I dont what it is, ever since the other day when i posted on here and people were like saying i have autism, ive been going in a cycle inside my head going 'you are disordered'. and that line of thinking came up from when i was traumatized a few years back.
those same memories, same feelings, all of it came back.
dissociation confuses the person, and can make emotional connections to other people blurry. dissociation can be a culprit of similar things to autism. autistic people are a bit different, but even if i do have autism, who i am, with my ptsd, can only be dealt one way.
i just dont like how our community here, can be so polarized to thinking 'oh these people are disordered, and these people arent'. it's just not right, we have to see a way that treatment can work, and sometimes, treatment works from seeing 'more than a disorder'. i hope i am making sense to you.
I've already gone to therapy, so thinking 'oh i have autism to deal with on top of all that' , is not going to help me and my insecure beliefs about myself. it does not help with those underlying ptsd stuff.
and now i am scared to write on here, because it's too triggering. i feel like i need 'some requirement' to write on here, like i have to do some 'work' before i can even get any help on here. so i fear writing here at all.
those same memories, same feelings, all of it came back.
dissociation confuses the person, and can make emotional connections to other people blurry. dissociation can be a culprit of similar things to autism. autistic people are a bit different, but even if i do have autism, who i am, with my ptsd, can only be dealt one way.
i just dont like how our community here, can be so polarized to thinking 'oh these people are disordered, and these people arent'. it's just not right, we have to see a way that treatment can work, and sometimes, treatment works from seeing 'more than a disorder'. i hope i am making sense to you.
I've already gone to therapy, so thinking 'oh i have autism to deal with on top of all that' , is not going to help me and my insecure beliefs about myself. it does not help with those underlying ptsd stuff.
and now i am scared to write on here, because it's too triggering. i feel like i need 'some requirement' to write on here, like i have to do some 'work' before i can even get any help on here. so i fear writing here at all.