I limit my Facebook to just a few people and use it mainly to set up meetings. I don't like to start reading things on it for the same reason as others... there are plenty of triggers there. I used to have a Live Journal... its gone. Used to use AIM to chat with folks... its gone. It isn't...
I used to experience sleep paralysis every other night. I quickly learned that I could NOT sleep on my back because that correlated quite specifically (and I believe has also been shown in some studies to be the most common position to get it in).
I'm not a fan of benzos and didn't want to...
I've been with my husband for 5 years and it has been a slow process for us to understand each others' needs. It can't happen over night, especially if you start with someone who doesn't know anything about PTSD, or like my first counselor, thinks it only applies to war veterans. I wouldn't...
I've had a bit of an opposite experience. When I started my SSRI, the nightmares lessened. They were still about PTSD related issues... every single one of them... but they didn't bother me as much. When I STOPPED taking the SSRI, for about one week, I had the WORST nightmares and not just...
Wow wildfire, scary experience! Did anything traumatic happen before that blackout? I've had moments where I'm driving home and not thinking, and suddenly realize that I don't remember making a certain turn or crossing a certain intersection, but nothing scary. After I got into a car accident...
PerfectEmpire,
Some of those comments seem like the usual negative things people can get on a review, but I thought the first one, about you being unprofessional, was a rather unprofessional comment itself. I don't like surprises either, and that is one that would really upset me! I applaud...
When I was on the medication I wasn't sure... but after quitting it... ohhh boy! I think that over all, I am better now than when I started the medication back in 08. Back then, nearly every day was a bad day. On the medication I had about one bad day every few weeks. Off of it now after...
I finally have some free time alone, and thought I would come back and visit this forum. I've been thinking about it a lot these past few days because a lot has happened.
I got married last weekend. One of the best days of my life!
A few days before getting married I got in an accident and...
There have been some rare times during the past few months where I suddenly had a feeling come over me that everything is right and peaceful. I then think about PTSD and for a glorious moment, I feel like it is completely gone and I could do all the things I used to do, think the way I used to...
I like public places at times just because I feel less lonely. Its the same feeling I get when I was a kid and I used to be afraid of thunder in the middle of the night, and I would turn on the radio or TV to feel like someone was with me. At the same time, there is the crowd anxiety that...
I used to have all kinds of revenge fantasies. I was and am very angry. Thankfully I have a lot of things to keep me busy (husband, school, etc.) and the anger away and that is how I deal with the anger... keeping busy. As for the ideas of revenge... Lexapro mostly took care of those...
Its when I start having thoughts I can't seem to control that things start getting out of hand. If only I could turn them off! I'm not sure if nightmares are considered intrusive thoughts or not (because I certainly can't help them) but those are probably second worst.
Sometimes when I am triggered and trying to hide it I become a total buffoon and suddenly can't remember how to do simple things like get food from a buffet or start my car. My face also turns red, which at least lets my husband know something is going on. He says I have other signs that let...
I just wish I could better explain that there is no "normal." Or perhaps the fact that what is "normal" for me is different than it is for others, and while it may not be the best thing for me, that is how I came to see the world at this point in time.
Also that it takes time to change. It...
I could be completely off the mark here, but with the realism of some of the shooters lately I wonder if they don't give most people who play them some degree of hypervigilance or other symptoms. I think part of the "fun" is that they are supposed to ramp up the player's sympathetic nervous...
Ever since I started taking Lexapro I get night sweats pretty baed. I had them with Zoloft too when I was taking that some 10 years ago. Its so gross and I keep waking up worrying that I've wet myself or something. =/
One of my coping methods, strangely enough, is keeping myself busy and involved with my studies. If I'm busy memorizing something or reading up on a patient's disease, I won't fill my mind with thoughts that lead to bad times.
Its interesting that you mention thinking about the girls in the...
I was working in the clinic today and as I browsed over the "signs of X or Y disease" brochures I started thinking about how nice it would be if I had one of these to hand out to anyone wishing to become associated with me!
Its also been on my mind because of some recent arguments with my...
*Raises hand*
Not only do I go over and over what I said, but I go over and over what the other person said, wondering what they meant by certain statements. I don't do it all the time; it tends to be more when I am stressed out or already anxious about other things but when it happens it can...
Before I got on Lexapro I had nightmares almost every night and sleep paralysis around once a week. After I got used to the medication I still have nightmares a lot but they are not as bad, and the sleep paralysis has disappeared so far. The problem now is that the one side-effect I get from...
Thank you for the advice everyone. I really appreciate your time. :) I do think that on the one hand, I shouldn't have to explain some things so much, but on the other, if he is having trouble with it and finding a good way to explain it helps, then our communication will improve. I know...
The cyber hug is perfect, thank you much. :0)
I know that I should spend some time grieving but this seems like such a long and drawn out process and I don't want to be a party pooper everywhere I go for the next few months... Maybe its just me, but I'm afraid I'll lose the few people I do...
How can I keep working through PTSD in the face of a huge life change? Which stress should be in the forefront and which saved for later (if its even possible to do such a thing)?
Let me explain the basis for this question: The man I call my "husband" here on the forums (Wishmaster) is not...