I don't get it. I really don't. Am I just meant to feel depressed, anxious, suicidal & put up with it? Is that part of 'healing'? Because I've been that way for 2 years. Not consistently, but it seems to be getting even worse the closer I come to talking about my 'traumas'. Is it just bad luck, welcome to the world of ptsd, you are gonna feel like crap, you are going to feel even worse then you have ever felt. I have good days, okay days but the bad days come around every week. I feel I'm running out of strength to keep fighting this thing. Is this the way it's going to be? Is there anyway at all to relieve some of the intensity between sessions with my therapist? Should I be calling a doctor, a therapist, what? I am so over it, and very very tired.