I'm in the same boat. I almost feel like I'm being unfaithful to my boyfriend when those awful flashbacks come back. And I feel guilty for having the flashbacks during sex...I feel "dirty" and "sick" and it's really hard to fight...after, I scold myself for having had the thoughts even though I...
My story is very similar to yours, right down to the ages. I hope you get the help you need. And I hope you're starting to learn that none of the things they made you believe about yourself are true. We are all survivors, making us entirely stronger than the cowards who hurt us. Welcome to the...
Hi,
I recently found out that my little sister was ganged raped when she was 13 and one of the attackers (I don't know who they are) convinced her that I sent them after her. I talked to her for the first time in 3 years (she ran away from home when she was 15...bad behavior as a result of...
i just like this little tune...it's just about letting go...sweet and to the point, by Ani.
growing up, it was just me and my mom against the world.
and all my sympathies were with her when i was a little girl
and i've seen both my parents play out the hands that they were dealt
as each...
I dissociate frequently...for days at a time...I know how scary it can be. It was bad to the point where the doctors were considering calling it Dissociative Identity Disorder, but I eventually managed to control it. I've lost that ability and I'm back to dissociating again...but my point is...
Hi, Harry,
I have severe and complex primary and secondary lifelong PTSD (a mouthful, I know), so I can understand why your wife blames you and sees you as part as the system. What I've gathered from experience is that it's distorted thinking. Clearly, your wife is in a lot of pain, but...
hi, everyone,
i really need to talk to someone badly. so many negative things have happened the last few weeks and i feel like i'm going back to that dark place where nothing matters anymore. i can't concentrate in school at all, my boyfriend's parents are suggesting he leave me because i'm...
i guess i feel really stupid for posting this, i never thought i would. but i've become so frustrated with trying to explain my moods and my dissociation to the people i love, because they just don't get it. i feel "fake" when i do the right things, as though i'm a fraud. and i guess i'm just...