DID And Demons
I'm just posting a non-live link that I found surprisingly interesting, given
my anti-fanatism stance:
Go to 'ministeringdeliverance.com'
and on the far right there is a section on "Inner Healing & Restoration".
It's all about DID being a real thing from abuse.
seaworthy
I don't know. As I understand it, no matter how numerous or distinct the alter identities, the correct diagnosis is DDNOS if the host consistently experiences co-consciousness for the behaviors AND the emotional responses of the alter parts. I'm just realizing that I have NOT experienced...
Sorry that I can't be more helpful in finding the link. I'm pretty NO-TECH. I only know this grace counseling place
is the one in a small town in Canada and not another one one in Colorado. Thanks for any help in getting this graph made available to users.
seaworthy
Hi Fellow Dissociators,
I've been off the forum for a few weeks, sequestered for processing and reading.
I have found two books very helpful, if you're a dissociator.
"Treating Dissociative Identity Disorder--The Power of the Collective Heart"
and the indispensable, practical, easy to read...
It's my Birthday! and last night I got to sleep on my Pure Comfort 3" Memory Foam Mattress Topper from Costco.com for $130 USD plus shipping.
I love it! It's not hot! It's like floating on a cloud. I feel Good!
seaworthy...Zzzzzz
Sorry to reply again, but how do I start a new post in this group?
One movie that has meant something to me is "Lust for Life" with Kirk Douglas. It's about Van Gogh, who had temporal lobe seizures, which is the
area of the brain supposedly affected by PTSD and which gives rise to dissociation...
I definitely go into 'freeze' mode. In all of my assaults, I just go helpless and numb and on the ceiling as I did as a child.
Later on, I feel driven into some 'fight' mode that I'm also terrified and conflicted to carry out and so I get passive-aggressive.
seaworthy
Welcome Johnnyboy...I certainly understand not trusting anyone. I've been through some strange stuff that leaves
me isolated. Thanks for the feedback on the Trazadone...I had some of that for sleep and felt like a log.
seaworthy
Welcome Fhawn. I'm pretty new here and finding my way around the forum and finding good resources and people.
I have Trauma from many events that span over 20 years. For me the first step in starting to deal with the Trauma is
to get removed from the Traumatizing situation and to minimize...
Glad to know I'm not the only one crVpped on in the oxymoron of 'health care'. I named these exposures as 'Hazmats' a long time ago
and try to suit up, realize my whole mind is going to be toxic from it, and I'll have to feel dissonant until the stuff slides off.
seaworthy
I feel paralyzed by anxiety. I don't want to be on any chemicals for two reasons: (1 I want to get in touch with what is me and (2 I don't have access to someone
to prescribe for me. I did have a script for Klonopin and Valium, but both my neurologist and my medication-only shrink abandoned...
I've never been married at age 53 and I don't know if I plan to, except to get social security survivor benefits...paperwork. I lost a good
18 years of my life in my 30's and 40's because I was being Traumatized all those years. I wasn't free. The only interaction with anyone for these years...
"I discovered yesterday, after the fact, that I had reacted to a situation as if it were something that had happened in the past."
So glad to read your sentence. What progress that you discover your reactions. I am trying to get to this point...to have my actions
and emotions present to what...
Hi LotusRoot,
Glad you're hear. I'm somewhat new here too and just coming out of 18 years of dissociative hell. I am finding a lot of good
resources and people on this forum. I'm finally seeing that maybe I can get healed from the Trauma(s) and uncontrolled dissociation
and hurdles of grief...
Temporal lobe epilepsy (TLE) has been predominant on one side of my family. One of the hallmarks symptoms in my family was dissociation.
Persons who have been Traumatized and whom have the ability, tend also to dissociate. I've asserted that the same neurochemical phenomenon which
leads to...
Gee, 2not...you really wrote the words for me. I am 53 and have a thread that runs in mind all the time about getting older. There hasn't been
a time in my life that I haven't been involved in someone's brutal, long-term suffering death. I know that some of my Trauma(s) are helpless...
Boy! I certainly relate to this anxiety about future security. I'm in the same boat with life insurance and other people's kids
and finding out yesterday that the State of NC took over my residency from the State of Alaska and the Soc. Sec. Admin now
has no record that I exist. I guess since...
I woke up this morning in a familiar state of terror. I do my best to get an awareness or even dialogue with whatever this state represents in terms of past Traumatic events. I'm finding that if I can get a picture of the horrid feeling, I can use that as my target incident in my EMDR. I want...
I've been so confused about my C-PTSD. I had chronic tension, humiliation, violence in my childhood, marked by some events that were Traumatic in themselves. I healed from the Traumatic events but didn't see the less obvious scars left by just living in that environment. I was a small child...
Welcome NativeRose...I just found this forum last month. I too am ready to resolve the last 20 years of Trauma
and am coming to grips with the motivation and commitment it will take to bear flashbacks, etc.
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Welcome timebomb...I just joined this site last month. I really relate to being a captured situation and exposed to horrors. I
am just now coming back into the world after having to retreat to wildnerness isolation. I haven't been tormented such by
anger (except at myself), but frozen in...