Began to tell her about what had happened to me since I had last seen her the week before. She stopped me from talking and told me that I couldn't talk or vent about what I needed to, because in her words: That is in the Past...
My neighbor came over and helped me to decide where to put the whiskey barrel I got for in the front of the house. It looks really good where we decided to put it and now I have it filled with the potting soil.
The next step is to decide what flowers to plant in it!
I'm gradually feeling better as each day goes by. I was beginning to wonder when I would feel the shift take place, but it is finally happening.
I believe to finally end my relationship with the T I was seeing has helped me to stand on my own two feet in some ways! I didn't realize how down I...
Do yard work anymore...like mowing the yard! My body is telling me that I can't keep this up at my age!
So one of these days, I have a feeling, I'm going to have to find someone to do it for me. Just too stubborn to pay someone to do it, so will see if I can make it through another year...
I finally was able to find a "peace lily" plant for my home and I bought it.
I just knew that I needed it for my home so I can look at it on a daily basis. It is a reminder of so many things to me!
I am grateful that I realized that it was time to stop seeing my T for the time being. My stress cup was too full when I began to see her and so we talked today about where I am now.
I am so grateful that I was led to see her. I know that I can go back to see her when I need to but at this...
Had no idea I would feel what I am feeling after the doorbell ran at 8:00 a.m. this morning, sure has affected me. I didn't answer the door!
Then of course, the doorbell rang again later in the day with someone going door to door, sure learning how my body is reacting to all of this, not in a...
I realize that it is going to take some time for me to heal from years of seeing my former counselor and all the damage that she did to me.
I realize that I now have someone who knows what they are doing and she is definitely in my corner to help me through this.
Feeling free of my former counselor.
The past several weeks have been tough but with the help of my new T, I have been able to unload a lot of baggage that was not mine in the first place. Now I just plan on doing some more healing and feeling free from her!
Why did you have to wait until after 8:00 on a Sunday evening to call to tell me that we have an appointment on Monday.
I have been waiting all week to hear from you. Tomorrow should be very interesting when I see you as right now I'm kinda :mad::mad::mad::mad::mad:.
Feeling better for some reason, probably since the flu is over with, and stayed up to re-organize my kitchen and then couldn't believe how much I like it.
It's like after I work through something within me, I see that I need to make a change like I did with my kitchen!
I wonder if you will remember that you didn't schedule another appointment with me because your phone was dead when you cash the checks that I gave your for past sessions.
So I wonder how long I will have to wait until you have re-charged your phone!
When you begin to wonder if your T will actually call you to schedule another appointment with you as when you last saw her, she couldn't schedule a time because her phones were dead and you begin to wonder if she will forget you even after her phones have been re-charged.
I realize that me needing to rest these past few days is an indication of how much I've been overdoing it for too long.
In other words, my nervous system needs some TLC from me!
I am looking at my February calendar and
It says on it...You Are Loved...
I placed my heart shaped wreath above my computer,
I also have also red roses sitting beside me,
I guess I'm telling myself...Happy Valentine's Day!
Looking forward to my T appointment on Monday as last week I was just mad and spent it releasing so much anger towards my toxic neighbor and sister.
I am at a different place and want to continue to make progress as I work at keeping my boundaries with my neighbor. Need lots of rules in place...
Feeling better as I probably did have a touch of the flu, couldn't believe I was running a temperature but now can feel the difference on a daily basis.
Even feeling better by all the discoveries I am feeling as I release my toxic neighbor. I didn't realize how much she was affecting me but...
I realize that my toxic neighbor is reminding me of my mother in so many ways!
My neighbor keeps bringing up my sister to me, just like my mother did, so now the pieces are starting to fit together. More anger to let go when I see my T next week!
I shared with my T today all the times that my sister had been verbally abusive towards me.
It felt so good to no longer be carrying about all those feelings and memories as I have for a very long time!
I owe myself a Peace Lily plant but I will probably have to wait until it is Spring to buy me one.
Having peace is so very important to me and I like the idea of having it to watch it grow and bloom at this time in my life!