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    Parts but no did?

    This may be a stupid question or may already be in a thread somewhere that I haven't found yet so I apologise. I'm wondering if you can have parts but not have DID? For me it feels like there are different "parts" of me. Like in therapy today the 7/8 year old part of me was very strongly...
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    What just happened?!

    I had a t appointment this morning and something happened at my appointment that I don't really know what it was. I was upset/emotional/on edge when I went into my appointment this morning to begin with because of a miscommunication with my T that triggered lots of negative thoughts. We have...
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    News Tiger, tiger

    Have any of you read the book Tiger Tiger: A Memoir by Margaux Fragoso? If so what are your thoughts on it?
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    Missing my t

    My T is on vacation right now. I am trying to make it through these 10 days, but I feel like I'm falling apart. I know I should be happy for him, that he needs his time away and to spend time with his family. I am happy for him, but I also kind of feel abandoned, like he doesn't care, scared...
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    Is He Right?

    My husband and I were sitting at our dinner table and he just told me, very seriously and matter-of-factly, that he though it was best if I killed myself. When I got upset, he said that he just wants the what's best for me and is just thinking about me and how much I struggle. He said that he...
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    Feeling Like I Don't Matter

    I am really struggling today. I was feeling suicidal yesterday, so I called my T. He didn't answer so I left a message. I made it through the night without hurting myself in any lasting way, but I am still having some frequent and persistent suicidal thoughts. I am scared. I don't want to...
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    There Must Be Something Wrong With Me

    My apologies in advance that this post is so long. I have been working in therapy on not blaming myself for being sexualy abused as a child. I thought I was making some progress on it, but I seem to be hitting a wall. I might be able to tell myself that what my grandfather did to me as a...
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    Sex As Self-punishment?

    At my last therapy appointment my T and I were talking about the self-harming (cutting) that I have done in the past. He asked if cutting was a way for me to punish myself. I said no, that it was more because the physical pain distracted me from the emotional pain I was feeling and was easier...
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    Trauma Narrative Questions

    So, my T and I have talked about it and I am going to start working on my trauma narrative. He said that for the first part I should write out my memories of the abuse, but leave out my emotions and thoughts that I was having at the time. He said that I will go back later and add in my...
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    Building Self-confidence

    It was suggested to me today that I work on building my self-confidence and public speaking skills. Any suggestions on how to do this?
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    Feeling Like I've Messed Things Up

    I feel like I've messed things up with T. I don't know if I can go back. I don't know what to do. I finally emailed T and asked him if I could talk about my memories of the abuse with him. He responded and I thought things were okay, he seemed really supportive of it. But then I asked him...
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    Should I Share What I Wrote With T?

    OK, first of all, sorry I have been posting/asking so many questions lately. I just really don'the have anyone else to ask these questions too. So, on to my question... I wrote out some stuff about the sexual abuse I experienced as a child and my feelings/thoughts about it. I have been...
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    My Name Should Be Lettinggoofhope Right Now...

    I am having a difficult day today. I don't know if I can keep going. Ever since the visit from my father and grandfather (my abuser) last week I haven't been doing well. I am struggling with suicidal thoughts right now. I don't know why I should stick around just to continue to feel this...
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    Emdr Question. Safe Place No Longer Safe?

    I had an appointment with my emdr therapist the other day. It was a pretty tough session. I was feeling worse (as in my score was higher) at the end than when we started. My therapist had me go to my safe place in my mind so that I would be okay to go home. While I was in my safe place, my...
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    Childhood Why Didn't Anyone Care?

    Why didn't anyone care what happened to me as a child? Why didn't anyone stop it from happening? Why didn't anyone love me? What did I do to deserve it? Was I not good enough? Was I just a throw away who had no worth or value? Why didn't anyone protect me? I have been asking myself these...
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    Childhood Investigation Process For Csa?

    Not sure if this is the right section for this... My 7 year old daughter just told me this weekend that my 3 and 4 year old daughters were sexually abused by their cousin (he is 8) on several occasions when they were over at his house. She said he would bribe them or force them to do things by...
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    Talking About Sexual Abuse In Therapy

    Ok, so this is my first time posting here. A little bit of background, I have been meeting with my current therapist for over a year now and I believe we work very well together. I trust him and respect him and have found the work we have done to be very helpful. My last few therapy...
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