NotOnThisSiteAnymore
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Hi, well I don't know where to start.
For some reason I'm just so tired of always introducing myself because I don't know how people will react or think of me. My traumas began when I was born. Was born into a dysfunctional abusive family where feelings and tears aren't allowed so crying is something I must do in private. I was sexually abused by my oldest sister, my step-mother and my cousin from the age of 9 to the age of 12. And when that ended the physical and the emotional began, and it went on until I was kicked out of the house of the age of 15. A few months after that my youngest brother was murdered but the murderer was never caught even though we all know who did it.
I have a history of drugs and prostitution....I'm trying daily to regain back the pieces of my soul or remain sane which is getting harder now that i've started community college. Trying to live a normal life but somehow it feels like I'll never be normal. No matter how hard I try and I hate when people are telling me to try harder or try different things.
The thing is, no matter how many times I tell those people just by breathing is hard enough so I became a member on this forum site to connect with people who understands how it is.
I apologize if I come across as rude or arrogant. It's just that I don't know how to show feelings or if I try it'll come of as really really really awkward.
For some reason I'm just so tired of always introducing myself because I don't know how people will react or think of me. My traumas began when I was born. Was born into a dysfunctional abusive family where feelings and tears aren't allowed so crying is something I must do in private. I was sexually abused by my oldest sister, my step-mother and my cousin from the age of 9 to the age of 12. And when that ended the physical and the emotional began, and it went on until I was kicked out of the house of the age of 15. A few months after that my youngest brother was murdered but the murderer was never caught even though we all know who did it.
I have a history of drugs and prostitution....I'm trying daily to regain back the pieces of my soul or remain sane which is getting harder now that i've started community college. Trying to live a normal life but somehow it feels like I'll never be normal. No matter how hard I try and I hate when people are telling me to try harder or try different things.
The thing is, no matter how many times I tell those people just by breathing is hard enough so I became a member on this forum site to connect with people who understands how it is.
I apologize if I come across as rude or arrogant. It's just that I don't know how to show feelings or if I try it'll come of as really really really awkward.