I am currently in a relationship-- over 2 years. I have PTSD and I have been very much working on myself in therapy with how I interact with people. I have been really deeply depressed for the last 8 months. I have isolated myself from friends and everyone. (I told this to my partner) I normally feel extreme suicidal thoughts around my birthday- this year I actually didn't. My partner recently informed me that he feels that I haven't worked on myself at all, that we still argue as much as we did before. And that he feels I only have "improved" my relationships with other people and not "us." And that my improvement with other people is really fake because I isolated myself from them. Meanwhile, my partner receives to get help for his issues and refuses to come to therapy with me when I ask. His reasoning is "he doesn't feel he needs it, he is fine." I ask for him to come with me. He has no way to judge whether I am improving or not. My therapist has said continually for the last several months how hard I am working and how she notices such a huge improvement.
I feel like I am always the one being labeled as crazy in this relationship. I am trying not to feel hopeless and trying not to feel that no matter how hard I work it will never be good enough. I just feel so low right now.
I feel like I am always the one being labeled as crazy in this relationship. I am trying not to feel hopeless and trying not to feel that no matter how hard I work it will never be good enough. I just feel so low right now.