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    Loneliness after a trauma anniversary

    Hi folks. I wasn’t quite sure which room to put this in, so I went for general. A few days ago, it was the anniversary of the terrorist attack I survived. We had a nice memorial event, and there were a few people who had survived other attacks there and I made some fantastic connections...
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    Navigating PTSD Anniversary at New Job

    Hi all. I started a new job 6 months ago, and I've been trying to be a "new me", and try not to dwell on my PTSD. However, the anniversary is looming, and last year it threw me into a complete spin. I want to tell my team, but I also don't want to dwell on it, as last time I opened up to a...
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    Occupational Health Review

    Hi folks, I have an occupational health review coming up at work and I'm really worried about it. There's nothing they're having to put in place, and the therapist said that he was struck by how much self-awareness I have about how I can best look after myself. But I just can't help getting...
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    5 Year Anniversary : Terror Attack

    Hello, I've been off here for a while, but it was recently the 5 year anniversary of a terrorist attack I witnessed. There was a lovely commemoration on Westminster Bridge, and a reception in parliament for survivors/families of victims. And I thought this would provide some closure, but it just...
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    PTSD and Imagination

    Hello. I was wondering if any of you guys have noticed changes in your imagination since your traumas? I hadn’t really noticed until recently, except that I lost interest in reading (I used to be an avid reader). But I thought that was down to feeling low. But I read an article about...
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    Keep Hitting Walls

    Every time I reach out for help, I seem to be hitting a dead end. I’m on an 18 week waiting list for EMDR. The psychologist I spoke to asked how I would cope between now and then – I was too afraid to say that I was scared I wouldn’t cope, and I was scared I would reach a point where I would...
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    Do I Use My Own Experience? Work colleague struggling.

    This is a bit of an unusual one I think. One of the very high up people in our company has recently been in a severe car accident. I heard from elsewhere that she's been having flashbacks, so I want to tell her to look after her mental health as well as her physical health, and basically offer...
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    How do you deal with triggers?

    Hi all, I know avoidance isn't a healthy tactic. But there are sometimes when a trigger is going to be too much. For example, at work on Friday everyone was talking about the London Bridge attack, and it took word spreading about my PTSD around the office for people to stop talking about it...
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    A Bit of a Weird One

    Ok. So I'll start by saying I don't think I'm suicidal. I know I would never go through with it. I couldn't put my family and friends through that. I wouldn't want my family and friends to go through the pain and guilt of me committing suicide, because I've known people who have done it, and...
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    EMDR on the NHS

    Hi folks, I have been looking into the effectiveness of EMDR (I have tried CBT and am currently in psychotherapy), and it looks like it's quite effective for PTSD. I don't know whether it is available on the NHS though. I've looked on NHS Choices, and it has info about it, which leads me to...
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    My Terror Attack

    I want to talk about the terror attack from the beginning. I have been asked questions about it, and talking about the bits and bobs has put it all disjointed in my mind again, so I want to type out what happened, beginning to end, and hopefully that will put things straight in my mind again. If...
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    Seasonal Affective Disorder and PTSD

    So I'm having PTSD symptoms again. I'm not sure if it's because I was asked about the trauma recently and it's brought it all back again, or if it's partly to do with the time of year. I'm feeling really down and depressed. I have previously suffered from Seasonal Affective Disorder, and it...
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    Feeling triggered by people's questions

    Hi all, I have been feeling pretty stable for the past year or so, but recently somebody at work found out I had witnessed an attack, and keeps asking questions about it. It came around because of a discussion about forgiveness, and I told her that I had worked hard on not clinging on to...
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    Unexpected Trigger

    Hi folks, I just wanted to share something with you, and hope that some people can relate/reassure me it’s normal! I was in training for a new job at a tourist attraction, and they were talking about customer feedback. And suddenly they showed an image from a terrorist attack. It was to show...
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    13 reasons why - discussion thread

    I'm not sure if this is in the right place, so feel free to move it if not! I was wondering if anybody had watched 13 Reasons Why and whether it's a trigger, or a good catalyst in starting discussions around difficult topics? *Season 2 spoiler alert!* I thought the portrayal of PTSD after a...
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    Bad episode last night

    I had such a bad anxiety/hyperviligant attack last night. Meaning I am trying to get through today on around 2 and a half hours sleep. I'm so exhausted and feel like I am on the brink of tears/another panic attack. If someone could make me feel better, that would be grand! :(
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    Sexual Assault Is there any point in reporting?

    So, over a year ago I was seeing this guy, and on our first date I got incredibly drunk and he had to escort me home. I remember saying 'please don't have sex with me because I'm too drunk to say no'. He did it anyway. I just guessed that I was too drunk and that I had consented without...
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    Infuriating interaction

    So yesterday, I went to an event which took a lot of courage - it meant using public transport, going through crowds, and finding my way to somewhere unfamiliar. Not to mention speaking in front of over 100 people. I saw someone at the event who is on a committee with me - but I haven't been...
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    More sensitive to criticism since the trauma

    Does anyone else find their PTSD makes them more sensitive to criticism? I know it's a really weird link, but I used to be able to take criticism on the chin. Take it, change it (if possible), move on. But since my trauma, even the slightest criticism, or a headshake/disapproving look from...
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    Does it count as avoidance?

    Hello, I was caught up in the Westminster terror attack in March, and since then I have been suffering with PTSD. I used to work near Westminster, and I would have anxiety attacks almost every day on my way to work. Fast forward to December and my contract at work ended and I started a new...
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    Scared to go on holiday

    Hello, So I have to fly on Friday and I am getting more and more panicky. My PTSD is nothing to do with flying (but it is related to terrorism). I've never been scared to fly before (but I haven't flown since the attack). It's bothering me because I saw something weird on the tube the other...
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    Saw something suspicious on the tube

    I saw something suspicious on the Tube this morning - a guy was acting really strangely and it made me ridiculously anxious and I didn't know what to do. He snapped at me when my foot brushed against his, and was fidgeting really nervously with his rucksack. He then pulled his hood up and...
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    Self esteem in the toilet

    I am feeling so down at the moment. My anxiety/PTSD is affecting me a lot right now. I am on a temporary contract with my job and that is coming to an end, and I have had getting on for 100 rejections in the past 6 months or so, if not more. My industry (publishing) is just so competitive...
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    Anybody else worried about bonfire night?

    I have been invited to a bonfire party with some family friends, and I was really looking forward to it. We go every year, and it is always a lovely evening. I was excited about seeing the fireworks. But after seeing my friend post a picture of the fireworks he's bought for the evening - I...
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    Discussing different issues with t

    Hello, I am in CBT at the moment for PTSD, but I also have OCD. They are sort of linked (intrusive thoughts etc), but they are also quite separate. I don't know whether to tell my therapist about the non-PTSD related thoughts, or whether focusing on recovering from PTSD will help the OCD as...
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