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In a recent conversation with a friend, she mentioned about the damage meds do to our bodies especially when taken for years. I have been taking Wellbutrin 300 XL for about 18 months and prior to that Remeron. On Wellbutrin I almost don't even notice I take anything. At times I have felt really down and questioned if Wellbutrin was having any effect on me. On one hand prior to any med I do know that I was certain I was to die by successful suicide (had plan the whole bit) and that deep feeling has gone away. From time to time I have very minor SI but nothing like before- My T also thinks I have been able to process and overall improving. Ok so all fine but then it really occurred to me that even though I don't really notice the Wellbutrin there is still an effect. What am I doing to my organs? Will I get really sick because of taking this med (or any) AND what happens when I stop? I must be dependent (seemingly addicted) to taking this. Discontinueing does not look very good - worse depression than before! Increased suicide risk! Crying, emotional, moody, foggy, etc the symptoms sound terrifying.
The longer I do what I am doing am I making the problem worse? I know every action has a consequence and I feel really dumb that I thought this was a good idea. Any thoughts?
The longer I do what I am doing am I making the problem worse? I know every action has a consequence and I feel really dumb that I thought this was a good idea. Any thoughts?