Welcome. Your experiences with the mental health field are unfortunately very common. PTSD seems alien to many of these folks. Welcome. You'll get alot from this site.
Hi Lisa. I have had awful experiences with most meds I've tried. SSRI's have been the worse. They give me horrible stomach upset, the sweats, and make my body feel as if I had the flu. This doesn't happen to everyone, and for some people these effects pass. They didn't for me. I'm using...
You should be angry and stick to your gut feeling. It is the right one. Other folks, especially family at times, seem to be the worse at viewing things through our eyes. Abuse is not something you will "get over" or "forget". I know it's difficult, but try to stick to your beliefs. You are...
I was probably only on the 3 mgs, bec. I'm giggling that this drug has benadryl in it. Benadryl does not do to me what remeron did. That crap knocked me out for days. There's a new drug I've been reading about called Saredutant. Suppose to be out in the states later this year. It works...
I believe the dose was 30mgs. I may be wrong. It was a while ago. Life's rough these days. Just can't shake this gloom and doom feeling. I'll post about that later. I don't take psych meds. Haven't for years. I'm better for it. Benadryl works great for me when I can't sleep. And it...
Hi bev. I've not posted in a while, but I read daily. My major pet peeve in my work to help myself heal is psych docs. Most of these folks know nothing but drugs and are majorly influenced by huge pharmaceutical companies. PTSD is far to complex for their minds to understand. They are more than...
I understand completely. I feel alone and like I've never even known a real me without the pain and loneliness. I'm starting to feel that there is a better life over the clouds. Don't know how to get there yet, but I feel it's there. Your not alone. Keep posting and reading. Hope this...
Just wanted to say thanks to all on this site for being here and being so warm and helpful. This is a good place. I'm pretty socially isolated, and reading and posting here has been a blessing. It's nice to have a safe place to go. Thanks.:hello:
Wendy, my mind is like Hamsters on crack running on a wheel. I'm always thinking 75 thoughts at once. I also used to have trouble sleeping from this. I usually can only slow it down for sleep. Then I start up again. Sometimes I think bad thoughts about myself and other times I'm just...
Hi cl. I'm new here, but I also isolate myself and know this doesn't help. However, sometimes it's just impossible for me to leave my apartment. Writing and reading here is a good sign, I think. It's reaching out and cutting some of the isolation. I know how friggin' tough this is.
I recommend calling the authorities as well. There are 2 instances where I should have done just that, and the situations got worse. You know what to do. Good Luck.
I am in awe of what I'm reading here. I know that meds have helped some, but they were an awful experience for me. I've tried most ssri's; they made every symptom worse and added some new ones. I loved the benzo's best because they went great with my alcohol abuse. Doc's even suggested ect...
My worse symptom is awful self esteem. I was forever told I was rotten and worthless, and I've internalized it. My deepest depressions come from this. Along with the distorted belief that I'm useless and unlovable. Yep, this one's a bugger for me.
Until about 4 months ago, I was drinking every night after work. My depression is still sometimes so powerful I feel as if the air is being sucked out of my lungs. So I very much understand where you are. Reading your posts and those of others is helping to shine some light for me. I didn't...
Hi. My name is Jeff, and I live in Chicago. I'm looking for others with ptsd to have some coffee with and chat. Trying to get out more. So pm me and let me know. I'm a pretty nice guy. Just darn hard to get myself out and about. Thanks.
I identify so much with you. Usually, I'm very mouse-like. People step all over me. I hate conflict, so this is usually ok. But when I do get upset, people think I've gone crazy. Then I wind up apologizing for being angry when I REALLY was angry. Don't know if this helps, but I totally...
I identify with your pacing. I often tend to sort of sit and stare at small dust balls and what not in the corners of my apartment. If I were paid for this, I'd be a millionare by now. Anyway, let's all hope for the best. Sometimes, that's all we can do.
I'm new here, but would like to say that it is a relief to find a place to vent and to see that I'm not alone. There is an intrinsic connection I feel to others who have suffered trauma. It is often impossible for me to read stuff about PTSD, because it often causes me to have overwhelming...
Hi. My name is Jeff, and I live in Chicago. I'm 43. I was physically, verbally, and emotionally abused by my parents and step father from birth until I was around 23. The last 20 years have been filled with depression, anxiety, binge drinking and self-hatred. I've been in therapy now for...