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  1. Bananie

    Just looking for feedback, i guess - reaction to appointment summary

    I get these after visit summaries from my t. They're basic, just what I talked about, his response, goals and plan. Digression already; At my first appointment he said, I send after visit summaries if you want them, do you want them? And I said, sure, why not? And he said some people don't like...
  2. Bananie

    Such a little thing, but...

    I finally bought a pair of shoes! I've been wearing (really falling apart) sneakers against dress code to work lately because I couldn't bear to wear the only acceptable pair of shoes I had because they had a slight heel, and I just couldn't seem to get to a store. I hate shopping, I hate the...
  3. Bananie

    Slowly collapsing like a flan in a cupboard - talk to supervisor &/or human resources?

    I started this job 8/28. It's a call center. There was a month of training. That went ok. Then we went out on the phones. Within a week of being in the phones, I ended up in the hospital, for a possible heart issue (I had a heart attack 3 years ago). It was only an overnight stay, followed by a...
  4. Bananie

    Just call me bruiser

    I have been dealing with (I think) trauma related stomach issues lately. Monday I ended up throwing up at work. First at my desk in the garbage can, and then in the bathroom. While in the bathroom, a cleaner asked if I was ok, then called security (as is protocol). Security came, they called...
  5. Bananie

    I just broke my therapist's chair :(

    Right at the end of the session. I guess it just couldn't take my weight constantly shifting on it anymore. She didn't really seem phased, but I skedaddled as fast as I could, and now I'm belatedly mortified. So, now, you guys spill. What are some of your embarrassing moments in therapy?
  6. Bananie

    Remember Walking

    When you thought you couldn't stand, remember what it feels like. That's a lyric from Rob Thomas, The Great Unknown. It helps me at the times when I really think I can't, or just don't want to, go on. I do remember, and I remember how I always keep going, like all of us here, in any way...
  7. Bananie

    Cats Are Such Lovable Jerks

    My cat has been extra clingy lately, which sort of worries me, but also, I don't hate it. I always want to hold her to cuddle, but she usually jumps away and then settles just out of arm's reach, cause she still wants to be petted, just not held. She was laying on my stomach today while I leaned...
  8. Bananie

    Tale As Old As Time

    I'm sorry, I know this subject has been covered, and I'm not even here to ask a question. I just wanted to vent, I guess. My therapist of almost 2 years cancelled my last appointment, and then left the clinic. He did call, and I let it go to vm, so I could have a vm. He is "so sorry that he has...
  9. Bananie

    Wunderbar!!

    I'm just so super excited that I'm telling all the world. I walked out of my job last week after a tense working situation came to a head. When I got home from that, I started job searching immediately, and found a position I would LOVE. I wrote a cover letter that referenced Hamilton, and my...
  10. Bananie

    Childhood "you Don't Sound Enthusiastic About That"

    My mother just said that to me after I said "Love you" at the end of the call. Mind you, I had already said it, she must not have heard me say it, so she said it, then waited for me to say it, so I said it louder, which must have made me sound less enthusiastic. You know what b****??? You're...
  11. Bananie

    "i See A Difference, I Hope You Do Too"

    Saw my T on Monday, finally, after a month. I wrote about that session in a different thread. I ended it dissociated (I think), and kinda cranky, and then remembered something awful from childhood, and then my next appointment was cancelled. Anywho, I made it through the memory, and the month...
  12. Bananie

    Just Wanted To Pop In And Say

    Good Morning! Or Afternoon, or Evening! Whatever time it is where you are, I'm wishing you peace, hope, strength and love :)
  13. Bananie

    Never Happened Before

    I am so very lucky that I don't often have sleep disturbances or nightmares. I rarely even see dreams happening, just wake up with vague memories of them. Last night though I had a super clear dream. I was in a CHP explorer uniform, my dad was in some other kind of police uniform, and he had sex...
  14. Bananie

    Feels Like I'm Waging A War

    I was having a text conversation with someone. They mentioned authors that I mistook as musicians, since we were talking about musicians, so I said, oh, dur! And then, well, I don't read much anymore, but I may look them up! They replied, it's ok. I said, I know, but I wasn't looking at it as an...
  15. Bananie

    Childish? Oh Yeah. Do I Care? Meh.

    I've been working at my job for just over a year now. It's basically a job share in an office, but I do overlap with the other woman for a day and a half, and we ended up being pretty good friends. Had a lot in common, similarish backgrounds, I was happy to have found a friend. She's completely...
  16. Bananie

    Something Random That Might Make You Laugh

    So, I live in an apartment in a building that used to be a general store. When I was looking at the place, my roomie said "this part was where the butcher shop was. These 'trap door' things in the floor were the meat holes where they threw the parts down to the basement." I totally believed...
  17. Bananie

    When New Memories Occur Between Sessions

    I saw my T on Monday, 4 days ago. It wasn't...the best session(?). I told him how I had an appointment that night about starting a DBT group, and it turned into a DBT group because I originally contacted the leader about her Women's Trauma group as an "and the horse you rode in on" to him...
  18. Bananie

    Got Back Into Myself By Getting Out Of Myself

    This morning, a friend posted a picture of her son covered in stickers. It was adorable, but something about the stickers pushed the door to the past open a little. I acknowledged the queasy feeling, but tried to push it away and go about my morning. Then I saw a video of a kid who makes stuffed...
  19. Bananie

    Why Does Every Moment Have To Be So Hard?

    That lyric pops into my head often. Sometimes it's tongue in cheek, and gets me to laugh at myself. Other times, like today, it's whiny and frustrated and earnest. I'm in a rough patch in life. Normal life stress, with the added ptsd flavor. It's fine. I know I'll get through it. But the...
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