My husband is angry with me right now because I'm so depressed I don't even feel like getting out of bed. He sees it as I'm not even trying to get better or whatever. I can't help feeling like this. I can understand his frustration. But it makes me feel more down in the dumps.
I don't know...
I haven't really been eating right and I just am not feeling the energy to exercise. I take psych meds but then those have never helped no matter what I've taken. I'm feeling so emotionally and physically drained.
I've been MIA from this site for a while now. I've been going through a really hard time, distancing myself from everyone in my life.
I know I'm severely depressed and I don't know what to do about it.
I keep having harmful thoughts and I keep ignoring them but they keep coming back. IF I...
I haven't been on here since just before Thanksgiving. I've been going through a rough patch here lately. I've been quite reclusive and withdrawn. I don't really know what's going on with me.
Then of course last week I get smacked down with one of the worst migraines I've ever had and was...
I think it's one of those general bugs that goes around. Which I really hate. I still feel icky but I'll get by. Little bit of medicine, some rest (what I can)....
Sorry you caught it. I wouldn't wish sickness on anybody.
Happy Thanksgiving all. I hope that whether you spend it with family or alone that you enjoy the food and well everything. (My meal preparations have already begun--just pre-turkey stuff).
But the real cooking starts tomorrow. Blessings all.
I guess nothing is really actually stupid....we just worry that others might think so, okay I worry.
I'm the dreadful worrier. I worry about everything, fret about everything. Small things, big things, doesn't matter.
I thought about it a little bit and well, things set us off because...
I concur with the others, the best person to determine if you have PTSD is a professional....I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2002, and now by seeing a trauma therapist she has determined through seeing me a few times and getting to know my baseline...that I have Complex PTSD.
But self...
I thought I was the only person that was sensitive to men and a change in their 'tone' of voice. My husband doesn't quite understand....I am very sensitive to a change in tone of voice and often interpret it as yelling. Probably because I was pretty much always getting yelled at and belittled...
It went better than I thought it would. We were able to get him to take off well at least one medication this visit, so I'm tapering down the Depakote. He's absolutely convinced I have either bipolar or borderline but leaning more towards bipolar. Now I've seen alot of therapists and...
I'm feeling a bit better today, though I've still got a scratchy throat, took some medicine before I left the house earlier. Been cleaning up this afternoon since I'm hosting Thanksgiving dinner tomorrow. Which all and all, I love cooking for my in laws...since generally speaking its the only...
I wouldn't like your therapist, he would probably end up on my stack of 'fired' as one psychiatrist put it, therapists. Of course she always blamed me for it.
Anyways, I think that apologizing is fairly common with PTSD...I'm only assuming that of course because I apologize for anything and...
I worked on a journal assignment in my PTSD workbook that I've been putting off by making a collage of a place I feel safe at mentally. I finished it tonight.
Thank you hodge. The other person's comment kind of stung me a little, I'm already having a really bad week as is with my moods and my temperment and just about everything else. I was just looking for insight, sometimes it's nice to have other people give you suggestions. I don't need anyone...
I've been known to think that everything I think is stupid. Years of training I suppose, so used to having things I say or have said be used against me or have people laughing at my thoughts like a therapist I had did to me...makes me question myself.
I've thought at times that some of my triggers are really well I guess to some people they probably sound ridiculous huh?
One major one for me is tomorrow, going into a city I've been in with my ex husband, where his mother and step dad used to live with his brother.
Then there's men and...
I've got a terrible cold. I woke up with it this morning and chances are my 4 year old son gave it to me, and now my husband is starting to get a scratchy throat too. There have been moments today where I couldn't talk my throat hurt so bad.
I went out and bought some Theraflu, but all day...
Great. And on top of that now I'm getting sick. Thanks to my kids for that one, my four year old hasn't gained the concept of covering his mouth when he coughs. Tis the season.
You know, generally Thanksgiving doesn't bother me, sometimes I get a little depressed over Christmas, but the...
It's hard to keep anything in my head when I'm in, well I'm always critisizing myself. I have blinders when it comes to seeing anything positive. I should say thanks to my folks and my teenage peers. Besides being made fun of by my parents and my younger sisters (get upset and they'd say 'get...
The VA healthcare system and the disability processing is aggravating. My psychologist felt like I should be 100% permanent instead of 70% service connected with individual unemployability. The doctor they had me see for my eval saw me for a whole of about 15-20 minutes. I would think it...
I don't know why, well I usually am on edge anyways but today has been especially bad, everything has been making me startle. My husband coming around a corner, standing behind me, sudden noises...everything.
I have no idea what is going on, I know I had a nightmare last night about someone...
I was on Effexor for about a year and it was an awful med to be on and an even more awful med to go off of.
Then the military put me on Seroquel which made my weight sky-rocket from 170 to 230 in less than 6 months but the doctors told me that I just needed to eat better and exercise more...
Thank you for the welcome. Everyone thus far seems very nice and considerate and that is helpful. So is some of the information I've been able to assimilate.
I don't know if it's because he is uneducated about PTSD or is just so convinced I have bipolar his vision is clouded (so to speak).
It's not like any of the mass of medications he has me on are helpful anyways. Maybe the anti-anxiety med helps some of the time and God knows I wish...
That helps a little with the understanding, especially since I learn best with pictures. I get overwhelmed then that hooks up with anxiety and top it with irritability and I'm a joy to have around.
Then I start feeling guilty for feeling this way which is self defeating I suppose.